sucky sucky poo-poo
how can one person feel so lucky and unlucky all at the same time? really... I should be happy cause I just spent an entire week with my fiance without school or anything but now I am more upset than anything. he calls me tonight with nothing but bad news... he isn't going to be here for my 18th b-day, our 2 year anniversary, christmas, or even new years... it's not that there won't be more but really... we really really met at my birthday... he proposed on new years... hello! the anniversary would be a given... my mom really wonders why it seems we are rushing into the marriage and how it could ruin my life as afar as education goes... she doesn't understand that I want to be married to him ASAP so that I can be with him as much as possible... right now, he comes into town very rary, stays on his ship and is bored, and then leaves... at least if I were there then I could spend more than a week with him and then be there when he gets back from whereever... it is just getting frusterating and I don't want to deal with it anymore... I want to graduate ASAP and get out of here... Believe it or not, I am a teen who has made up her mind about this part of her life... anyways, I better get to bed... Love ya all