Updates
I am so ready for the semester to be over. Right now I am procrastinating on writing a simplistic essay outlining the internship I have been working at the Healdsburg History Museum for my Historical Methods course. I haven't even started grading my students' essays. I'm through. Spent.
The summer Fellowship at the University of Pittsburgh is going to be exciting. I received my schedule and itenerary a few days ago, and my daily schedule will be lighter than I expected. I will be in the classroom from 9am-noon, and 1-3 pm, which makes for only five hour days, Monday through Friday. I was expected six hour days. Believe me, having five hour days after having an entire semester of seven-day work weeks in which five of those days were eleven hour marathons...this will feel like a vacation.
That being said, I am growing very lonely, and aggravated. I am growing more bitter with the world simply because I feel like many people have been drifting away from me for so long, and if I don't put forth any effort, they will drift away forever. I also am feeling a very acute lack of love in my life. I'm not trying to self-centeredly whine about how I deserve to be loved and adored...I actually think I am quite a prickly person to deal with from time to time. I just don't feel like I should be treated like a diseased leper, and I am getting that vibe from people these days.
THe bitter side of me wants to just shut everyone out, but that's not a solution. I have been spending this past year in a fit of introspection and analysis and trying to slowly make myself better by slowly changing and getting rid of all my bad habits.
Argh, this is just random babbling shit, I don't know what I'm saying. I'll get back to you.
The summer Fellowship at the University of Pittsburgh is going to be exciting. I received my schedule and itenerary a few days ago, and my daily schedule will be lighter than I expected. I will be in the classroom from 9am-noon, and 1-3 pm, which makes for only five hour days, Monday through Friday. I was expected six hour days. Believe me, having five hour days after having an entire semester of seven-day work weeks in which five of those days were eleven hour marathons...this will feel like a vacation.
That being said, I am growing very lonely, and aggravated. I am growing more bitter with the world simply because I feel like many people have been drifting away from me for so long, and if I don't put forth any effort, they will drift away forever. I also am feeling a very acute lack of love in my life. I'm not trying to self-centeredly whine about how I deserve to be loved and adored...I actually think I am quite a prickly person to deal with from time to time. I just don't feel like I should be treated like a diseased leper, and I am getting that vibe from people these days.
THe bitter side of me wants to just shut everyone out, but that's not a solution. I have been spending this past year in a fit of introspection and analysis and trying to slowly make myself better by slowly changing and getting rid of all my bad habits.
Argh, this is just random babbling shit, I don't know what I'm saying. I'll get back to you.