"I'm over worked, but I'm under sexed..............."
so here I am after a night of double lecture.
I went to the bar ( surprise ) and am feeling fab. drinking a beer and happy. wow that's somthing new. maybe it's becasue I felt real feelings the other night or maybe just because I felt something. I wish it was the 60's and free love was accepted instead of guys being pimps and players and girls being sluts and whores.
I'm listening to garbage and some of the songs on this cd make me feel..... well i guess for lack of a better word horney. aol keeps loosing it's connection on the other computer.grrrrr....maybe I want to talk to someone. ok so everyone is asleep at 1:05, but I can leave messages. and I think that it's funny to do so. ummm.... in 9 days I graduate, I still haven't heard anything from light brigade. hopefully soon. ummm.... I'm leaving a note on butches door tomorrow to see if he want's to hang out on sat. night. not to late of course since I have metuchen. god after the talk I had with Kasey and Michelle I wonder why me and Kasey waste our time. I get so frustrated some times. why can't they just take our advice and go with it. huh?? and why does that staff have to be such cock asses???
You should be sleeping my lover
Tell me what you're dreaming of
I knew you were mine for the taking
I knew you were mine for the taking
Knew you were mine for the taking
When I walked in the room
I knew you were mine for the taking
I knew you were mine for the taking
Your eyes light up
When I walk in the room
sometimes that's how I feel and thank goodness I do or else i'd feel so worthless. as a matter of fact thats how I felt tonight and hopefully the next few nights. I love this sexual feeling. I just feel so good. hmmmm.......amazing sometimes even.
I got you crawling up a mountain
Hanging round my neck
I got you twisted round my finger
Crawling round my legs
The emptiness
The craziness
Satisfy this hungriness
Darling
How would it feel?
If we sleep together
Will you like me better
If we come together
We'll go down forever
If we sleep together
Will I like you better
If we come together
Prove it now or never
Make me a pretty person
Make me feel like I belong
Make me hard and make me happy
Make me beautiful
The emptiness
The craziness
Satisfy this hungriness
Darling
How would it feel?
If we sleep together
Will you like me better
If we come together
We'll go down forever
If we sleep together
Will I like you better
If we come together
Prove it now or never
If we sleep together
Nothing satisfies me baby
If we sleep together
I'll wear something pretty baby
If we sleep together
Give me what I crave now baby
If we sleep together
Save the rest for later baby
If we sleep together
You will drive me crazy baby
If we sleep together
I save it all for you my baby
If we sleep together
If we sleep together
hmmmmmmm...........sex. hmmmmmmmmmmm........lust. just one night and I can make you mine I know it. a few drinks between the two of use and you'd be lost inside my world. you won't know what to think or how to act where to be at whatever time you were supposed to be there. time means nothing. I have you by my side and control of the next things you do and the next thing you touch.
I wish people wouldn't see sex as such a bad thing. sex is such a passionate thing. there doesn't have to be love involved everytime. love and sex, yeah they go well together but sex and lust and temporary emotions , well they work better.
who can every say that passionate lustful sex isn't good.
And lately I'm not the only one
I say never trust anyone
Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around
The trick is to keep breathing
I can't even listen to this cd with out wanting to dace for everyone and turn people on. and I'll be honest I don't care what any of you think about me for this, but sex is one powerful thing and it makes me feel powerful. Go ahead with all that love nonsense and see where it leads you. I'll tell you. it leads no-where.
I want to touch you and hug you, lick you, touch you. does reading this make you feel uncomfortable? good it should. I want you to squirm. I want you to wonder, to guess what could happen. I want you to be scared of what I could do to you and what you want to do to me. I know that I'm not just any girl and I know that I'm not that girl. I'm picky about who I am with and I want you. I know that you aren't reading this and I still write to you. I still feel power knowing that i think like this about you and that maybe one day you will read this. touch is such an empowering thing. someones breath on the back of you neck. don't say that it doesn't do a thing for you because everyone knows it does. fingers dragging up your back. tickling your spine, making you think. fingers across your stomach. the tickle the feel the caress, the hunger the longing. good lord I wonder how I ever make it. I don't care. I really don't any more and maybe I shouldn't let people know these kinda things but guess what I don't care if they know.
" lord knows I try to be good, I'd keep my promises if only i could"
when I'm not sure what I'm living for...........
now I'm listening to mogwai again.... yea I know I've been listening to them alot well fuck you I can if I want to....
and I can drink as much as I want to and so forth.....
if I make light brigade I want to rent a hotel room down there every now and then and get lots of yuengling because it's cheep there and I love it. me and michael would have a blast like when we were in dayton but not really and hanging out and watching iron chef. remember michael?? huh do ya???
he doesn't even read this. but goodness that was good times. I really don't want to go outside to smoke a butt I know I should. my parents shouldn't have to deal with the smell of my nasty ass habit in there house.I have an interview again this thursday. that means I can't go out on Wednesday lets hope I keep to that. I guess we will see. I really don't want the job at this place. it seems a little too by the book. as a massage therapist it's really hard to stay by the books and still be successful, but I guess it can be done. any one want a massage at half price let me know. 35 $ for an hour.... if I know you I'll come to your house. I swear. just 35$, that's super cheap since in alot of places they are charging 80- 100 $ an hour in N.J. out of state like N.Y. it's even more. and let me tell you, not to brag or anything but I fucking rock at massage. I really do. on one of my feed back forms I got the comment that I brought my " A GAME" really how much better can you get.
I guess I'll go for now I wish I could paint right now, but I'm guessing that I'll go down stairs and eat something and go to bed. oh well....
peace out bitches.
I went to the bar ( surprise ) and am feeling fab. drinking a beer and happy. wow that's somthing new. maybe it's becasue I felt real feelings the other night or maybe just because I felt something. I wish it was the 60's and free love was accepted instead of guys being pimps and players and girls being sluts and whores.
I'm listening to garbage and some of the songs on this cd make me feel..... well i guess for lack of a better word horney. aol keeps loosing it's connection on the other computer.grrrrr....maybe I want to talk to someone. ok so everyone is asleep at 1:05, but I can leave messages. and I think that it's funny to do so. ummm.... in 9 days I graduate, I still haven't heard anything from light brigade. hopefully soon. ummm.... I'm leaving a note on butches door tomorrow to see if he want's to hang out on sat. night. not to late of course since I have metuchen. god after the talk I had with Kasey and Michelle I wonder why me and Kasey waste our time. I get so frustrated some times. why can't they just take our advice and go with it. huh?? and why does that staff have to be such cock asses???
You should be sleeping my lover
Tell me what you're dreaming of
I knew you were mine for the taking
I knew you were mine for the taking
Knew you were mine for the taking
When I walked in the room
I knew you were mine for the taking
I knew you were mine for the taking
Your eyes light up
When I walk in the room
sometimes that's how I feel and thank goodness I do or else i'd feel so worthless. as a matter of fact thats how I felt tonight and hopefully the next few nights. I love this sexual feeling. I just feel so good. hmmmm.......amazing sometimes even.
I got you crawling up a mountain
Hanging round my neck
I got you twisted round my finger
Crawling round my legs
The emptiness
The craziness
Satisfy this hungriness
Darling
How would it feel?
If we sleep together
Will you like me better
If we come together
We'll go down forever
If we sleep together
Will I like you better
If we come together
Prove it now or never
Make me a pretty person
Make me feel like I belong
Make me hard and make me happy
Make me beautiful
The emptiness
The craziness
Satisfy this hungriness
Darling
How would it feel?
If we sleep together
Will you like me better
If we come together
We'll go down forever
If we sleep together
Will I like you better
If we come together
Prove it now or never
If we sleep together
Nothing satisfies me baby
If we sleep together
I'll wear something pretty baby
If we sleep together
Give me what I crave now baby
If we sleep together
Save the rest for later baby
If we sleep together
You will drive me crazy baby
If we sleep together
I save it all for you my baby
If we sleep together
If we sleep together
hmmmmmmm...........sex. hmmmmmmmmmmm........lust. just one night and I can make you mine I know it. a few drinks between the two of use and you'd be lost inside my world. you won't know what to think or how to act where to be at whatever time you were supposed to be there. time means nothing. I have you by my side and control of the next things you do and the next thing you touch.
I wish people wouldn't see sex as such a bad thing. sex is such a passionate thing. there doesn't have to be love involved everytime. love and sex, yeah they go well together but sex and lust and temporary emotions , well they work better.
who can every say that passionate lustful sex isn't good.
And lately I'm not the only one
I say never trust anyone
Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around
The trick is to keep breathing
I can't even listen to this cd with out wanting to dace for everyone and turn people on. and I'll be honest I don't care what any of you think about me for this, but sex is one powerful thing and it makes me feel powerful. Go ahead with all that love nonsense and see where it leads you. I'll tell you. it leads no-where.
I want to touch you and hug you, lick you, touch you. does reading this make you feel uncomfortable? good it should. I want you to squirm. I want you to wonder, to guess what could happen. I want you to be scared of what I could do to you and what you want to do to me. I know that I'm not just any girl and I know that I'm not that girl. I'm picky about who I am with and I want you. I know that you aren't reading this and I still write to you. I still feel power knowing that i think like this about you and that maybe one day you will read this. touch is such an empowering thing. someones breath on the back of you neck. don't say that it doesn't do a thing for you because everyone knows it does. fingers dragging up your back. tickling your spine, making you think. fingers across your stomach. the tickle the feel the caress, the hunger the longing. good lord I wonder how I ever make it. I don't care. I really don't any more and maybe I shouldn't let people know these kinda things but guess what I don't care if they know.
" lord knows I try to be good, I'd keep my promises if only i could"
when I'm not sure what I'm living for...........
now I'm listening to mogwai again.... yea I know I've been listening to them alot well fuck you I can if I want to....
and I can drink as much as I want to and so forth.....
if I make light brigade I want to rent a hotel room down there every now and then and get lots of yuengling because it's cheep there and I love it. me and michael would have a blast like when we were in dayton but not really and hanging out and watching iron chef. remember michael?? huh do ya???
he doesn't even read this. but goodness that was good times. I really don't want to go outside to smoke a butt I know I should. my parents shouldn't have to deal with the smell of my nasty ass habit in there house.I have an interview again this thursday. that means I can't go out on Wednesday lets hope I keep to that. I guess we will see. I really don't want the job at this place. it seems a little too by the book. as a massage therapist it's really hard to stay by the books and still be successful, but I guess it can be done. any one want a massage at half price let me know. 35 $ for an hour.... if I know you I'll come to your house. I swear. just 35$, that's super cheap since in alot of places they are charging 80- 100 $ an hour in N.J. out of state like N.Y. it's even more. and let me tell you, not to brag or anything but I fucking rock at massage. I really do. on one of my feed back forms I got the comment that I brought my " A GAME" really how much better can you get.
I guess I'll go for now I wish I could paint right now, but I'm guessing that I'll go down stairs and eat something and go to bed. oh well....
peace out bitches.