just when you've sunk to what you thought was the bottom the bottom gives way...
Why am I crying myself to sleep tonight? Is it because of what she said? Is it because of what she wants? Or is it because it brings up all those feelings that I try to keep penned up inside. The feelings that no one wants me. The feelings that I will be alone. Why is it everytime I try to open up to someone and say this is the time i won't get hurt it always ends up the opposite. How come i find someone I truly like and they live 200 miles away and they are the busiest person on earth. If we do indeed quit dating it is gonna take me a long while to recover from this one. She isn't some just ordinary girl and i know you can't tell in 5 months but I believed i was right about this one and to have it blow up all in your face this really hurts. She is calling tomorrow at 5 so we can talk about it somewhat in person. I'm pretty sure it's only going to end up in heartache though. This truly is the worst week of my entire life and this just as my suspicons were correct tops it off. I'm off to cry myself to sleep.