All I've got to pull me through is memories of you..
Well, I did really bad in ecsc, What a suprise. I don't know what's going on with me, I used to not get nervous in contest, But now I do, And it sucks, I hope that I can get my old style back, I haven't been doing good at all lately. Well I met some awesome people at ecsc. I really really miss them. Actually, I just miss him. I would do anything for him. But he's way too good for me, So I should stop looking at this magazine. I can not wait till Neptune, And Easterns.
I lost some friends over the past couple days. It's one of the worst feelings losing someone who once told me that they loved me and would always be there for me, Well it's 6 months later and you're not there. Whatever happened to all of our talks and everything else, You were just pretending. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I guess I just want someone to be there for me, And someone that wont constantly lie to me and talk shit. But everyone wants someone to be there for them, And it just seems like there is no one real here. I was talking to Shawna about everything that has happened lately during the awards at ecsc and I just started crying, In front of everyone and I just couldn't stop, Thinking about everything tears me apart.
I'm going to go hang out with Colby because she came over and we are going to figure out something, Probably just go hang out down at the beach and have intense conversations about how everything seems to be going downhill so freaking quickly all of a sudden.
AllisonLindsayCrute
They don't know that what you love get's ripped away, Before you get a chance to feel it.