" I want somebody who will either put out for me or put me out of my misery......"
"or maybe just put in all the words that make me go....you know I've never heard it put that way.........make me go.............What did you just say..............?"
" I watch the stas as they fall from the sky"
I'm sitting here listening to AFI and jamming out by my self. I saw hoods tonight I haven't seen him in alomst two years. we had such a great night at west side. tomorrow is a full night of light brigade. than sat is me and michael at light brigade. hopefully I get to see tracey on sat. night. I have the hic-ups, I guesss it's because of the shots that we did. the hot waiter brought them.
why is it that I always seem to fall for the guys with girlfriends or I want to get to know the guys with girlfriends more. I know it's not becuase of the fact that they are taken, becuase I never know that when the chance arises. I find out afterwards. I want them but I am not willing to be that girl.
" While I'm waiting , I was wasting away..................."
seems so true to so many chances and oppertunites. does it ring a bell to you? it should. but your busy with your own life and now I've become so hoplessly uninvolved that I only can hope in myself. so I hope that things will go well with winter guard and I hope that things will go well in the future with &*!. maybe something will happen there and if not an not and I will move on. maybe I will move on to RHode Island with tracey and have a whole new life. than you will never have a chance. maybe you never knew you had a chance. how sad is that. I want to let you know but it seems useless.
sorry kasey that all i had to update with is this.
in good news D and Ted are gonna have a babbins. she's due in july. I'm sp happy for them. tracey is dating someone new that will treat her right and megan and rory are wonderful. I am the same old kristen. with no one, like always. I like to believe that it's becasue no one can handle me becuase I'm the way I am, but maybe it's becuase no can handle me becuase I really am fucking crazy.
is it too much to ask for if some one is there when I cry, is it too much to ask that some one hold me when I'm sad, or that someone not date another girl in private the whole year I am dating them. what did I do to deserve that??? what did I do that made you say yea..........being with someone else is the answer to you. Ever though that has been the biggest thing to help me get over you it also has helped me feel really fucking lost.
I dont know what to say right now............
" theres a crowd of people harbored in every person, there are so many roles that we play youve decided to love me for eterinity I'm still decideding wh oI want to be today.
I guess I can't bring myself to waste your time."
ooohhhh good lord ani is playing in mother fucking red bank so fucking close. michal and missy and jess keen we are going..........
Sunday
12/5/2004 Count Basie Theatre
99 Monmouth St.
Red Bank, NJ
8:00 pm..........37.50 for each tix. but so worth every penny. please lets go............
I want a light of some kind.
I'm gonna go to bed becuase my dreams are bringing some kind of sweetness to my head and the rest of the world isn't to concrened with whats going on...........
at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame there must be a light of some kind..............
" I watch the stas as they fall from the sky"
I'm sitting here listening to AFI and jamming out by my self. I saw hoods tonight I haven't seen him in alomst two years. we had such a great night at west side. tomorrow is a full night of light brigade. than sat is me and michael at light brigade. hopefully I get to see tracey on sat. night. I have the hic-ups, I guesss it's because of the shots that we did. the hot waiter brought them.
why is it that I always seem to fall for the guys with girlfriends or I want to get to know the guys with girlfriends more. I know it's not becuase of the fact that they are taken, becuase I never know that when the chance arises. I find out afterwards. I want them but I am not willing to be that girl.
" While I'm waiting , I was wasting away..................."
seems so true to so many chances and oppertunites. does it ring a bell to you? it should. but your busy with your own life and now I've become so hoplessly uninvolved that I only can hope in myself. so I hope that things will go well with winter guard and I hope that things will go well in the future with &*!. maybe something will happen there and if not an not and I will move on. maybe I will move on to RHode Island with tracey and have a whole new life. than you will never have a chance. maybe you never knew you had a chance. how sad is that. I want to let you know but it seems useless.
sorry kasey that all i had to update with is this.
in good news D and Ted are gonna have a babbins. she's due in july. I'm sp happy for them. tracey is dating someone new that will treat her right and megan and rory are wonderful. I am the same old kristen. with no one, like always. I like to believe that it's becasue no one can handle me becuase I'm the way I am, but maybe it's becuase no can handle me becuase I really am fucking crazy.
is it too much to ask for if some one is there when I cry, is it too much to ask that some one hold me when I'm sad, or that someone not date another girl in private the whole year I am dating them. what did I do to deserve that??? what did I do that made you say yea..........being with someone else is the answer to you. Ever though that has been the biggest thing to help me get over you it also has helped me feel really fucking lost.
I dont know what to say right now............
" theres a crowd of people harbored in every person, there are so many roles that we play youve decided to love me for eterinity I'm still decideding wh oI want to be today.
I guess I can't bring myself to waste your time."
ooohhhh good lord ani is playing in mother fucking red bank so fucking close. michal and missy and jess keen we are going..........
Sunday
12/5/2004 Count Basie Theatre
99 Monmouth St.
Red Bank, NJ
8:00 pm..........37.50 for each tix. but so worth every penny. please lets go............
I want a light of some kind.
I'm gonna go to bed becuase my dreams are bringing some kind of sweetness to my head and the rest of the world isn't to concrened with whats going on...........
at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame there must be a light of some kind..............