ramble
This morning I woke up at 7:15 am, took a shower, started getting ready, then realized I didn't have class until 9:05 am. Why was I up so damn early? This did give me time to get breakfast and finish up my theory homework, so I suppose it was a good thing.
I feel as if no matter how much I practice, I'm not improving at all. This past (shout out to Andrew, who is standing behind me) week, I have practiced an insane amount, and I almost feel as if I have digressed. This is not encouraging at all.
I just played in rehearsal for two hours, then went to practice for 1.5 hours, and only lasted 10 minutes because my lip is in such an irreparable state that it hurts so badly to play. I have a lesson soon also. :(
But other than that, I must say it has been a really good week. I went out 4/7 nights and spent all of saturday evening/night/sunday afternoon sleeping. Then I did a ton of work that I had been putting off for quite some time, including cleaning and laundry and practicing of course. But every time I cross something off my To Do List, I think of about three more things to add.
My mother's birthday is on Thursday. I have no money to get her anything, and this upsets me greatly. Not only because I can't afford to buy my own mother a birthday present, but also because I have no money to do anything, and I really hate being a mooch and/or asking to borrow money. I have about $45 to last me until I get a job. I'm pretty much desperate enough to go back to Gusman and ask if I can start working there again. I'm pretty sure they'll let me, they're ridiculously understaffed.
Let's see, what other mundane thing can I talk about? Oh that's right, nothing. I'm only updating to help pass the time I should be using to practice but can't because I'm physically unable to.
On the agenda for the rest of the day: lesson, get a job, study study study. :'(
Is school over yet?
Fuck, I don't even want to go home for the summer. Stuart is so ridiculously boring and the only thing I'd be doing there is work at First Watch and sleep. I really want to get a job down here and find some place to stay until I can move into the University Village. But then I'd have to pay my own rent for 3 months and ... hell I don't know. I hate a lot of things right now. I've also been in this strange melancholy state that won't subside and it's starting to piss me off. This is the end of this stupid update.
edit: my lesson went really well, she said I sounded so much better. I guess I had just practiced so much that the little things were starting to get to me and I was ignoring my overall improvement. I also got my job back at Gusman. Things are better now.
I feel as if no matter how much I practice, I'm not improving at all. This past (shout out to Andrew, who is standing behind me) week, I have practiced an insane amount, and I almost feel as if I have digressed. This is not encouraging at all.
I just played in rehearsal for two hours, then went to practice for 1.5 hours, and only lasted 10 minutes because my lip is in such an irreparable state that it hurts so badly to play. I have a lesson soon also. :(
But other than that, I must say it has been a really good week. I went out 4/7 nights and spent all of saturday evening/night/sunday afternoon sleeping. Then I did a ton of work that I had been putting off for quite some time, including cleaning and laundry and practicing of course. But every time I cross something off my To Do List, I think of about three more things to add.
My mother's birthday is on Thursday. I have no money to get her anything, and this upsets me greatly. Not only because I can't afford to buy my own mother a birthday present, but also because I have no money to do anything, and I really hate being a mooch and/or asking to borrow money. I have about $45 to last me until I get a job. I'm pretty much desperate enough to go back to Gusman and ask if I can start working there again. I'm pretty sure they'll let me, they're ridiculously understaffed.
Let's see, what other mundane thing can I talk about? Oh that's right, nothing. I'm only updating to help pass the time I should be using to practice but can't because I'm physically unable to.
On the agenda for the rest of the day: lesson, get a job, study study study. :'(
Is school over yet?
Fuck, I don't even want to go home for the summer. Stuart is so ridiculously boring and the only thing I'd be doing there is work at First Watch and sleep. I really want to get a job down here and find some place to stay until I can move into the University Village. But then I'd have to pay my own rent for 3 months and ... hell I don't know. I hate a lot of things right now. I've also been in this strange melancholy state that won't subside and it's starting to piss me off. This is the end of this stupid update.
edit: my lesson went really well, she said I sounded so much better. I guess I had just practiced so much that the little things were starting to get to me and I was ignoring my overall improvement. I also got my job back at Gusman. Things are better now.