people say it makes me look younger
i've asked before if there was ever anything between us, and you made it seem like there kind of was -- but then wasn't. whether this is actually true or not, i have no idea. but i've heard things. i've heard that at one point you were into me. and i was intrigued yet again.
so what happened? what made you stop?
i never exactly took it into consideration at the time because i didn't know and it wasn't what i would have wanted anyway. i had talked to you about things i wouldn't normally talk about to boys i like or boys that were interested in me. i had always thought of us as just being friends; always. and i thought it was the same for you.
when i spend time with you now, all i can think about was the time when you were interested in me. i attempt to go on as if nothing really changed but knowing this actually bothers me. because, had you have made it clear to me that you were interested, i would have given us a try -- if it was between the time of where i wasn't dating and/or heartbroken (which is um, maybe, like a week?) but you never told me. and now i suppose it's too late. now, we're close? maybe we're not even close. we're friends. you're not neccesarily a good friend or someone i can tell anything to; but you're not an acquaintance or someone i don't like hanging out with.
but there could have been more. at one point.
so when i turned around and you were standing right next to me, so close that i noticed things about you that i've never noticed before (ie you're actually taller than me, just slightly) and stared into your eyes, i couldn't help wondering what could have been before. or maybe even now. had i have known that you still felt the same way, we never would have left the room that day. we've never had a moment like that before. but neither of us backed down.
i doubt you still feel that way and i think i'm okay with that. are we better off just friends? i've begun to talk to you about things and i've started to be more comfortable around you. you tell me things i'm sure you wouldn't tell most of your friends and i'm certain you're happy that i'm in your life.. even if you never admit it. if there was an attempt to make something more happen between us right now, i don't think i would be opposed -- as long as the attempt was sincere. and if it didn't work, things would go back to the exact way they were before an us every happened.
for now, i'll just wait it out.
as this is probably nothing more than just one more opportunity missed.
for lust... love?
so what happened? what made you stop?
i never exactly took it into consideration at the time because i didn't know and it wasn't what i would have wanted anyway. i had talked to you about things i wouldn't normally talk about to boys i like or boys that were interested in me. i had always thought of us as just being friends; always. and i thought it was the same for you.
when i spend time with you now, all i can think about was the time when you were interested in me. i attempt to go on as if nothing really changed but knowing this actually bothers me. because, had you have made it clear to me that you were interested, i would have given us a try -- if it was between the time of where i wasn't dating and/or heartbroken (which is um, maybe, like a week?) but you never told me. and now i suppose it's too late. now, we're close? maybe we're not even close. we're friends. you're not neccesarily a good friend or someone i can tell anything to; but you're not an acquaintance or someone i don't like hanging out with.
but there could have been more. at one point.
so when i turned around and you were standing right next to me, so close that i noticed things about you that i've never noticed before (ie you're actually taller than me, just slightly) and stared into your eyes, i couldn't help wondering what could have been before. or maybe even now. had i have known that you still felt the same way, we never would have left the room that day. we've never had a moment like that before. but neither of us backed down.
i doubt you still feel that way and i think i'm okay with that. are we better off just friends? i've begun to talk to you about things and i've started to be more comfortable around you. you tell me things i'm sure you wouldn't tell most of your friends and i'm certain you're happy that i'm in your life.. even if you never admit it. if there was an attempt to make something more happen between us right now, i don't think i would be opposed -- as long as the attempt was sincere. and if it didn't work, things would go back to the exact way they were before an us every happened.
for now, i'll just wait it out.
as this is probably nothing more than just one more opportunity missed.
for lust... love?