Love-Genisis part 1 (Adjuration)
Title: Love-Genisis part 1 (Adjuration)
Author: Icanhazbelldom
Pairing: Belldom
Rating: PG?
Summary: After a party matt n dom decide to 'chill'
Feedback: Yes Please
Disclaimer: I do not own Muse and this is pure fiction.
Note: I just felt inspired to write
I know its not very good but im working on it and i though i need some feedback to help me
and i know there are quite a few mistakes so if u see one just tell me :)
Matts POV
The air between us was the only thing holding me back, the space, his space, was it right to invade, we were both so intoxicated my decisions are not exactly what I’d call valid right now. We were alone; it’s just us in this lonely hotel room sitting on the double bed. But his face, so perfect down to every little groove and dimple; it was inviting me in, everything about him called out to me, his smell, his touch, his smile, I couldn’t stay back, I’d been waiting for this moment for over 15 years, I won’t let it pass now, I can’t. I leant over to him my lips manoeuvring around his keeping to perfect beat, i wanted it to last forever but he pulled away. Did i do something wrong?
Doms POV
Matt kissed me, I’ve waited my whole life for this yet something seems wrong, why did i pull away i love him. He finally feels the same way about me, or at least he’s too smashed to think about it. I want to go back for more, to taste him again, would it be wrong to use this to my advantage. He looks like a puppy dog, waiting for me to come to him now. I want to go all the way with him, my friend, is that wrong, he is sexy, he has looks and personality. I want him to be mine, and mine alone, i want to have his skinny built body to myself, and just the thought of it is making me shaky. I did the unthinkable; i moved closer wrapping my hands around his waist
Matt POV
We now moved in perfect harmony, doms body moving in rhythm with mine, my arm went up, his head went down, we kissed, that was all, for a while i struggled for breath, i didn’t want to remove my lips from his, they were so moist and fresh, he sent a tingle down my body i had never felt before. I pushed him backwards so he laid flat on the bed. i didn’t want to cry but this was the best i had ever felt, i was inspired to try things i had never before. He made feel ecstasy that no woman could, he nuzzled at my neck, ripping at my hair as he did, i mimicked his movements and he giggled. It was a girly giggle and for a moment i snapped back into reality, He was my best friend for crying out loud. What the heck did i think i was going to prove?
Doms POV
I almost screamed as Matts hands started moving lower and lower tracing down my spine, i tugged at his t-shirt, trying to remove it from his body. I was about to let out a gasp when he stopped. “This is wrong,” he whispered into my ear, his breath was warm but it made me shiver. I tried my best to picture him undressing but the reality was he didn’t feel that way and he probably never would. “It’s ok we don’t need to rush things,” I assured him; he smiled at me then sat up. I followed, pulling myself to my feet, “I’m......,” i wanted to say sorry but the words slurred and washed out of my mouth, “it’s not your fault,” he said reaching for his phone, i looked around the room, it seemed much more empty now. Booze bottles and cans lay on the floor, half eaten chips and plates of food. One of Matt’s guitars and a few picks carelessly placed on the dull sofa.
Matts POV
Dom looked confused, what had i done. He must hate me now, I’m a monster, leading him on like that and then turning him down, I’m a jerk, he would never speak to me again, and if Chris ever found out what would he think, whose side he would take. I look at my phone, 15 new messages, how long had me and Dom been here for, first message was Kate, “where are you,” second message was from her as well, “call me back honey,” who me, honey? I almost slept with another man and i have a girl friend, that booze really must have been strong, third message was from Tom, “Hey mate call me back and we can talk about your next gig,” i had almost forgotten we were still touring, Dom just seemed to erase my memory. I look at Dom again; he was making tea which meant i had time to call back. My phone vibrated, Kate, well that saves me from pressing buttons, “hey...urhhhh...hey babe,” i felt as if i had no control over the words, “where are you matt,” i looked over at Dom, he didn’t even make eye contact, “I’m.... with Dom,” i stutter, what if Kate found out what had just happened, “You spend more time with him than you do with me,” she cried into the phone, she was onto us, “well... i am... in a band with him,” I breathe out a sigh of relief.
Doms POV
How could he, i was mad, but yet i felt sorry for him. He didn’t know what he wanted, I’m just glad he made the right choice, for him anyway. I watched him talk while i waited for the water to boil, he looked over at me, i started at my feet pretending to be busy. “Why,” i say to myself. He was my best friend, i nearly ruined it, maybe i wanted to go further than we did, what was I talking about of course i did. I had been hiding my secret love of the same sex for almost five years; I broke up with darling Jessica over it. I didn’t want to tell him he wasn’t my first, but it seems that much more awkward if he had of known. He seemed so happy at the time, i know he has a girl friend but he could leave her and we could be together, i loved him. I must be delusional, leave Kate Hudson for a man, doing that would be giving our millions of Belldom fans what they wanted, and yes I know about Belldom, it’s something you do come across on your own bands website. The water was boiled i poured it into a cup and drank without another word
Matts POV
Kate asked me to meet her, i was nervous and i stilled smelt of booze. In the mirror i no longer saw the man who came into this room last night, i saw a monster. My eyes were bright red, was i crying, i couldn’t even force a smile, she said i could go back to bed oblivious to what i was doing before. I removed my clothes as sat in the corner of the shower my arms were wrapped tightly around my legs and my head stooped on top of them, my tears washed away by water. How could i do this, pretend nothing just happened, to lie to my girlfriend. It was all too much for me, i let out a long moan, sobbing like a girl
Doms POV
I heard him crying, he felt bad. He made no attempt to hide it, neither did i. I couldn’t help but let a single tear escape my eye. I chugged down the rest of my tea and knocked on the door, “matt, are you ok mate,” i knew he wasn’t but i felt I needed reassurance, “Dom. I’m sorry,” i tried not to look at his naked body in the shower but a glass door was the only thing covering him, “I’m sorry i kissed you,” the water was still running and he almost shouted it, “it’s just as much my fault matt,” i smile at him, “it’s just i don’t want things to get weird between us,” matt stood up, i turned away quickly averting my eyes from his unprotected body.
Matts POV
Dom turned away; did he not want to talk? I look around the room; i was standing naked in front of the man who had just tried to kiss me. I reach for a towel almost bumping into Dom, “this is so awkward,” i tried to force a smile out. He giggled at me then moved out of the room, “we can sort this out later if you don’t want to talk about it now,” i respected him for saying that, giving me time to think this over. I walked over to where i had folded my clothes and put on a fresh top, it felt good. I wanted to tell Dom i loved him, to hold him in my arms the same way we did before but I’m not gay, i never have been; these feelings are new to me. A man has never made me feel so excited and i have no idea whether i like it or not. I grab my keys and head out the door, Dom didn’t say anything he just stood there with a few empty bottles in his hands.
Doms POV
He left, i don’t mind. He should probably clear his head, make a choice, me or her. I feel a hangover coming on but i want to clean before room service gets here. I don’t mind cleaning; i do it all the time when we are in the tour bus. I was trying not to cry, but it seemed to leap out of me, “matt,” i said as i fall back onto the couch squashing his guitar. I stand again the guitar was ok, i think, i move it, well i threw it away. I didn’t want him to leave it at that, i want him to come back and declare his undying love for me. I can’t do this, i want my matt and i want him now. I race out the door, running to the elevator where i found matt standing alone.
Matts POV
What was Dom doing here, last time i checked he was cleaning? This could turn ugly; Kate was downstairs waiting for me. He hopped in the elevated grabbing my arms and spinning me around 60° i looked into his eyes, he looked into mine. We stood there for a moment then we decided not to waste any more time, he planted his lips on mine and we stood like that for a few minutes. Arm in arm, letting our bodies become one. The elevator clicked open and we walked out still in each other’s grip, where is Kate? Oh well i have Dom now. I locked lips with him once more, eyes peering across the room at us, strangers judging, friends judging.
Doms POV
“Matt? Dom?” the voice was unmistakable, it high pitched ring burnt my ear drums and the screech which followed frightened me, “Matt?” another unmistakable voice drew nearer, i let go of matt and pat my hair down, “hey Chris, what are you doing here,” i say in the most enthusiastic voice i could force to leave my mouth, “Matt,” Kate said dragging my lover into another corner of the room, “What the hell do you think you’re doing Dom?” Chris sounded upset yet he remained very calm, “I’m sorry, we were so smashed and one thing led to another...” I look around the room for Matt, “oh god please don’t tell me you...” his sentence was cut short, he wouldn’t finish it but i knew what he meant, “no, never, i couldn’t,” Matt was gone i couldn’t see him anywhere, “well it looked like you were about to,” He wasn’t mad but i could tell he was as confused as Kate must have been
Matts POV
“Matt! How could you,” she yelled into my ear as she dragged me away from my friends, “Dom is such a bad Influence on you,” she pulled me around a corner and pinned me onto the wall, “it wasn’t Doms fault, i started this,” i tried to escape but she had me firm. I didn’t want this, i wanted Dom, i want him now. “Matt after all this time you couldn’t tell me your gay,” The word was harsh, it was hard to imagine being called that but now i could see it hurts, being classed as something felt somewhat demining, she stuck a dagger in my heart, she turned on me, she made me the bad guy when i knew i wasn’t. “i love Dom and no we aren’t gay,” I lied, “so what do you call that,” she said point from the direction we had come from, “my best friend,” I said and slipped away from her firm grip
Dom POV
I couldn’t face Chris anymore; I looked for an escape route, the lobby was quite crowded. “Matt,” i called out to the small figure making his way towards me, “DOM!” he yelled as he pulled my head down towards his, “i love you,” I kissed his ear, then his cheek, then made my way to his face, “guys?” Chris had been staring mouth open for about a minute, “It’s not that i don’t love you Chris,” Matt joked, “I’m ok with your choice, it’s just... you guys must have been pretty smashed if you want this,” Matt laughed but Chris’ face remained unchanged, as did mine. “i just don’t want things to get weird on tour that’s all,” we all laughed at the, Chris was such a father figure even to his friends. He was always trying to be the responsible one, i didn’t mind, he made a very good leader. “How Kelly and the kids?"
Matts POV
Dom had me in his arms, he held me close, i loved this about him. How affectionate he was, how he was strong and firm. I wished it had been like this sooner, If i had of noticed soon, if Dom had of spoken up, we could have been so happily together, but no i was blind. I ignored his growing faff bag, and the absence of a woman. I had pushed pass them me, it lead me to believe he was straight, how could i be so blind and stupid, it was so clear to me now. Chris had left; he needed to sort some things out, Dom and I had decided to go upstairs, and who knows what became of Kate.
Doms POV
We were running up the stairs, we knew what we wanted, well i did. I couldn’t believe my eyes; matt was finally going to follow through with this. I could hardly breathe, i didn’t know if it was from excitement of if it was because we had just run about four stories of stairs, “matt, are you sure you want to do this?” I look around the empty hall, “positive, I am feeling things I’ve never felt before,” he winked at me, and after searching for our room I pulled out the key card and we ran in, slamming the door behind us.