and one day, you'll fly... away from here.
so how weird is this.
i dont really know how i feel about this last day of school business.
now im mostly sad. but yet excited and happy and scared all at the same time. its so weird to think about where i will be in 6 months from now. where we'll all be. how we wont see each other.
how i wont search 25 minutes every morning for a parking spot before relenting to parking 3 blocks away.
and then im late for homeroom.
no more homeroom at all. no more changing classes and having lockers and basically goodbye to all i know of what school is.
hello rest of my life. keep reminding myself everything happens for a reason. (i hope so.)
everybody knows it hurts to grow up. and everybody does.
seems like we were just freshmen. really. i think ill really miss familiar faces. and teachers that say hello in the hallways. and friends that throw dance parties during lunch.
for all the shit that nardin has been, and all of the times i felt like i just wanted it all to be over... its all worth it.
i cant even tell you how many times i wanted it all to be over. how many times it felt like it would never end. it still feels like it wont actually. the whole fact of being done with highschool... totally incomprehensible to me.
and again. its inevitable. i just never thought of all the things id miss. things i should have appreciated at the time. things i appreciate now.
this is the tip of an iceberg. by graduation ill be a mess of thank yous and tears.
let me tell you what-- the years go on, and we're still fighting it.
goodnight. i love you.