And Another Thing...
There's one
more really good reason why I'm upset right now, and it is this: I am a
social retard. I can just get comfortable in a social situation
and take everything in, because what I like to do is catalogue things.
At the same time I feel compelled to try and get into conversations with people. the trouble is that I don't have much to say, and I feel like small talk is fairly pointless.
But I know that I don't know anything. The pisser of it is that I have a best friend who's a great conversationalist, he's very interesting, and he tells stories with an extraordinary degree of intensity. He's fantastic.
Except that when I do try and get into a conversation, he fucking reminds me that I don't know shit. And I don't know shit about shit.
Fine. We could talk about abstract expressionism, and the influence of minimalism on the world of art after the 1960's. We could talk about the tortured childhood of Edvard Munch, or any number of artists. Why don't we talk about the iconoclasm? Why don't we talk about gothic architecture? It's very interesting material, don't you think? Plus, I could carry around a slide projector and turn it into art history lecture time. Wouldn't that be fun?
Alright. I'm not pissed anymore. Done. Damn, I'm still trembling.
At the same time I feel compelled to try and get into conversations with people. the trouble is that I don't have much to say, and I feel like small talk is fairly pointless.
But I know that I don't know anything. The pisser of it is that I have a best friend who's a great conversationalist, he's very interesting, and he tells stories with an extraordinary degree of intensity. He's fantastic.
Except that when I do try and get into a conversation, he fucking reminds me that I don't know shit. And I don't know shit about shit.
Fine. We could talk about abstract expressionism, and the influence of minimalism on the world of art after the 1960's. We could talk about the tortured childhood of Edvard Munch, or any number of artists. Why don't we talk about the iconoclasm? Why don't we talk about gothic architecture? It's very interesting material, don't you think? Plus, I could carry around a slide projector and turn it into art history lecture time. Wouldn't that be fun?
Alright. I'm not pissed anymore. Done. Damn, I'm still trembling.