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[icclegemzie]

WOAH ent updated 4 ages, i ent really had much 2 say! well last weel was the worst week eva! Found out sam had 'cheated on me' then i was told he hadent! but o well, neva mind haha! then me n sam had a real shit week afta that, we hardly spoke and argued all the time. Friday came and i was shoutin shit which werent meant 2 come out ma mouth n he heard me i shouted 'o bum fuck me nick all we eva wana do is fuckin sk8' so then i got a mouth full off sam. I didnt w8 at the bus stop i jus went str8 ome. Came on the net like i usually do and sam ended it wit me, i was in a real bad state! My mum wudnt leave me alone, it was like i was guna kill myself if she left me or sumit :S i felt like dyin but im glad i neva! :P My mum was slaggin sam off really bad 2 me and that jus upset me more, she sed she wud tel him wot she thort of her if she saw him in town saturday! She sed i was more upset ova sam than id eva bin upset ova ne1! i jus wish sam saw wot state i was in! Saturday came and i was dreadin goin up town cuz he was goin up too. got 2 kims n ad a big hug anf i had 2 tel bef the story which upset me agen :( Got into town and i did as my mum and kim sed 'act like i ent bothered bout him' so thats wot i did! I cud tell sam was upset i was avin a laff wit kim ad n scott most the time, we went 2 dels 4 scottys new bass its kool! i ignored sam there 2. then me n bef went 2 c my mum in BHS n wen we got bk i was tld sam had sed 'it was the biggest mistake eva dumpin gem i want her bak' i was like :O well he wdnt take me bk friday nite! n all fanx 2 kim he came and sed sorry 2 me and i jus sed he had hurt me n thats basically all id say 2 him. then on the bus he apologised agen n sed he wanted me bk n i sed 'oo so one day u wana b my mate n the next u want me bk?' n i jus turned away! got bk 2 kims n we watched Road trip n i txt sam tellin him i loved him which i dooo! n then a church hill numa foned me i was like ahhhhh it was scottys home! i answered n it was sam:
sam- hi
me- hi
sam- gem i am really sorry
me- k then
sam- will u go bk out wit me
me- yeh
i was nearly cryin lol im so sadd! then i heard scotty n ad playin in the bkground! soo that made my day from bad 2 good!
Sunday i stayed in n cleaned me room, went on the net, went 2 saz's got my vans bk, we tlked loads n then we had bp! it was kool but rach was gettin bored of the same song ova n ova so we started our 2nd one! :) gettin quite far now!
Today went 2 skewl, shittin ma keggs all the way there i didnt wana c sam! but wen i did i jus gave him one big massive huggg! ermmm well me n sam ave got on real well 2day which is kool but kim n ad ave had a big bost up! it was all ova kim ritin sumat on an indent poster in skool n she wudnt tell ad wot it was so he went in a strop! they didnt tlk like all day n wen she tried tellin him the truth he wudnt listen he kept pushin her away n he told her 2 fuck off n he pushed her n walked off! she was in a rite fuckin state bless her! i had 2 go the toilets wit her 2 get herself cleaned up! i told her 2 tel ad it was me hu roter it cuz id rather him fall out wit me than her but she didnt want me n ad 2 fall out cuz we am like best mates! but they r sorted now which is kool! I had 2 do the music in assmberly 4 our form assem, i fuked it up neva mind lol! amy wagged cuz she didnt wana do it the moose lol! becky came bk 2 mine n then i walked her 2 dancin, missed my fave programme 4 her grr lol! then i came bk n did all my photos of my mates 4 my room 2 put in my new frames, then helped mum pick a colour 4 the bathroom! O yeh PINKKKK how kool lol! Bands nite wednesday....goin 2 support Indent, its guna b ace! cya xxxx