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Are you really happy? Do you think he's really worth the pain? Please tell me are you really happy? Or did you simply throw your life away just to be unhappy?--Stabbing Westward
"i've seen sinking ships go down with more grace than you" - fall out boy
i wish i had saved all the tears i cried over you
..so i could fucking drown you in them.
live, learn, let go..
"your head in your hands and this is my cue
if three words could heal you I'd only speak two"
"thanks again for my misery, and you run with fake friends
I'm sick of your sad songs and sing alongs
I kind of like it when things are wrong
straight from left end
they'll shout corrections
and I'll decline, I'll decline
a source of comfort or some protection
and I'll decline"
"all my hopes and all of my dreams
everything falling in between
seems to me that the memories
[they] mean more to you than they do to me
through the sky and into you eyes
[and I see everything falling in between]
sew the lips right onto your smile
I'm okay with faking this
I'll fake everything just to slip you kiss
[if I'm a writer, and I'm a poet, I might love you but never show it]
"I want to cross you off my list
But when you come knocking at my door
Fate seems to give my heart a twist
And I come running back for more"
-George Harrison
Tears are words the heart can't say.
Have you ever lived my life? Spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't then tell me why yOu judge me the way you do. Have you ever waken up in the morning wondering if this was your last day on Earth? Have you left your house unsure if you wanted to return? Have you ever seen your mom cry because she was so depressed? Have you ever had a father that didnt want you to be his daughter? Have you ever covered up guilt by doing a good deed? Have you ever considered suicide as the only way out? Have you ever tried to hide yourself behind the things you say? Have you ever wanted to protect your friends and everyone in sight? Have you ever felt so much pain you would cry yourself to sleep at night? Have you ever live my life? Spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't then tell me why you judge me like you do?
No matter what you do to me, I'm still here. For some odd reason, I stick around and put up with all your mood swings and unkind words. I just let your comments roll off me into a puddle on the floor. I make up excuses on why you didn't call … try to think of all the answers. I keep going back for more even though sometimes you push me away. I don't know if I can do better, but do I really want to? You're quick to push me down when all I want is to be brought up. When I walk out for good, when I really gain the strength I need … then maybe you will see. Maybe you can look back and say, "Wow … that girl really did love me."
I hate the way you can push me to my limits with the things you do and then you know just the right time to say something sweet to make me fall in love all over again and I forget every little reason I was mad
All dreams aren’t just out of reach, and stars don’t shine just to make children smile. When you idealize something in your life, it’s easy to put it on a pedestal and watch it for a while to let it go after. Instead of climbing the ladder, you just keep walking firmly step by step. You’ll surely say someday: “Everything is OK.” Did you ever think of what you could have left behind? A lonely dream, an unclimbed ladder. “What if I had …?” Maybe you won’t get anywhere, and maybe you’ll find your nose facing the ground in your fall. No star. No dream. Just a mud bath. Still, inside of you, the memory of a shining star, of a land seen from a distance will remain. That makes a life difference..
This is your life. It doesn't get any better than this. You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else. We are all apart of the same compost heap. We are the all singing, all dancing crap of the world. You are not your bank account. You are not the clothes you wear. You are not the contents of your wallet. You are not your bowel cancer. You are not your grande latte. You are not the car you drive. You are not your fucking khakis. You have to give up. You have to realize that someday you will die. Until you know that, you are useless. Fight Club
you are as beautiful as ever, yet im starting
to resent your smile. because its killing me to say
this but im dying inside to leave
could it be that i was wrong? i was so wrong. ive changed for you but i don't know what to say or do. we grew apart but i still want you in my heart
i can't remember to forget your face
oh youre so sure that ill be leaving in the end, youre treating me like im already gone
saying goodbye isn't the hard part, it's what we leave behind that's tough
i hate the way i could never hate you
i'm so tired of picking myself up off the ground
Haters only hate on the things they can't have and the people they can't be. It's a little thing called jalousy.
Life takes your dreams and turns them upside down, friends talk about you when you're not around, people make promises they just can't keep, I've come to realize that talk is cheap.
after thinking you're over him you realize
you've only gotten used to the pain of
knowing that he`ll never be yours
Time is something you can't rewind,
so tell me, are you the now or never kind?
"in the end Peter Pan pulled off Tinkerbell's wings so she could never leave, sometimes love is just another way to bleed"
if you look inside a girl's heart and see how much she cries. you'll find secrets, best friends, and lies, but what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right
she thinks about herself and cares about nobody else..beacuse her only friends she has all put her down- sugarcult
I wont forget the memories shared, I wont forget who loved and who cared, don't think I'm leaving you behind, you'll be the first and last thing on my mind
"It's days like these I'd kill myself,
thinking there's something I must have missed.
But my head clears out,
I'm not that fucked up.
I'm waiting for something that doesn't exist."
The optimist sees opportunity in every danger. The pessimist sees danger in every opportunity.
A failing love is like desperately hanging onto something precious, not wanting to give up but your hangs feel the pain. And when you finally let go, you're free from any pain but your hands are empty.
Leaving never hurts as much as being left behind.
Sarcasm keeps you from telling people what you really think.
Don't you understand that we are only holding onto each other because we are too scared to let go?
Never be with someone who does not know your worth
"I know I am who I am today, because I knew you"
"Don't ever stay silent when there is something worth speaking about"
The more you, put me through,
The more it makes me wanna come back to you
Somewhere between the procrastination...and the homework..and the incessant forwards..and the friendships...and the calls to each other complaining about crushes..Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends..and the "I miss you's" & the "I love you's"..and the "What are we doing tonight's?"..and somewhere between all the changing and growing..somewhere between the classes..and the skipping classes..and the studying for tests..and the pretending to study for tests...and the downright NOT studying for tests..I forgot..I forgot what high school is all about...I forgot what it meant to cry..I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy...and that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart..I forgot that you can't just forget the past in the fear of the future..I forgot that you can't control falling in love..I learned that I can love..I learned that it's okay to mess up..And it's okay to ask for help....and it's okay to feel like crud...I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day..I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups..it's the friendships, which means taking chances...I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about..I learned that letters from friends are the most important things...and that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends..both old & new..are the most important people to me in the world. And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today....So this is a thank you to all of my friends...for always being there and I love you"
Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. -> The Wonder Years
sometimes you just feel everything & nothing all at once. sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time. at times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. life comes without guarantees, except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, & falling in love...will change your life
"You're not my friend, friends don't look at each other like we do, you're not my friend, friends don't touch each other the way we do, you're not my friend, friends don't kiss like we do, so then what are you?"
You always were a special friend. You knew that, I knew that. Only I knew something more. I knew that I loved you, and I have for so long. You complain because you can't find 'the right girl' I guess friendship makes you go blind to see what's standing right in front of you."
and it hurts because I know hes out there falling in and out of love with girls.. that just, aren't me
in the backyard
in the garden
you were always there
digging down where roots would burrow underneath.
now the grass is always overgrown
and the weeds are choking out the sun
pretty soon they'll come under the door
and you don't care
I wanted to thank you for making me see what it's like to care for someone that much. I want to thank you for making me believe I was loved, and making me believe you wanted to be with me. Thank you for hurting me, and showing me the world was real.
It hurts to realize that the people you thought you'd love for life don't love you as much as you thought they did and can do without you like they never knew you at all.
I never thought you'd hurt me. I guess you live & learn that when you play with fire, you’re bound to get burned. I've been mistreated, I've been used before, I get kicked in the face, but I still come back for more.
Don't spend precious time crying, spend it preparing yourself for the next boy that tries to break your heart.
Promise me...that's all I want. Just a promise that you will never forget me. Tell me that I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you will always remember me. Please, losing you was hard enough, but I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you.
Getting through life and growing up, you tend to get hurt and get your heart crushed. But what you have to realize is, if God had intended you two to be together then he will find a way. But if you guys don't end up with one another, that just means there is someone out there that is more perfect waiting for you.
Do you think life is chaos? Do you think it just happens randomly, with no scheme, no plan? Or do you feel that the choices you make, the things that happen to you, all happen for a reason?
No one's ever what they seem to be. You meet them, and you think you have them all figured out, but little by little you learn more and more things about that person. Then in the end, they're a whole different person. Someone you thought they'd never be."
Isn't it funny the way life is? The way that people change, and the way that you change. The way that sometimes nothing seems to be worth your while, and other times things mean the world. The way that things happens and all you can do is just carry on. The way that people are fake, and the way that you are just as fake but don’t realize it. The way that nothing ever seems right, but when its gone you realize its what you really wanted. And the way you think the world is never on your side, but in fact you are much more fortunate than lots of other people...
i'd really like to see you there.
i cant pretend like i dont care.
because i really do
please just kill the drama.
go to sleep, we'll talk tomorrow.
dream about me, and dont worry
we'll be fine.
I didn't lose him; I let him go. I didn't get over him; I moved on. When you truly love someone you never lose them or get over them, they will always mean something to you, so no matter how hard you try if it was true love, you'll never forget them.
Definition of "Just Friends": It means I don't just want you to mourn the loss; I want to remind you of it every day. I want you to suffer. I want you to envy. I want you to die slowly, a bit at a time. And I want you to smile and thank me for it.
"We may not be together but we will never be through."
"Whoever said there's plenty of fish in the sea was lying. Sometimes there's only one fish. Trust me."
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
A heart is a fragile thing. That's why we protect them so vigorously, give them away so rarely, and why it means so much when we do. Some hearts are more fragile than others. Purer, somehow. Like crystal in a world of glass, even the way they shatter is beautiful.
Even in my arms, you were always out of reach.
Don't you get it? You are replacing me with someone who just walked into your life. How long have I been here? How many years? I guess it doesn't matter to you anymore. You look at me with eyes that say "I don't care" How do you think that makes me feel? Out of all the people that have walked into my life you were the last person that I suspected that would walk right out without even looking back.. Please don't prove to me that I was wrong
I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at myself for believing you were something that you're not, for believing that you were always going to be here for me. But the truth is .. you're not.
Honestly, I'm crazy about him. But that doesn't make me stupid. I've been hurt enough times to learn my lesson. It's not like he's the only guy who looks at me. And why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't appreciate me, when you and I both know I could do so much better? He knows where to find me if he wants, but my world's not going to stop and wait for him. And if he does come back, who's to say that I'll even be here when he does?
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be
-oasis "i'm still here"
"And you wake up to realize that your standard of living somehow got stuck on survive."
What are friends?
Friends are people that you think are your friends
But they're really your enemies, with secret indentities
and disguises, to hide they're true colors
So just when you think you're close enough to be brothers
they wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't lookin
- "If I Had", Eminem
When I needed you most when I needed a friend, you let me down now like I let you down then
- Blink 182
She's faced the hardest times you could imagine
And many times her eyes fought back the tears
sometimes i wish that i was a a cold beer
i'd rest assured that you would hold me near
i'd be guaranteed to be just what you need...
and i would walk away.. and i'd surely walk away
if i wasn't such a sucker for you
and you'll never know, dear
just how much i loved you
you'll probably think this was
just my big excuse
but i stand committed
to a love that came before you
and the fact that i adore you
is but one of my truths
- ani
who are you now
and who were you then
that you thought somehow
you could just pretend
that you could figure it all out
the mathematics of regret
so it takes two beers to remember now
and five to forget
that i loved you so
yeah, i loved you, so what
- ani
how sick of me must you be by now? while you're standing just outside of what your pride will allow, always reaching into yourself to find a new way to understand me. when i'm sure that there's no one else in the world that could withstand me. yeah, the first person in your life to ever really matter is saying the last thing that you want to hear. and you are listening hard through the splintering shards of your life as it shatters. and you're standing firm and you're staying close and you're seeing clear. i took to the stage with my outrage in the bad old days when you were the "make me mad" guy. but the songs they come out more slowly now that i am the bad guy. and i say, baby i'm sorry that i am so crazy, i am astounded by your patience. but you say/ "believe or not baby, the joy you bring me still outweighs it." ANI
If you could be anything you want I bet you'd be disappointed.
I have never been
So insulted in all my life
I could swallow the seas
To wash down all this pride
First you run like a fool
Just to be at my side
And now you run like a fool
But you just run to hide
And I can't abide
But whats real? You cant find the truth. You just pick the lie you like best. As long as you know everythings a lie, you cant hurt yourself
i like that you ramble when you're nervous. i like that i know that you ramble when
you're nervous. i like that i still make you nervous.
one of the worst feelings is to have lost the one you love and then still love them with all your heart. you go to sleep at night thinking of them, and wake up just the same. but the worst thing is dreaming of him every night, just like you were still together. then you wake up crying, cause you know it'll never be the same..
*and as i sit here looking at you, i wonder if there will ever be a day when i will get over your smile...when i will let go of the hugs you gave me, that i continue to feel...a day when i forget the words you said to me...forget what you meant to me or forget how much i loved you. but no matter what you did to me or what happened to us. i know i could never get over, let go, or forget you.
*i sometimes wish i could be like you, being able to get so close to people who you really have no intention of being close to. letting people get so close to you, only to push them away. but then i remember, i could never be like you, i have a heart.
*Back to our lives, separate from each other. And when you see me, when I see you, we'll pretend we don't know one time we were lovers.
*You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever, but I will love you until it kills me and even then you'll still be in my heart.
That night we talked. About life. About our times together. Maybe we weren't the same two people we had once been. But some things never change. Some things last. And even though I didn't know what was going to happen to us, or where we were going.. I just knew I couldn't let him out of my life
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name
i still love him, you see. unconditionally and with all of my heart. but it's a different kind of love. i don't "want him back," because that is over and done with and theres no going back. i just miss his presence in my life. i want nothing but happiness for him and i know hes found it, without me. and he deserves that for all of the days he made me smile, for all the times he listened, for all those moments he made me feel the way that he did. maybe when i find the piece of me thats missing, it'll be easier for us. maybe there' someone better out there for us both. maybe i don't know what im talking about. but i know that i loved him.
and all her friends tell her..shes so pretty. she'd be a whole lot prettier if she smiled once in awhile. but even her smile looks like a frown, shes seen her share of devils in this angel town.
have you ever gotten to a point where you dont even know why youre crying anymore, you just are, because you cant do anything else? i dont feel anything anymore. i dont. the incessant aching feels almost as natural as breathing and my mind is numb from analyzing itself. ive run out of words. out of thoughts. out of feelings. and still i cant help wishing so badly that you would just be here. that everything would feel right, instead of like this. somehow, in the back of my mind, im thinking that might make it better. i keep pinching myself, thinking im going to wake up. wake up.. and maybe see you.
this is the place where i sit. this is the part where i love you too much. is this as hard as it gets? because im getting tired of pretending im tough. im empty and aching and tumbling and breaking. i dream of worlds where youd understand, and i dream a million sleepless nights. is this how the book ends, nothing but good friends? because you dont see me, and you dont need me, and you dont love me the way i wish you would. this is the place where im falling apart. isnt this just where we met? and is this the las chance that ill ever get? i wish i was lonely, instead of just only.. crystal and see-through, and not enough for you..
gazing across the room
I'll never forget when I laid my eyes on you
although I have to admit
I wasn't hoping for this much
I know I don't deserve you
I hope you don't dig that deep
scratching the surface
only creates scars
I hope you don't dig that far
you gave me so much
to win me over
love lies in your touch
beauty dies in the fire
middle school called, they want their drama back.
"It's no good. When someone leaves you, apart from missing them, apart from the fact that the whole world you've created together collapses, and that everything you see or do reminds you of them, the worst is the thought that they've tried you out and, in the end, the whole sum of parts adds up to you got stamped REJECT by the one you love. How can you not be left with the personal confidence of a passed-over British Rail sandwich?" [on breaking up] - Bridget Jones [from the book]
"I guess when your heart gets broken, you sort of start to see the cracks in everything. I'm convinced that tragedy wants to harden us, and that our mission is to never let it."-Sally, Felicity
I wish you strength
When times are hard
Oh I wish with all my heart you find just what
You're looking for
I wish you joy
I wish you peace
And that every star you see's within your reach
And I wish you still loved me
I want a man that stands beside me
Not in front of or behind me
Give me two arms that want to hold me, not own me
And I'll give all the love in my heart
Stand beside me
Be true, don't tell lies to me
I'm not lookin' for a fantasy
I want a man that who stands beside me
Oh, I've been down this road a time or two, it's nothing new
Oh, I'll get on my feet and over you
I tell myself that everything will be just fine
Oh, I'm just going through a little down-time
Another day has almost come and gone
Can't imagine what else could go wrong
Sometimes I'd like to hide away somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war, Cause
Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain
With all my heart and all my soul
I'm loving you and I never will let go
And every day I'll let it show
Because you love me
each girl should have someone
who makes her laugh
who she can trust
who turns her on.
and it's really important that those 3 people
don't know each other.
- one tree hill.
I think of awhile ago we might have had it all, I was so stupid then you needed time to grow and now just as things change, as well my feelings do, in time things rearrange I am so sick of chasing you~Blink182
It's easier for me to be alone but there's still a piece of me that feels so empty, I've been all over the world I've seen a million different places, but through the crowds and all the faces I'm still out there looking for you~Michelle Branch
You're the beauty that is deeper than eyes can merely see,the closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing from me~The Juliana Theory
Then you conned me into thinking that all I had was you,the small insinuations were cutting me through,and now I stand alone here stronger than before and I'll never go back~Tantric
you'rs the kind of friend who
always bends when i'm broken
Well I know the words,
But I can’t really speak them-
To you.
And I hide all the pain,
That I’ve gained with my wisdom,
From you.
And I’m eaten alive,
By what I hold inside.
All the things that I live with,
I can’t easily hide.
And I’m left here with nothing,
Nothing to live for-
But you.
when you laugh you'll feel my breath there
filling up your lungs. and when you cry,
those aren't your tears but i'm there
falling down your cheek.
and when you say you love her, taste me
i'm like poison on your tongue-
but when you're tired, if you're quiet,
you'll hear me singing you to sleep.
I'd rather feel pain then be numb. Crazy as it may seem. But at least when I feel pain I know I can still feel. And know that it hasn't gotten so bad that I've become immune to it.
Unabashed honesty
would be ideal
but a prophet did once say
that honesty is a lonely word
so where do we go from here
abandon ship now?
my problem is you make me melt
and I don't want to be frozen anymore
I think the hardest part of this whole situation is that neither of us knows what's going on, neither of us knows what each other are thinking and we are both trying to make decisions based on information we don't know. I'm just scared to tell you my feelings in fear that yours won't be the same.
Promises mean everything, but after they’re broken, sorry means nothing..
i see your lipstick on your glass
and i think you're drunk
and start to laugh
and i find your note the letters ran
and it said i loved you
...
i watch you passed out for
a while
i touch your face you
start to smile
and on your note is my reply
i wished i loved you
You've changed so much. I guess that's what happens. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I wonder if I changed you, if your life is different because of me. Because mine’s different. My god, you taught me so much and now we don't even talk to each other. I guess that's what happens.
I know that someday you're going to be a star. I know that someday you'll shine. In somebody else's sky but mine. Why? Why? Why cant it be mine? We belong together. ~ Pearl Jam
If you love something, set it free, if it comes back, it was meant to be. If it continues to fly, let it soar, have faith that there is something better in store.
We may not be together but we will never be through
To every girl who gossiped about me in corners of parties; to those who were my slap in the face; to the closeminded or misunderstanding; to those who broke my heart: you all challenged me to become the person I wanted to be. I am stronger because of the trials you put me through and no matter what you have done to me, you have unknowingly done so much more for me
got you on my mind
feeling kind of sad and low
im wondering where you are
wondering why you had to go
tears begin to fall everytime i hear your name
tears begin to fall everytime i hear your name
but since you went away
nothing seems to be the same
no matter how i try
my heart just dont see why
i cant forget you
if ever it should be
you want to come back to me
you know i'd let you
here's what i can tell you:
one day, you are going to look at me, and see everything you cant see right now.
you are going to realize no one competes with me.
you are going to finally see the purpose in all of this.
you are going to know that i am beautiful.
you are going to know that i am smart.
you are going to know what it feels like to truly love and in return, to be loved.
i know this. now, i just wait for you to know it too.
"If I could somehow get inside your head, i would tell you to choose letting me go rather than holding onto me because id rather spend my whole life missing you, then my whole life healing the wounds youve made"
The love you take is equal to the love you make.
-The Beatles
if you dont expect too much from me
you might not be let down
cause all i really want is to be with you
and feel like i matter to
I guess that it's typical
To cling to memories you'll never get back again
And to sort through old photographs
Of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know
And there below
His frozen face
You wrote the name and that ancient date, that ancient date
And you can't believe that he's really gone
When all that's left is a fucking song.
-Bright Eyes "February 15th"
this is the part where white lies cause broken hearts
and you're just something i never really needed to begin with..
youve gone to all i think about -- to just a memory from my past. finally im starting the next chapter to my life, and this chapter doesnt have you in it .. trust me.
never meant to waste your time
never meant to fall out of line
I always tried to get closer to you
now it seems with every step
feels like I'm losin' my breath
I don't know what else I can do
-lifehouse
this time what I want is you there is no one else who can take your place this time you burn me with your eyes you see past all the lies you take it all away I've seen it all and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away I try to make my way to you but still I feel so lost I don't know what else I can do I've seen it all and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you ~Lifehouse
if you walk away i'll walk away first tell me which road you will take, i don't want to risk our paths crossing someday so you walk that way i walk this way and the future hangs over our heads and it moves with each current event until it falls all around like a cold steady rain just stay in when it's lookin this way..-bright eyes
sometimes i think i care so much it hurts
it hurts to breathe, to speak, to feel
and i sit here, ripped in two
screaming over things you say
and wishing for things you'll never say
am i too weak? too shy? or even too scared?
to scared to trust, to feel, to care
but i promse you, i care
these jealous words and thoughtless remarks
they are nothing compared to the things i wish i could speak
but i cant - im ashamed, im afraid
just, please, promise me it'll be different this time around
please say you need me now -
because i need you
these quotes may seem a bit dramatic but they came from a difficult part of my life. whew. glad thats over.
"i've seen sinking ships go down with more grace than you" - fall out boy
i wish i had saved all the tears i cried over you
..so i could fucking drown you in them.
live, learn, let go..
"your head in your hands and this is my cue
if three words could heal you I'd only speak two"
"thanks again for my misery, and you run with fake friends
I'm sick of your sad songs and sing alongs
I kind of like it when things are wrong
straight from left end
they'll shout corrections
and I'll decline, I'll decline
a source of comfort or some protection
and I'll decline"
"all my hopes and all of my dreams
everything falling in between
seems to me that the memories
[they] mean more to you than they do to me
through the sky and into you eyes
[and I see everything falling in between]
sew the lips right onto your smile
I'm okay with faking this
I'll fake everything just to slip you kiss
[if I'm a writer, and I'm a poet, I might love you but never show it]
"I want to cross you off my list
But when you come knocking at my door
Fate seems to give my heart a twist
And I come running back for more"
-George Harrison
Tears are words the heart can't say.
Have you ever lived my life? Spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't then tell me why yOu judge me the way you do. Have you ever waken up in the morning wondering if this was your last day on Earth? Have you left your house unsure if you wanted to return? Have you ever seen your mom cry because she was so depressed? Have you ever had a father that didnt want you to be his daughter? Have you ever covered up guilt by doing a good deed? Have you ever considered suicide as the only way out? Have you ever tried to hide yourself behind the things you say? Have you ever wanted to protect your friends and everyone in sight? Have you ever felt so much pain you would cry yourself to sleep at night? Have you ever live my life? Spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't then tell me why you judge me like you do?
No matter what you do to me, I'm still here. For some odd reason, I stick around and put up with all your mood swings and unkind words. I just let your comments roll off me into a puddle on the floor. I make up excuses on why you didn't call … try to think of all the answers. I keep going back for more even though sometimes you push me away. I don't know if I can do better, but do I really want to? You're quick to push me down when all I want is to be brought up. When I walk out for good, when I really gain the strength I need … then maybe you will see. Maybe you can look back and say, "Wow … that girl really did love me."
I hate the way you can push me to my limits with the things you do and then you know just the right time to say something sweet to make me fall in love all over again and I forget every little reason I was mad
All dreams aren’t just out of reach, and stars don’t shine just to make children smile. When you idealize something in your life, it’s easy to put it on a pedestal and watch it for a while to let it go after. Instead of climbing the ladder, you just keep walking firmly step by step. You’ll surely say someday: “Everything is OK.” Did you ever think of what you could have left behind? A lonely dream, an unclimbed ladder. “What if I had …?” Maybe you won’t get anywhere, and maybe you’ll find your nose facing the ground in your fall. No star. No dream. Just a mud bath. Still, inside of you, the memory of a shining star, of a land seen from a distance will remain. That makes a life difference..
This is your life. It doesn't get any better than this. You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else. We are all apart of the same compost heap. We are the all singing, all dancing crap of the world. You are not your bank account. You are not the clothes you wear. You are not the contents of your wallet. You are not your bowel cancer. You are not your grande latte. You are not the car you drive. You are not your fucking khakis. You have to give up. You have to realize that someday you will die. Until you know that, you are useless. Fight Club
you are as beautiful as ever, yet im starting
to resent your smile. because its killing me to say
this but im dying inside to leave
could it be that i was wrong? i was so wrong. ive changed for you but i don't know what to say or do. we grew apart but i still want you in my heart
i can't remember to forget your face
oh youre so sure that ill be leaving in the end, youre treating me like im already gone
saying goodbye isn't the hard part, it's what we leave behind that's tough
i hate the way i could never hate you
i'm so tired of picking myself up off the ground
Haters only hate on the things they can't have and the people they can't be. It's a little thing called jalousy.
Life takes your dreams and turns them upside down, friends talk about you when you're not around, people make promises they just can't keep, I've come to realize that talk is cheap.
after thinking you're over him you realize
you've only gotten used to the pain of
knowing that he`ll never be yours
Time is something you can't rewind,
so tell me, are you the now or never kind?
"in the end Peter Pan pulled off Tinkerbell's wings so she could never leave, sometimes love is just another way to bleed"
if you look inside a girl's heart and see how much she cries. you'll find secrets, best friends, and lies, but what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right
she thinks about herself and cares about nobody else..beacuse her only friends she has all put her down- sugarcult
I wont forget the memories shared, I wont forget who loved and who cared, don't think I'm leaving you behind, you'll be the first and last thing on my mind
"It's days like these I'd kill myself,
thinking there's something I must have missed.
But my head clears out,
I'm not that fucked up.
I'm waiting for something that doesn't exist."
The optimist sees opportunity in every danger. The pessimist sees danger in every opportunity.
A failing love is like desperately hanging onto something precious, not wanting to give up but your hangs feel the pain. And when you finally let go, you're free from any pain but your hands are empty.
Leaving never hurts as much as being left behind.
Sarcasm keeps you from telling people what you really think.
Don't you understand that we are only holding onto each other because we are too scared to let go?
Never be with someone who does not know your worth
"I know I am who I am today, because I knew you"
"Don't ever stay silent when there is something worth speaking about"
The more you, put me through,
The more it makes me wanna come back to you
Somewhere between the procrastination...and the homework..and the incessant forwards..and the friendships...and the calls to each other complaining about crushes..Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends..and the "I miss you's" & the "I love you's"..and the "What are we doing tonight's?"..and somewhere between all the changing and growing..somewhere between the classes..and the skipping classes..and the studying for tests..and the pretending to study for tests...and the downright NOT studying for tests..I forgot..I forgot what high school is all about...I forgot what it meant to cry..I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy...and that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart..I forgot that you can't just forget the past in the fear of the future..I forgot that you can't control falling in love..I learned that I can love..I learned that it's okay to mess up..And it's okay to ask for help....and it's okay to feel like crud...I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day..I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups..it's the friendships, which means taking chances...I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about..I learned that letters from friends are the most important things...and that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends..both old & new..are the most important people to me in the world. And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today....So this is a thank you to all of my friends...for always being there and I love you"
Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. -> The Wonder Years
sometimes you just feel everything & nothing all at once. sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time. at times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. life comes without guarantees, except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, & falling in love...will change your life
"You're not my friend, friends don't look at each other like we do, you're not my friend, friends don't touch each other the way we do, you're not my friend, friends don't kiss like we do, so then what are you?"
You always were a special friend. You knew that, I knew that. Only I knew something more. I knew that I loved you, and I have for so long. You complain because you can't find 'the right girl' I guess friendship makes you go blind to see what's standing right in front of you."
and it hurts because I know hes out there falling in and out of love with girls.. that just, aren't me
in the backyard
in the garden
you were always there
digging down where roots would burrow underneath.
now the grass is always overgrown
and the weeds are choking out the sun
pretty soon they'll come under the door
and you don't care
I wanted to thank you for making me see what it's like to care for someone that much. I want to thank you for making me believe I was loved, and making me believe you wanted to be with me. Thank you for hurting me, and showing me the world was real.
It hurts to realize that the people you thought you'd love for life don't love you as much as you thought they did and can do without you like they never knew you at all.
I never thought you'd hurt me. I guess you live & learn that when you play with fire, you’re bound to get burned. I've been mistreated, I've been used before, I get kicked in the face, but I still come back for more.
Don't spend precious time crying, spend it preparing yourself for the next boy that tries to break your heart.
Promise me...that's all I want. Just a promise that you will never forget me. Tell me that I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you will always remember me. Please, losing you was hard enough, but I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you.
Getting through life and growing up, you tend to get hurt and get your heart crushed. But what you have to realize is, if God had intended you two to be together then he will find a way. But if you guys don't end up with one another, that just means there is someone out there that is more perfect waiting for you.
Do you think life is chaos? Do you think it just happens randomly, with no scheme, no plan? Or do you feel that the choices you make, the things that happen to you, all happen for a reason?
No one's ever what they seem to be. You meet them, and you think you have them all figured out, but little by little you learn more and more things about that person. Then in the end, they're a whole different person. Someone you thought they'd never be."
Isn't it funny the way life is? The way that people change, and the way that you change. The way that sometimes nothing seems to be worth your while, and other times things mean the world. The way that things happens and all you can do is just carry on. The way that people are fake, and the way that you are just as fake but don’t realize it. The way that nothing ever seems right, but when its gone you realize its what you really wanted. And the way you think the world is never on your side, but in fact you are much more fortunate than lots of other people...
i'd really like to see you there.
i cant pretend like i dont care.
because i really do
please just kill the drama.
go to sleep, we'll talk tomorrow.
dream about me, and dont worry
we'll be fine.
I didn't lose him; I let him go. I didn't get over him; I moved on. When you truly love someone you never lose them or get over them, they will always mean something to you, so no matter how hard you try if it was true love, you'll never forget them.
Definition of "Just Friends": It means I don't just want you to mourn the loss; I want to remind you of it every day. I want you to suffer. I want you to envy. I want you to die slowly, a bit at a time. And I want you to smile and thank me for it.
"We may not be together but we will never be through."
"Whoever said there's plenty of fish in the sea was lying. Sometimes there's only one fish. Trust me."
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
A heart is a fragile thing. That's why we protect them so vigorously, give them away so rarely, and why it means so much when we do. Some hearts are more fragile than others. Purer, somehow. Like crystal in a world of glass, even the way they shatter is beautiful.
Even in my arms, you were always out of reach.
Don't you get it? You are replacing me with someone who just walked into your life. How long have I been here? How many years? I guess it doesn't matter to you anymore. You look at me with eyes that say "I don't care" How do you think that makes me feel? Out of all the people that have walked into my life you were the last person that I suspected that would walk right out without even looking back.. Please don't prove to me that I was wrong
I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at myself for believing you were something that you're not, for believing that you were always going to be here for me. But the truth is .. you're not.
Honestly, I'm crazy about him. But that doesn't make me stupid. I've been hurt enough times to learn my lesson. It's not like he's the only guy who looks at me. And why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't appreciate me, when you and I both know I could do so much better? He knows where to find me if he wants, but my world's not going to stop and wait for him. And if he does come back, who's to say that I'll even be here when he does?
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be
-oasis "i'm still here"
"And you wake up to realize that your standard of living somehow got stuck on survive."
What are friends?
Friends are people that you think are your friends
But they're really your enemies, with secret indentities
and disguises, to hide they're true colors
So just when you think you're close enough to be brothers
they wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't lookin
- "If I Had", Eminem
When I needed you most when I needed a friend, you let me down now like I let you down then
- Blink 182
She's faced the hardest times you could imagine
And many times her eyes fought back the tears
sometimes i wish that i was a a cold beer
i'd rest assured that you would hold me near
i'd be guaranteed to be just what you need...
and i would walk away.. and i'd surely walk away
if i wasn't such a sucker for you
and you'll never know, dear
just how much i loved you
you'll probably think this was
just my big excuse
but i stand committed
to a love that came before you
and the fact that i adore you
is but one of my truths
- ani
who are you now
and who were you then
that you thought somehow
you could just pretend
that you could figure it all out
the mathematics of regret
so it takes two beers to remember now
and five to forget
that i loved you so
yeah, i loved you, so what
- ani
how sick of me must you be by now? while you're standing just outside of what your pride will allow, always reaching into yourself to find a new way to understand me. when i'm sure that there's no one else in the world that could withstand me. yeah, the first person in your life to ever really matter is saying the last thing that you want to hear. and you are listening hard through the splintering shards of your life as it shatters. and you're standing firm and you're staying close and you're seeing clear. i took to the stage with my outrage in the bad old days when you were the "make me mad" guy. but the songs they come out more slowly now that i am the bad guy. and i say, baby i'm sorry that i am so crazy, i am astounded by your patience. but you say/ "believe or not baby, the joy you bring me still outweighs it." ANI
If you could be anything you want I bet you'd be disappointed.
I have never been
So insulted in all my life
I could swallow the seas
To wash down all this pride
First you run like a fool
Just to be at my side
And now you run like a fool
But you just run to hide
And I can't abide
But whats real? You cant find the truth. You just pick the lie you like best. As long as you know everythings a lie, you cant hurt yourself
i like that you ramble when you're nervous. i like that i know that you ramble when
you're nervous. i like that i still make you nervous.
one of the worst feelings is to have lost the one you love and then still love them with all your heart. you go to sleep at night thinking of them, and wake up just the same. but the worst thing is dreaming of him every night, just like you were still together. then you wake up crying, cause you know it'll never be the same..
*and as i sit here looking at you, i wonder if there will ever be a day when i will get over your smile...when i will let go of the hugs you gave me, that i continue to feel...a day when i forget the words you said to me...forget what you meant to me or forget how much i loved you. but no matter what you did to me or what happened to us. i know i could never get over, let go, or forget you.
*i sometimes wish i could be like you, being able to get so close to people who you really have no intention of being close to. letting people get so close to you, only to push them away. but then i remember, i could never be like you, i have a heart.
*Back to our lives, separate from each other. And when you see me, when I see you, we'll pretend we don't know one time we were lovers.
*You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever, but I will love you until it kills me and even then you'll still be in my heart.
That night we talked. About life. About our times together. Maybe we weren't the same two people we had once been. But some things never change. Some things last. And even though I didn't know what was going to happen to us, or where we were going.. I just knew I couldn't let him out of my life
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name
i still love him, you see. unconditionally and with all of my heart. but it's a different kind of love. i don't "want him back," because that is over and done with and theres no going back. i just miss his presence in my life. i want nothing but happiness for him and i know hes found it, without me. and he deserves that for all of the days he made me smile, for all the times he listened, for all those moments he made me feel the way that he did. maybe when i find the piece of me thats missing, it'll be easier for us. maybe there' someone better out there for us both. maybe i don't know what im talking about. but i know that i loved him.
and all her friends tell her..shes so pretty. she'd be a whole lot prettier if she smiled once in awhile. but even her smile looks like a frown, shes seen her share of devils in this angel town.
have you ever gotten to a point where you dont even know why youre crying anymore, you just are, because you cant do anything else? i dont feel anything anymore. i dont. the incessant aching feels almost as natural as breathing and my mind is numb from analyzing itself. ive run out of words. out of thoughts. out of feelings. and still i cant help wishing so badly that you would just be here. that everything would feel right, instead of like this. somehow, in the back of my mind, im thinking that might make it better. i keep pinching myself, thinking im going to wake up. wake up.. and maybe see you.
this is the place where i sit. this is the part where i love you too much. is this as hard as it gets? because im getting tired of pretending im tough. im empty and aching and tumbling and breaking. i dream of worlds where youd understand, and i dream a million sleepless nights. is this how the book ends, nothing but good friends? because you dont see me, and you dont need me, and you dont love me the way i wish you would. this is the place where im falling apart. isnt this just where we met? and is this the las chance that ill ever get? i wish i was lonely, instead of just only.. crystal and see-through, and not enough for you..
gazing across the room
I'll never forget when I laid my eyes on you
although I have to admit
I wasn't hoping for this much
I know I don't deserve you
I hope you don't dig that deep
scratching the surface
only creates scars
I hope you don't dig that far
you gave me so much
to win me over
love lies in your touch
beauty dies in the fire
middle school called, they want their drama back.
"It's no good. When someone leaves you, apart from missing them, apart from the fact that the whole world you've created together collapses, and that everything you see or do reminds you of them, the worst is the thought that they've tried you out and, in the end, the whole sum of parts adds up to you got stamped REJECT by the one you love. How can you not be left with the personal confidence of a passed-over British Rail sandwich?" [on breaking up] - Bridget Jones [from the book]
"I guess when your heart gets broken, you sort of start to see the cracks in everything. I'm convinced that tragedy wants to harden us, and that our mission is to never let it."-Sally, Felicity
I wish you strength
When times are hard
Oh I wish with all my heart you find just what
You're looking for
I wish you joy
I wish you peace
And that every star you see's within your reach
And I wish you still loved me
I want a man that stands beside me
Not in front of or behind me
Give me two arms that want to hold me, not own me
And I'll give all the love in my heart
Stand beside me
Be true, don't tell lies to me
I'm not lookin' for a fantasy
I want a man that who stands beside me
Oh, I've been down this road a time or two, it's nothing new
Oh, I'll get on my feet and over you
I tell myself that everything will be just fine
Oh, I'm just going through a little down-time
Another day has almost come and gone
Can't imagine what else could go wrong
Sometimes I'd like to hide away somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war, Cause
Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain
With all my heart and all my soul
I'm loving you and I never will let go
And every day I'll let it show
Because you love me
each girl should have someone
who makes her laugh
who she can trust
who turns her on.
and it's really important that those 3 people
don't know each other.
- one tree hill.
I think of awhile ago we might have had it all, I was so stupid then you needed time to grow and now just as things change, as well my feelings do, in time things rearrange I am so sick of chasing you~Blink182
It's easier for me to be alone but there's still a piece of me that feels so empty, I've been all over the world I've seen a million different places, but through the crowds and all the faces I'm still out there looking for you~Michelle Branch
You're the beauty that is deeper than eyes can merely see,the closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing from me~The Juliana Theory
Then you conned me into thinking that all I had was you,the small insinuations were cutting me through,and now I stand alone here stronger than before and I'll never go back~Tantric
you'rs the kind of friend who
always bends when i'm broken
Well I know the words,
But I can’t really speak them-
To you.
And I hide all the pain,
That I’ve gained with my wisdom,
From you.
And I’m eaten alive,
By what I hold inside.
All the things that I live with,
I can’t easily hide.
And I’m left here with nothing,
Nothing to live for-
But you.
when you laugh you'll feel my breath there
filling up your lungs. and when you cry,
those aren't your tears but i'm there
falling down your cheek.
and when you say you love her, taste me
i'm like poison on your tongue-
but when you're tired, if you're quiet,
you'll hear me singing you to sleep.
I'd rather feel pain then be numb. Crazy as it may seem. But at least when I feel pain I know I can still feel. And know that it hasn't gotten so bad that I've become immune to it.
Unabashed honesty
would be ideal
but a prophet did once say
that honesty is a lonely word
so where do we go from here
abandon ship now?
my problem is you make me melt
and I don't want to be frozen anymore
I think the hardest part of this whole situation is that neither of us knows what's going on, neither of us knows what each other are thinking and we are both trying to make decisions based on information we don't know. I'm just scared to tell you my feelings in fear that yours won't be the same.
Promises mean everything, but after they’re broken, sorry means nothing..
i see your lipstick on your glass
and i think you're drunk
and start to laugh
and i find your note the letters ran
and it said i loved you
...
i watch you passed out for
a while
i touch your face you
start to smile
and on your note is my reply
i wished i loved you
You've changed so much. I guess that's what happens. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I wonder if I changed you, if your life is different because of me. Because mine’s different. My god, you taught me so much and now we don't even talk to each other. I guess that's what happens.
I know that someday you're going to be a star. I know that someday you'll shine. In somebody else's sky but mine. Why? Why? Why cant it be mine? We belong together. ~ Pearl Jam
If you love something, set it free, if it comes back, it was meant to be. If it continues to fly, let it soar, have faith that there is something better in store.
We may not be together but we will never be through
To every girl who gossiped about me in corners of parties; to those who were my slap in the face; to the closeminded or misunderstanding; to those who broke my heart: you all challenged me to become the person I wanted to be. I am stronger because of the trials you put me through and no matter what you have done to me, you have unknowingly done so much more for me
got you on my mind
feeling kind of sad and low
im wondering where you are
wondering why you had to go
tears begin to fall everytime i hear your name
tears begin to fall everytime i hear your name
but since you went away
nothing seems to be the same
no matter how i try
my heart just dont see why
i cant forget you
if ever it should be
you want to come back to me
you know i'd let you
here's what i can tell you:
one day, you are going to look at me, and see everything you cant see right now.
you are going to realize no one competes with me.
you are going to finally see the purpose in all of this.
you are going to know that i am beautiful.
you are going to know that i am smart.
you are going to know what it feels like to truly love and in return, to be loved.
i know this. now, i just wait for you to know it too.
"If I could somehow get inside your head, i would tell you to choose letting me go rather than holding onto me because id rather spend my whole life missing you, then my whole life healing the wounds youve made"
The love you take is equal to the love you make.
-The Beatles
if you dont expect too much from me
you might not be let down
cause all i really want is to be with you
and feel like i matter to
I guess that it's typical
To cling to memories you'll never get back again
And to sort through old photographs
Of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know
And there below
His frozen face
You wrote the name and that ancient date, that ancient date
And you can't believe that he's really gone
When all that's left is a fucking song.
-Bright Eyes "February 15th"
this is the part where white lies cause broken hearts
and you're just something i never really needed to begin with..
youve gone to all i think about -- to just a memory from my past. finally im starting the next chapter to my life, and this chapter doesnt have you in it .. trust me.
never meant to waste your time
never meant to fall out of line
I always tried to get closer to you
now it seems with every step
feels like I'm losin' my breath
I don't know what else I can do
-lifehouse
this time what I want is you there is no one else who can take your place this time you burn me with your eyes you see past all the lies you take it all away I've seen it all and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away I try to make my way to you but still I feel so lost I don't know what else I can do I've seen it all and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you ~Lifehouse
if you walk away i'll walk away first tell me which road you will take, i don't want to risk our paths crossing someday so you walk that way i walk this way and the future hangs over our heads and it moves with each current event until it falls all around like a cold steady rain just stay in when it's lookin this way..-bright eyes
sometimes i think i care so much it hurts
it hurts to breathe, to speak, to feel
and i sit here, ripped in two
screaming over things you say
and wishing for things you'll never say
am i too weak? too shy? or even too scared?
to scared to trust, to feel, to care
but i promse you, i care
these jealous words and thoughtless remarks
they are nothing compared to the things i wish i could speak
but i cant - im ashamed, im afraid
just, please, promise me it'll be different this time around
please say you need me now -
because i need you
these quotes may seem a bit dramatic but they came from a difficult part of my life. whew. glad thats over.