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I just finished a book on Bruce Lee entitled Artist of Life which brings together a whole bunch of writings he did throughout his life, from poetry to explaining his philosophy on martial arts, to his philosophy of life in general in efforts to bring about his self-awareness of himself. I've talked about him before, the man was incredibly deep. He felt that to express oneself honestly was the highest form of self-actualization as opposed to self-image-actualization, and only in the formless, unbounded arena of honest self expression, could one view life in its totality and in its truest form. What I have incredible respect for with this man is his thirst for learning and adapting and creating to life with his own sense of direction and logic, honing on his abillities by learning various subjects that seemed to have nothing to do with his situation but nonetheless were sources of knowledge that he would find a way to apply to his situation. The concepts that he laid out within his book, that he explored throughout his life, revised and expressed overtly came across to me in a very liberating fashion at a critical moment of my own self exploration. He had written down in a form, the emotions of what i had always meant to express and for a time did, but had somehow forgotten how to do so, and i feel on some level, i get what he meant to get across with the type of fluidity and mindlessness as he meant to describe.
If that last statement didn't make much sense, it could be due to the fact that i am staring at a concept based around an incredibly intangible description of something that lacks direct description, that in and of itself is not a concept or a form but rather a guide to understanding that only makes sense when applied in a way that harmonizes with your own sense of understanding. Although there are many many passages that i'd like to go over again and clarify to myself exactly what he was trying to get across so that i can remember what i was thinking when i was reading it, I fear the act of solidfying his words in my mind will bring about the very opposite approach to what was being said. I look to the philosophy of his book, not with the mind of religious or spiritual salvation in the quest for meaning in life, nor as a instructional lesson plan for getting great abs of any of that superficiality. In fact, i try not to look at it with any real set of focal point or lens, but i cannot deny the impact it has left on me for realizing a sense of being that i recal being aware of a long time ago, but left dormant in the years to follow and let my ego reign in my head in its efforts to bring about a central image of "paul" of a person that needed to be this or that, with these qualities and these likes or dislikes, and anytime i did not live up to this image of paul i would feel a sense of failure, of worthlessness and above all i would feel like there was a need to bring paul back up to speed with the image created by my ego.
...you know what, I can't at all describe what I had wished to write about at the beginning of this thing. I keep speaking around the subject without getting any closer to my point. I enjoyed reading this book as it showed an individual who was completely transparent in showing his soul to everyone and anyone who wished to view it, as this was the way he saw himself. No internal struggles to acheive this or that goal, he simply was who he was and his achievements were due to his understanding and confrontation with himself.
So is there anything that i can update about myself and not Bruce Lee? Honestly, I don't think so. I don't have a sense or urgency to expel any regrets or triumphs at the moment. I'm not concerned about my future or struggling to find new methods of playing or hearing music or quantifying my sense of creativity in the hopes that i will somehow become an amazing musician who's talents i cant even describe because they are so fantastic. There are no issues with my past that are clouding my mind right now. I'm not really focused on much of anything at this point in time, and i guess, maybe that is what i meant to write about. The incredible freedom in just being in a state of now without any interpretation of what that is, where life is second nature and your mind is free to simply explore and live it.
pretty cool
If that last statement didn't make much sense, it could be due to the fact that i am staring at a concept based around an incredibly intangible description of something that lacks direct description, that in and of itself is not a concept or a form but rather a guide to understanding that only makes sense when applied in a way that harmonizes with your own sense of understanding. Although there are many many passages that i'd like to go over again and clarify to myself exactly what he was trying to get across so that i can remember what i was thinking when i was reading it, I fear the act of solidfying his words in my mind will bring about the very opposite approach to what was being said. I look to the philosophy of his book, not with the mind of religious or spiritual salvation in the quest for meaning in life, nor as a instructional lesson plan for getting great abs of any of that superficiality. In fact, i try not to look at it with any real set of focal point or lens, but i cannot deny the impact it has left on me for realizing a sense of being that i recal being aware of a long time ago, but left dormant in the years to follow and let my ego reign in my head in its efforts to bring about a central image of "paul" of a person that needed to be this or that, with these qualities and these likes or dislikes, and anytime i did not live up to this image of paul i would feel a sense of failure, of worthlessness and above all i would feel like there was a need to bring paul back up to speed with the image created by my ego.
...you know what, I can't at all describe what I had wished to write about at the beginning of this thing. I keep speaking around the subject without getting any closer to my point. I enjoyed reading this book as it showed an individual who was completely transparent in showing his soul to everyone and anyone who wished to view it, as this was the way he saw himself. No internal struggles to acheive this or that goal, he simply was who he was and his achievements were due to his understanding and confrontation with himself.
So is there anything that i can update about myself and not Bruce Lee? Honestly, I don't think so. I don't have a sense or urgency to expel any regrets or triumphs at the moment. I'm not concerned about my future or struggling to find new methods of playing or hearing music or quantifying my sense of creativity in the hopes that i will somehow become an amazing musician who's talents i cant even describe because they are so fantastic. There are no issues with my past that are clouding my mind right now. I'm not really focused on much of anything at this point in time, and i guess, maybe that is what i meant to write about. The incredible freedom in just being in a state of now without any interpretation of what that is, where life is second nature and your mind is free to simply explore and live it.
pretty cool