rant plus im sick
today has been such a weird day. i feel like i should be on medicine haha! this past week has been hell at work too. here we go...
the other day at work i was told to go over to the Homecare dept. to help over there. so i did and was happy to. i went over there worked and all, *basically got bossed around*, i was talking to some other ladies over there and one said, "yeh, i thought you were gonna be over here all summer, mr. griffin said you were anyhow." i told her i had no clue what she was talking about bc mr g didnt tell me anything about that. then, what got me upset is that she said, "Wow, b/c i was told that just needed the money that's why youre here and he needed a place to put you" i felt like shit after that. like the only reason he hired me is bc i needed money and like he has no other better thing to do than to just stick me somewhere. yes, i do need the money and yea i dont mind working where ever but i would like to feel somewhat needed there. kinda a sense of security for me to feel needed and appreciated. for about a week now i have been feeling like crap at work b/c of that. part of me is just ready for school to start so i can put in less hours and maybe then they'll want me there. i dunno i'm just upset w/ them. i would not have minded working in homecare one bit if mr g would have just said, we may have to move you to hc for a while. it would have been ok to me. but not telling me then having ppl come up to me and say, why are you over here.. they didnt need you over there? and wednesay when i worked, i was in hc dept. not a big deal to work over there bc i was told in the morning to go. so i went and when i went to clock out for the day i asked marty *the pharmacists for that day* if he needed any help closing down. i normally close the front comps and the registers down and all. so i offered to help even though i havent been over there all day. he said NO WE DONT NEED YOU!! you work over there now.. so just go over there and work. i said i guess i'll just clock out and leave, he was like, FINE leave bye.. go clock out over there. i said.. i cant my cards over here.. right then i wanted to cry.. i felt so bad after that i was just speechless and felt so useless to that store. omg.. it was horrible.
i went to the eye doctor today and i asked mom if i was able to go out this weekend and what my curfew'd be.. she said all depends on what i do and who im with.. i then told her kris and josh bc that's who i'd be w/. then she went to rant on about how if i was w/ this certain person i better not be at their friends house bc tony's friends dont like em and all that bs. she got on to me for going over to some guys house i dont know bc i promised my friend i'd drive her around. i had no clue who that person is she just wanted to go see him so i did.. i told mom and tony's friends were like.. o he's bad news stay away so now mom bitches at me for it! i did nothing wrong! and it pisses me off bc she thinks poorly of my friend now and will probably never be able to hang w/ that person again bc of one effin other guy. she told me she didnt like that new crowd* and that if i continue to hang w/ them i wont do anything at all.. i dont even hang w/ them! ahhhh i wanna just scream and tell her to stay the f out of my life.. finally she said but, your grown i cant control your life and who you see.. i said exactly, so why even waste your breath.. i dont know those guys.. i definately wont talk to them so why even bother.. i was so pissed at her..
some old lady practically told me that moving away would be a mistake and i would wanna come back. that she did it and that she was misreable. i just looked at her and said ok. bc i didnt know her i had no care what her view of mccomb is, i really had to care to even know she moved away.. she was in her 40's and likes mccomb now bc its an old ppl's town.
one hell of a week..
the other day at work i was told to go over to the Homecare dept. to help over there. so i did and was happy to. i went over there worked and all, *basically got bossed around*, i was talking to some other ladies over there and one said, "yeh, i thought you were gonna be over here all summer, mr. griffin said you were anyhow." i told her i had no clue what she was talking about bc mr g didnt tell me anything about that. then, what got me upset is that she said, "Wow, b/c i was told that just needed the money that's why youre here and he needed a place to put you" i felt like shit after that. like the only reason he hired me is bc i needed money and like he has no other better thing to do than to just stick me somewhere. yes, i do need the money and yea i dont mind working where ever but i would like to feel somewhat needed there. kinda a sense of security for me to feel needed and appreciated. for about a week now i have been feeling like crap at work b/c of that. part of me is just ready for school to start so i can put in less hours and maybe then they'll want me there. i dunno i'm just upset w/ them. i would not have minded working in homecare one bit if mr g would have just said, we may have to move you to hc for a while. it would have been ok to me. but not telling me then having ppl come up to me and say, why are you over here.. they didnt need you over there? and wednesay when i worked, i was in hc dept. not a big deal to work over there bc i was told in the morning to go. so i went and when i went to clock out for the day i asked marty *the pharmacists for that day* if he needed any help closing down. i normally close the front comps and the registers down and all. so i offered to help even though i havent been over there all day. he said NO WE DONT NEED YOU!! you work over there now.. so just go over there and work. i said i guess i'll just clock out and leave, he was like, FINE leave bye.. go clock out over there. i said.. i cant my cards over here.. right then i wanted to cry.. i felt so bad after that i was just speechless and felt so useless to that store. omg.. it was horrible.
i went to the eye doctor today and i asked mom if i was able to go out this weekend and what my curfew'd be.. she said all depends on what i do and who im with.. i then told her kris and josh bc that's who i'd be w/. then she went to rant on about how if i was w/ this certain person i better not be at their friends house bc tony's friends dont like em and all that bs. she got on to me for going over to some guys house i dont know bc i promised my friend i'd drive her around. i had no clue who that person is she just wanted to go see him so i did.. i told mom and tony's friends were like.. o he's bad news stay away so now mom bitches at me for it! i did nothing wrong! and it pisses me off bc she thinks poorly of my friend now and will probably never be able to hang w/ that person again bc of one effin other guy. she told me she didnt like that new crowd* and that if i continue to hang w/ them i wont do anything at all.. i dont even hang w/ them! ahhhh i wanna just scream and tell her to stay the f out of my life.. finally she said but, your grown i cant control your life and who you see.. i said exactly, so why even waste your breath.. i dont know those guys.. i definately wont talk to them so why even bother.. i was so pissed at her..
some old lady practically told me that moving away would be a mistake and i would wanna come back. that she did it and that she was misreable. i just looked at her and said ok. bc i didnt know her i had no care what her view of mccomb is, i really had to care to even know she moved away.. she was in her 40's and likes mccomb now bc its an old ppl's town.
one hell of a week..