Feb 13, 2008 22:14
My Goodness this is the first bite I've had of one of theses, since... The first bite! I love you Zagnut. Who introduced me? A man I no longer know. Do any of you know him? I hope not. Its delicious, but the it wasn't when I bit into it- it brought up a past, that make me cough up a little vomit in my mouth. If you don't have any ugly memories associate with peanutbutter toasted coconut, its lovely.
My life is a constant thresh-hold. All I've ever wanted was some security, or at least a chance to make some myself. At this rate winning the lottery is my only option.
How do I make myself a better person?
How do I make myself a better soldier?
What Can I Do?
This is really driving Al crazy too. Its a bit impossible to make any plans. I'm getting to the point where I might start wanting my life back. If I have to deploy with this detachment- that would be so stupid- I don't want to get 'fragged a/o forgotten. Almost getting to the point where I want to settle down and be a wifey, raise up youngins.
Sometimes things change so frequently. Instead of telling me different things to scare me all the time, she should be telling me what my options are.