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everyday...school...life...and this saturday im coming back to portland...probobly for good...i have friends here...i have a life...i have no reason to leave...everyday so far since i got back...i have cried...telling my friends that they have less than 1 week to see me...the girl up here i like...i had to tell her it couldnt happen even if we wanted it to...hell..cant even explain my life at this point...heaven...dosent exist...hell..ha! this is hell...but...atleast i know ill be coming home to friends...tori, kryst...dont be to hard on jen...i do like her...and i dont want her to hate me so plz...do nothing to her...in 5 days...the devil is back...so far my only and last friend...is my zippo...fire is what is inside of me...blazing...at points the insanity that is inside of me to come out...but i realized that im not insane..im going sane in a crazy world...if this gets to any of my friends...*you know who you are*...reply to me plz...and tori plz be nice to jenny i like her alot...shes very nice...so...this is my pent and rave...evryday i crie...my life seems so bleak...i want to be happy...but i am an happy person...in an unhappy world...plz let this reach you all...because when i come back this saturday...ALL HELL IS GOING TO BREAK LOOSE...*walks away with a single tear in my eye*...life is fucked