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Time for a therepeutic entry into my journal. Day 53023 of training, with the end in sight, and the day of Freshmen dawning drawing near. Excited, nervous, scared. Most exciting of all: Having the upperclassmen move back in. Though I'll be helping Dogwood, and none of the houses Sally or Allison or Kelly will be in. Along with numerous other people, and I hope moving back for them goes well.
My ear is burning; Just repierced it. Not excrutiating, but it's very warm. Sushi tonight, I hope, though I ate some greens and fruit at the commons. Not so much on the meat scene these days, but it's easier at the Commons, where it doesn't have to be what your plate rotates around. I miss home cooked pizza, the smell of my dog, and the comfort of my couch at home, not to mention random stopbys of people who will no longer be able to simply waltz over, waking neighbors and making dogs howl with their loud and random songs. Sung off key.
I've forgiven Beth what she's done, but not ready to be friendly with her yet. I'll work on myself before I judge others, and I'm very grateful to the people who were there to help me and hold my hand like a big baby. Beth, you'll probably read this, and you fucked up. It's not okay, but I'm attempting to forgive and forget. Aid me in the process by giving me the space you couldn't before. It will probably be easier now, considering we are in different counties.
I'm tired of self-evaluation in front of peers on my RA team. I'm not the most self-assured, I realize this, but what's more important right now is firstly growing as a person, and secondly finding people who like or can stand me for who I am. It takes a long time to build friendships, but I feel confident that I'm on my way with a few people I've come to know during this intense training period. After all, twelve hours a day with the same people for two weeks will kinda force you to develop some kind of bond, whether contempt or fellowship. I think it's a good tie between the two.
I feel like the future is right around the corner. I can almost see this year: excitement, drama, pity, irritation and joy. I hope that I can continue living in Chester Hall with a good head on my shoulders, but I know my boundaries are going to be tested in the coming weeks: I'm not so sure that I'm willing to put in 110% for individuals who will then rip down anything that I've tried to build up! But time will tell, and people who see me on campus - give me a hug! Whether it's a side hug, a bear hug, or an air hug, I feel like the seperation between our friendship is more than the five minutes it'll take to get across campus. But I have great television reception this year, and a DVD player (And a MAMASAN!). Please come visit?
That's all folks! :]
My ear is burning; Just repierced it. Not excrutiating, but it's very warm. Sushi tonight, I hope, though I ate some greens and fruit at the commons. Not so much on the meat scene these days, but it's easier at the Commons, where it doesn't have to be what your plate rotates around. I miss home cooked pizza, the smell of my dog, and the comfort of my couch at home, not to mention random stopbys of people who will no longer be able to simply waltz over, waking neighbors and making dogs howl with their loud and random songs. Sung off key.
I've forgiven Beth what she's done, but not ready to be friendly with her yet. I'll work on myself before I judge others, and I'm very grateful to the people who were there to help me and hold my hand like a big baby. Beth, you'll probably read this, and you fucked up. It's not okay, but I'm attempting to forgive and forget. Aid me in the process by giving me the space you couldn't before. It will probably be easier now, considering we are in different counties.
I'm tired of self-evaluation in front of peers on my RA team. I'm not the most self-assured, I realize this, but what's more important right now is firstly growing as a person, and secondly finding people who like or can stand me for who I am. It takes a long time to build friendships, but I feel confident that I'm on my way with a few people I've come to know during this intense training period. After all, twelve hours a day with the same people for two weeks will kinda force you to develop some kind of bond, whether contempt or fellowship. I think it's a good tie between the two.
I feel like the future is right around the corner. I can almost see this year: excitement, drama, pity, irritation and joy. I hope that I can continue living in Chester Hall with a good head on my shoulders, but I know my boundaries are going to be tested in the coming weeks: I'm not so sure that I'm willing to put in 110% for individuals who will then rip down anything that I've tried to build up! But time will tell, and people who see me on campus - give me a hug! Whether it's a side hug, a bear hug, or an air hug, I feel like the seperation between our friendship is more than the five minutes it'll take to get across campus. But I have great television reception this year, and a DVD player (And a MAMASAN!). Please come visit?
That's all folks! :]