Relationships...
I figured I might as well make this a public comment, I don't have any friends to make it friends only. These past two weeks have kind of sucked. It hadn't been what I hope for at all. I'm ready to get back to school. I'm ready for a distraction so I don't stress and worry about what's really bothering me. There are a number of things that are bothering me right now. One is my parents. They're just getting kind of old lately. I'm tired of their same old routines and arguments. Second are my relationships. Some have been good lately, others have been fucked up, and some more have just left me confused and lost. This last group of relationships are the ones that I care about the most. I just hope that they work themselves out because at this point I honestly don't know what to do about them. It's the people that I like the most that are causing me the most problems right now and I don't even think they realize it. It's probably partly me becuase I'm neurotic and worry way too much which is really bad for relationships. I've been feeling shut out of some people's lives that I really care about and I think that's just really damaging. I don't think they've done it intentionally, at least I hope not. How do you keep that spark in the relationship if you don't know where it went of if it ever was there? I just wish the things you want the most weren't the things that you have to try so hard to keep.