Only One
So I've been making some decisions. Which is good. Something I'm hesitant to do, because I don't care about little things, and most things are, in all actuality quite small. There is only one person on earth that I truly, utterly and completely hate, and anyone who can tell me who it is, may very well know me better than I know myself, because I realized it at approximately 15:37 us central time Oct. 17th, 2007, and its a truth that I've held for about 13 years. He's the only person I'd ever have trouble resisting the temptation to hurt, upon encountering or have trouble not seeking out to do harm, and it is for precisely this reason that I do not know where exactly he is any more and weather or not he is still alive. I hope I never find out. I can only fathom eating one kind of meat at any fast food restaurant for the rest of my life, and that's chicken. Although I still love sushi, and I've eaten some delicious dishes with goat meat involved in the main course. As far as love goes, I only want one, (if any at all), other person for the rest of my life, and I've decided exactly who that is. Even if they haven't come to that decision for themselves. I've written more than one will, seeing as my only preference after death is that my body not be desecrated too much or publicly, and that the plug is pulled relatively quickly. My Mom, is and always will be My Best Friend. I do like dogs better than cats. I'd rather eat a snake than play with one when its alive, along with spiders, and nearly any other type of bug or reptile, although I'm not completely closed to the idea. I think I might even rather eat them when they're alive than play with them. I like to shoot things, doesn't always matter what, not until after I've hit it anyway, then what it could've become and the time that we all could've spent with it matters too much. Photography is a wonderful art. I'm very emotional and hormonal, wish that I wasn't. I wish I knew all of the words to more songs. I wonder where fear comes from so that I can stop it. I love the sensation of freefall, someone please offer to take me skydiving I'll go in a heartbeat.
All and all I feel stronger, sweeter, meaner, kinder, fuller, more singular, more wholesome, faithful, complete, wonderful, beautiful, monstrous, more intelligent, less thoughtful, healthier, thicker, bigger, and just more of a person than I did one year ago. I hope I can continue to grow like this. I've learned so much about myself.
I do, however need to be up in less than 5 hours. I only really need 4 anyway. I need to sleep and wake up so that I can do some things so that I can go far far a way for what will feel like a very very long time, but will actually be a little while, and completely worth it.
Now, who can tell me the name of the man whom I cannot help but to wish the worlds greatest harm upon?
All and all I feel stronger, sweeter, meaner, kinder, fuller, more singular, more wholesome, faithful, complete, wonderful, beautiful, monstrous, more intelligent, less thoughtful, healthier, thicker, bigger, and just more of a person than I did one year ago. I hope I can continue to grow like this. I've learned so much about myself.
I do, however need to be up in less than 5 hours. I only really need 4 anyway. I need to sleep and wake up so that I can do some things so that I can go far far a way for what will feel like a very very long time, but will actually be a little while, and completely worth it.
Now, who can tell me the name of the man whom I cannot help but to wish the worlds greatest harm upon?