Im not the person you think I am...
It's been awhile since i've updated this thing, and so much has changed in my life. God is really working on my life and my heart. I was really struggeling the begining of this school year. With a new school, new church, new friends...it seemed like everything I used to know was just a faded memory. It was a time of change for me, a transition that I wasn't really thrilled with necessarily. I didn't feel like I was worth anything. I wrote this poem while I was in this trial...
Reflection
I walked by a shattered mirror today
It's reflection brightly shown
A little girl with curly cues
Who didnt want to grow
The pedals of sweet red roses
That's what they used to be
Have now been over taken
By the reality she now sees
Why does she have to bear
This unbearable curse
For she does not deserve it
It cannot get much worse
The one she thought that loved her
Threw her back into the glass
Without even a word goodbye
That's what she remembers last
One day she hopes he'll be by again
To help put the pieces back as one
It really sounds unlikely
But something must be done
Tears fall down her cheeks at nite
Little heart has so much to bear
Will he ever understand the pain
Of making her innocent heart tear
I went to a woman's conference not to long ago, and the Lord totally changed my heart. He gave me so much hope and wrapped his loving arms around me. I just layed there in his arms as he held me close, because he knew that I needed it. No matter what happens to me in this life, or what horrible things I do, nothing can make him love me less. I realized that weekend that I need to leave all the dark areas of my past behind, and look forward to all the hopes and sucesses I have on the horizon of my future. By concentrating on the things that are history can distract me of the promises that lie ahead. It's amazing how God can totally change a person from the inside and how it can overflow into the lives of other people. He did internal surgery on me, and I am no longer the same Brittany Avis you all used to know. Here's the poem that I wrote during the conference...
Reflection Redeemed
I walked by a mirror today
It's reflection over taken me
A woman of God with fire
That's who I long to be
The things that lie behind me
I know I have to leave
The bounding chains of the enemy
Didnt outway the peace I had recieved
Chains of unforgivness choked me
Surely I would have died
But the Glory of the Lord
Showed me He was on my side
He picked up the shattered pieces
Of the reflection I used to know
Placed them back into my heart
And with His gentle hand began to sow
Reflection
I walked by a shattered mirror today
It's reflection brightly shown
A little girl with curly cues
Who didnt want to grow
The pedals of sweet red roses
That's what they used to be
Have now been over taken
By the reality she now sees
Why does she have to bear
This unbearable curse
For she does not deserve it
It cannot get much worse
The one she thought that loved her
Threw her back into the glass
Without even a word goodbye
That's what she remembers last
One day she hopes he'll be by again
To help put the pieces back as one
It really sounds unlikely
But something must be done
Tears fall down her cheeks at nite
Little heart has so much to bear
Will he ever understand the pain
Of making her innocent heart tear
I went to a woman's conference not to long ago, and the Lord totally changed my heart. He gave me so much hope and wrapped his loving arms around me. I just layed there in his arms as he held me close, because he knew that I needed it. No matter what happens to me in this life, or what horrible things I do, nothing can make him love me less. I realized that weekend that I need to leave all the dark areas of my past behind, and look forward to all the hopes and sucesses I have on the horizon of my future. By concentrating on the things that are history can distract me of the promises that lie ahead. It's amazing how God can totally change a person from the inside and how it can overflow into the lives of other people. He did internal surgery on me, and I am no longer the same Brittany Avis you all used to know. Here's the poem that I wrote during the conference...
Reflection Redeemed
I walked by a mirror today
It's reflection over taken me
A woman of God with fire
That's who I long to be
The things that lie behind me
I know I have to leave
The bounding chains of the enemy
Didnt outway the peace I had recieved
Chains of unforgivness choked me
Surely I would have died
But the Glory of the Lord
Showed me He was on my side
He picked up the shattered pieces
Of the reflection I used to know
Placed them back into my heart
And with His gentle hand began to sow