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[ibiteback05]

for the first time in a long time i remember who i am. i respect my health and learned what it is to truly love myself. i have been selfish in many ways and hurt people i never meant to through my self destructive way of dealing with depression. if anyone reading this has problems dealing with emotions, please do not numb them out. you do not want the dead look i have had in my eyes for so long. just be strong and understand you will not always be happy and life is not fair. but there are moments that are beautiful in life that sparkle like a key west sunrise on a channel surrounded by mangroves. there are beautiful people right under your nose and some waiting to meet you. if you are sensitive, it is a gift. just not everyone deserves your kindness. and you cannot help everyone. sometimes you need to help yourself as i have learned. i wanted to fix so many people for so long. and there are few i found that were actually worth believing in. people will come in and out of life constantly and unfortunately. by death and by human nature as well. i just know a quote my mom made up that changed my life and i hope it reaches out to some one in need:
"Life is not about a million people and going out every night. Life is about one or two people and a good book."