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i'm a good friend.
sometimes too good.
i stand neutral in almost every situation. that's kind of hard when it's always one friend vs. the other.
when people say they still see that you're into me, it kind of bothers me a bit. i want to do things, but i don't. it's not that i'm actually into you anymore. you're just always around.
a talk this evening really put things in perspective.
i was pretty upset when i found out the other had been foolin' around with someone else. but i didn't end up really wasting my time. i just thought things were kinda, progressing, but whatever.. it's typical. typical of everything and everyone. it's just never me. even though clearly, i'm better than most girls. except not nearly as slutty. and most of the time, i suppose that's normally just what they're lookin' for.
maybe it's not that i'm ridiculously afraid of committment -- it's that everyone else is.
sometimes too good.
i stand neutral in almost every situation. that's kind of hard when it's always one friend vs. the other.
when people say they still see that you're into me, it kind of bothers me a bit. i want to do things, but i don't. it's not that i'm actually into you anymore. you're just always around.
a talk this evening really put things in perspective.
i was pretty upset when i found out the other had been foolin' around with someone else. but i didn't end up really wasting my time. i just thought things were kinda, progressing, but whatever.. it's typical. typical of everything and everyone. it's just never me. even though clearly, i'm better than most girls. except not nearly as slutty. and most of the time, i suppose that's normally just what they're lookin' for.
maybe it's not that i'm ridiculously afraid of committment -- it's that everyone else is.