Upset!
I don't even know what I want from life anymore! IT was starting to get better, but now Mom and her husband are supposedly getting another divorce! MAN AM I SICK OF THIS!!!!!!! THEY NEED TO MAKE UP THERE MIND FOR CRYING OUT LOUD I'M 14!!!!!!!!! I miss being little there was no drama and life was great because we were clueless.
Yesterday church was interesting! I didn't pay any attention in service I had to much on my mind. Heather had surgery friday and so Broc (one of the coolest ppl in the world!)taught our class and I was so stressed I thought I was gunna cry then and there. The lesson was about talking to people with "wisdom" and not keeping everything inside.
So I talked to Broc after class and I felt kinda better and so me said we would hang out after evening service with all the young adults who are all in there early to mid twenties. It was weird its seems like now I can talk to everybody but Abby and it's like we are drifting farther then we ever have before. I don't see the point in having friends or getting close to people when all you do is end up fighting or drifting apart or moving away from some of them or they move away from you!
So I came home and ate my left over chinese food which tasted like cardboard to me like all food is right now! Mom and I fought and then i slept until evening service. Got there ignored everything again and then after went over to Christa's ate tater tots and watched Finding Forrester for the first time and I cried! I don't know exactly what it was, but I felt really awkward hanging out with them, but I used to do it all the time and i never felt this way so I dunno I just might not hang out with them that often anymore.
I got home at like 11:30 and then got online and talked to Greg till 12:15 ish and then tried to go to bed but ended up staying up thinking till like 1:30.Woke up this mornin at like 11 and then got online and talked to a couple people and then Ash came over and we went to McDonald's and then shopping but i didn't get anything so i guess it just counts as walking around the mall.Now I'm about to go finish cleaning before Mom get home from work and I will hopefully see you all at school tomorrow.
Love yas,
Clare
Call if you want
681-0918
Yesterday church was interesting! I didn't pay any attention in service I had to much on my mind. Heather had surgery friday and so Broc (one of the coolest ppl in the world!)taught our class and I was so stressed I thought I was gunna cry then and there. The lesson was about talking to people with "wisdom" and not keeping everything inside.
So I talked to Broc after class and I felt kinda better and so me said we would hang out after evening service with all the young adults who are all in there early to mid twenties. It was weird its seems like now I can talk to everybody but Abby and it's like we are drifting farther then we ever have before. I don't see the point in having friends or getting close to people when all you do is end up fighting or drifting apart or moving away from some of them or they move away from you!
So I came home and ate my left over chinese food which tasted like cardboard to me like all food is right now! Mom and I fought and then i slept until evening service. Got there ignored everything again and then after went over to Christa's ate tater tots and watched Finding Forrester for the first time and I cried! I don't know exactly what it was, but I felt really awkward hanging out with them, but I used to do it all the time and i never felt this way so I dunno I just might not hang out with them that often anymore.
I got home at like 11:30 and then got online and talked to Greg till 12:15 ish and then tried to go to bed but ended up staying up thinking till like 1:30.Woke up this mornin at like 11 and then got online and talked to a couple people and then Ash came over and we went to McDonald's and then shopping but i didn't get anything so i guess it just counts as walking around the mall.Now I'm about to go finish cleaning before Mom get home from work and I will hopefully see you all at school tomorrow.
Love yas,
Clare
Call if you want
681-0918