thinking thoughts
Phew.
This never used to be difficult.
And the irony is back then there were people here to read it.
Now there is no one left here and it's difficult.
Times change.
It feels like.. like I have to write something witty or interesting so I don't waste someone's (even my future self's) time if they (/I) do end up reading this.
I think years ago I figured I can write what I want and people can choose to read or not. I still feel that way but I guess I have more inhibitions about what I can write.. I guess being online does its number to the psyche.
Anyways I don't have much I care to write about.
I started a playlist on Spotify called Contemplative Now.. cuz, like I had to find a way to discern it from the playlist called Contemplative.. it's full of songs I love and can't stop listening to, has me feeling the feels and thinking the thoughts.
Soo yeah that's what I am up to.. lots n lots of music and writing and thinking and feeling.
It's not entirely happy music, writing, thoughts, and feelings.. but it does feel nice to experience deep emotion and thought again so despite not everything being happy, I am happy nonetheless.