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I had a friend on here named Rebecca. We became close friends through livejournal over many years. She disappeared around a year ago. Or is it two now? I have no idea what happened to her. She was on a constant suicide watch. Was she finally able to do it? I wish I had some way of talking to her again. She doesn't even sign onto aim anymore. I felt such a strong attachment towards her. I wish she knew that. If she did, she would have tried to contact me by now.
I had a friend I met through ujournal named Ray. He wasn't really a friend- he was someone that I worshiped. I devoutly looked up to him. But for him, I was just an embarrassing young girl experiencing nerdy, awkward mishaps through puberty. He was so brilliant, he was so successful. I still consider him to be deeply beautiful. His last entry was years ago. It was brief, succinct, ominous. And then he disappeared. Is he dead too? I just wish we could talk now. Maybe he would finally be able to see me as a person.
It's so terribly lonely.
I had a friend I met through ujournal named Ray. He wasn't really a friend- he was someone that I worshiped. I devoutly looked up to him. But for him, I was just an embarrassing young girl experiencing nerdy, awkward mishaps through puberty. He was so brilliant, he was so successful. I still consider him to be deeply beautiful. His last entry was years ago. It was brief, succinct, ominous. And then he disappeared. Is he dead too? I just wish we could talk now. Maybe he would finally be able to see me as a person.
It's so terribly lonely.