Help Me
Sigh, i need help. My parents are fighting again over the dumbest shit in the world. For those of you that do not know, my parents were seperated for a long period of time, roughly high school. When i left for college, they got back together to stricly help each other out, i long gave up the hope for reconciliation. So, during breaks and stiff, they seemed to be getting along. They still argue once in a while, but they were acting civil around each other and being nice for a change. Unfortunately, it changed today. They recently started a project where they will rennovate our old houses and buy a new one in World Golf Village. It has been nothing but incredible stress because my mom disagrees with all the decesions made by my dad abd they fight over it all the time. Money, costs, paint, colors, furniture, the lot. Today was the worst one. My mom got soooooo mad that she was screaming at the store, with our huge glass window for the world to see and hear. She kept yelling and told my dad that it was over and that he better find a lawyer. I don't know how much of that is true, but i can't take it lightly. To add insult to injury, they know nothing of my ulcers, busted knee, and cuts, burns, and bruises. If they did, it would be worse. And i know that the situation will only escalate when i go back to school.
With all the mental anguish and the physical agony, i feel like i am falling apart. It feels like early high school all over again and i am getting sick again. For those who knew what i did, that is not good at all. All these feelings are rushing back and i am crying most of the time. I can't remember the last time i smiled, the last time i slept without nightmares, the last time my body didn't have aches and pains. i wake up dreading the day and i go to sleep trying to forget. Please, wish me luck or pray for me, i don't know if i can make it or not. i can't see tomorrow, and i don't want to remember yesterday. i'm really sorry for being like this, but i can't help it.
With all the mental anguish and the physical agony, i feel like i am falling apart. It feels like early high school all over again and i am getting sick again. For those who knew what i did, that is not good at all. All these feelings are rushing back and i am crying most of the time. I can't remember the last time i smiled, the last time i slept without nightmares, the last time my body didn't have aches and pains. i wake up dreading the day and i go to sleep trying to forget. Please, wish me luck or pray for me, i don't know if i can make it or not. i can't see tomorrow, and i don't want to remember yesterday. i'm really sorry for being like this, but i can't help it.