Hurm?
I wrote something before. Something about my real life?
I don't know anymore. whether it was love or obsession. I just don't know.
There were phase in my life where i found it hard to leave my bed. i just want to stay there, under my nice blanket, sleep or awake, not thinking of anything else.
once in January 2019 (when Arashi announce hiatus) and another time was in mid 2018, when i got to know that 'he' was getting married.
and ever since, i told myself, i wasn't doing myself right. i hurt myself so hard that i don't know how to love, to fall in love or to give myself another chance to love. perhaps, it wasn't love. it's a freaking obsession. a disgusting one.
but, it's been 4 years. i wonder will i ever move on?
will i take this obsession to death?