[Ongoing] Losing Him - Prologue [Ohmiya]
Title : Losing Him - Prologue
Lenght : Chapter
Author : ica_90
Pairing : Ohmiya (for 85% of the fic), Matsumiya (Friendship,in the next few chapters), Aimiya (Friendship, in the next few chapters), mostly friendship in this one for every other pair
Genre : Angst, Friendship, AU (because Nino quits Arashi, please advice if it’s not)
Rating : PG for now. In my draft, it’ll go to NC-17. Only for a chapter.
Summary : Few weeks after Ohno rejected Nino’s confession, Nino decided to quit Arashi, making Ohno wonder if his rejection was the reason. But he has his own suspicions, and he wanted to know.
Warning :[Spoiler (click to open)]sex-scandal ahead.
“I love you.”
He felt his voice shook, and at some point, he knew it sounded broken. But he needed Ohno to know, needed him to understand. But most of all, even though how selfish it seemed, he needed Ohno to love him too.
But all there was looming between them was an ominous silence as Nino waited for Ohno's answer, Nino was staring at Ohno with anticipation. The other man, in turn, looked shocked from the confession-jaw slacken, eyes slightly widen, blinking as if wrapping his head around the words that left Nino's mouth.
Nino was looking at him with desperation, and a thousand hopes filling in his chest.
It has been years since he realized he really loved Ohno. It wasn’t a simple crush or the thought of Ohno as his savior. His life has been way too crooked and messed up for Ohno to save him. But he loved Ohno and years of enduring the secret of his love for the man deep in his heart, he just needed Ohno to love him back. Desperately needing it.
But when Ohno finally closed his mouth, looking much more composed and more serious than usual, Nino knew. The hope he had all these years would never be realized without having to hear the rejection out of Ohno's mouth, his heart shattered in pieces.
“Nino, I-“
“It’s impossible, right?” He cut Ohno off from saying his apology. his lips quivering, wanting to say more word just to keep the situation less awkward between them. The words, however, were stuck in his throat.
When Ohno sighed, Nino started to hate his life for everything that happened.
“I really appreciated it, Nino. I really do,” Ohno said, patting Nino softly on the shoulder. By, Nino had started sniffing.
His life has been unfair to him. He never believed in love since he was a child. He thought he would be able to make his life better when he reluctantly went to audition to join this jimusho. Before he knew it, he was one step to hell. He was used. He was threatened. He could never be happy in spite all the things he had achieved. And now, his one last hope ruined his chances for that.
“Nino-“ Ohno sounded concerned when he reached out for the man but before he could, Nino pushed his hand away.
“it’s ok. Don’t mind me. I’m- fine.” Nino replied instead, trying to sound like he was. But Ohno knew Nino well enough to know when he really was or not--even when Nino wouldn't voice it out. Today was the worst he had seen of Nino, looking more fragile than before. And he knew it was because of his answer. Eighteen years spending his life time with Nino, today is the day that Ohno knew his answer had made shattered the guy. He regrets that but if he couldn't love Nino, why string him along?
“you’re my friend Nino. I don’t want things to go wrong between us,”
Nino nodded, seemingly understood.
And the topic never resurfaced since.
Though, one thing that Ohno never knew was, it was the first step to the darkest revelation and a step of losing Nino, not only as a friend but as someone important to him and to the rest of Arashi.
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Short? Well, it's a prologue, and I'm not planning to make this long either. The fic will have a prologs + 8 chapters + and epilog with every chapter will be around 1300 words to 2500 words.
And I need a beta. As i hv my pace (300 words/day) in finishing this fic, i need a beta who can work faster so that i can post it fast too. this chapter was betaed by shardaunei, but as she's writing her own fic now, i refused to disturbed her with mine. You'll be checking on my grammar and paraphrasing it to make it flows better. So, anyone? PM me :)
Oh, and hey. Comments are loved <3
Lenght : Chapter
Author : ica_90
Pairing : Ohmiya (for 85% of the fic), Matsumiya (Friendship,in the next few chapters), Aimiya (Friendship, in the next few chapters), mostly friendship in this one for every other pair
Genre : Angst, Friendship, AU (because Nino quits Arashi, please advice if it’s not)
Rating : PG for now. In my draft, it’ll go to NC-17. Only for a chapter.
Summary : Few weeks after Ohno rejected Nino’s confession, Nino decided to quit Arashi, making Ohno wonder if his rejection was the reason. But he has his own suspicions, and he wanted to know.
Warning :[Spoiler (click to open)]sex-scandal ahead.
“I love you.”
He felt his voice shook, and at some point, he knew it sounded broken. But he needed Ohno to know, needed him to understand. But most of all, even though how selfish it seemed, he needed Ohno to love him too.
But all there was looming between them was an ominous silence as Nino waited for Ohno's answer, Nino was staring at Ohno with anticipation. The other man, in turn, looked shocked from the confession-jaw slacken, eyes slightly widen, blinking as if wrapping his head around the words that left Nino's mouth.
Nino was looking at him with desperation, and a thousand hopes filling in his chest.
It has been years since he realized he really loved Ohno. It wasn’t a simple crush or the thought of Ohno as his savior. His life has been way too crooked and messed up for Ohno to save him. But he loved Ohno and years of enduring the secret of his love for the man deep in his heart, he just needed Ohno to love him back. Desperately needing it.
But when Ohno finally closed his mouth, looking much more composed and more serious than usual, Nino knew. The hope he had all these years would never be realized without having to hear the rejection out of Ohno's mouth, his heart shattered in pieces.
“Nino, I-“
“It’s impossible, right?” He cut Ohno off from saying his apology. his lips quivering, wanting to say more word just to keep the situation less awkward between them. The words, however, were stuck in his throat.
When Ohno sighed, Nino started to hate his life for everything that happened.
“I really appreciated it, Nino. I really do,” Ohno said, patting Nino softly on the shoulder. By, Nino had started sniffing.
His life has been unfair to him. He never believed in love since he was a child. He thought he would be able to make his life better when he reluctantly went to audition to join this jimusho. Before he knew it, he was one step to hell. He was used. He was threatened. He could never be happy in spite all the things he had achieved. And now, his one last hope ruined his chances for that.
“Nino-“ Ohno sounded concerned when he reached out for the man but before he could, Nino pushed his hand away.
“it’s ok. Don’t mind me. I’m- fine.” Nino replied instead, trying to sound like he was. But Ohno knew Nino well enough to know when he really was or not--even when Nino wouldn't voice it out. Today was the worst he had seen of Nino, looking more fragile than before. And he knew it was because of his answer. Eighteen years spending his life time with Nino, today is the day that Ohno knew his answer had made shattered the guy. He regrets that but if he couldn't love Nino, why string him along?
“you’re my friend Nino. I don’t want things to go wrong between us,”
Nino nodded, seemingly understood.
And the topic never resurfaced since.
Though, one thing that Ohno never knew was, it was the first step to the darkest revelation and a step of losing Nino, not only as a friend but as someone important to him and to the rest of Arashi.
________________________________________________________________________________________
Short? Well, it's a prologue, and I'm not planning to make this long either. The fic will have a prologs + 8 chapters + and epilog with every chapter will be around 1300 words to 2500 words.
And I need a beta. As i hv my pace (300 words/day) in finishing this fic, i need a beta who can work faster so that i can post it fast too. this chapter was betaed by shardaunei, but as she's writing her own fic now, i refused to disturbed her with mine. You'll be checking on my grammar and paraphrasing it to make it flows better. So, anyone? PM me :)
Oh, and hey. Comments are loved <3