Confessions Of A Drama Queen
Last week sucked, and I have to say this week wasn't much better. School is just AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! There are no words to even describe it. I had a paper due Monday, one due Thursday, and another due Friday. I ended up staying up really late on Wednesday, finishing up my paper. So when I came home on Thursday, I was completely exhausted. I decided to at least start the paper I had due on Friday because Supernatural was on that day. So I start my paper, and then I decide to go take a nap for awhile. Then I figured I could do some more of my paper when I got up, watch my shows, and then finish up. Well life had other plans. My sister decides to come over. She came over right after I had fallen asleep. Well anyways, she goes in the room adjacent to mine where there is a radio. She proceeds to turn the music up full volume, bass pumping. I instantly woke up. Not to mention, she has horrible taste in music. No offense to any rap fans, but I pretty much despise rap. So I go in the room, and I'm like, "Um do you mind? I'm trying to take a nap. Could you at least lower that a bit?" She gives me a disgusted look, and lowers it about two notches. I go back in the room and it is no use, the bass is pumping away. I go downstairs hoping to escape it, but I could still hear it. I said forget it and went back to work on the paper. I ended up going to bed really late yesterday too, because the paper took longer than I thought. I feel like I am basically running on fumes lately.
The worst thing that happened this week involved my Writing class. The Writing teacher wanted a reworked thesis for our major paper we have due this Monday. Well anyway the dipshit decides to go around the room and have everyone recite their thesis. So I tell him mine, and he still insists that "there is just not enough of a paper there." So then he puts me on the spot, asking me why I think this will make a good paper, and I tell him. All the while, my face is probably turning red from the sheer embarrassment of it all. Then the little bastard classmate behind me is snickering. SNICKERING! I wanted to turn around and beat the living crap out of him. So finally the teacher tells me I should maybe consider thinking of a new topic all together. I'm like WTFever. I felt like crying. I HATE him so bad. HATE HATE HATE!!! To top it all off, this weekend is going to totally suck too. Tomorrow I have to get said paper done because Sunday I am babysitting for my sister all day. There is no way I can work on a paper while watching my three year old niece. So this weekend is pretty much a non event. Then this week I doubt will be much of an improvement, since it is Midterm week. I have to go see some stupid Shakespeare play on Wednesday too, and write a paper that is due the next day on it. I can't stand my Shakespeare teacher either. She also has another paper due the day after Halloween. I can't believe this shit. I am obviously going to have to try to finish that next weekend because I am taking my niece Trick Or Treating. Only problem is though, how will I get it done? My sister wants me to babysit next Saturday because she is going to a Halloween party. Since I promised her, I can't tell her that I am not going to do it. I know whoever is reading this must be saying, Damn all this girl does is complain and I really can't blame you lol. I can't help it though. I am counting down the days until Veteran's Day when I have another three day weekend, and I can't wait until this semester is over.
Now here's the part where I talk Supernatural because it just wouldn't be a journal entry with no mention of Supernatural, right?
I have to say, this episode wasn't one of my favorites. I think I might have built it up a little too much in my mind. Sometimes when you do that, you set yourself up for disappointment. Now here is the description of the episode that was given:
SAM IS INJURED: Dean and Sam investigate the murder of a college student (guest star Summer Glau) who has come back from the dead seeking revenge on those who mistreated her while she was alive. Upon confrontation, the ghost savagely attacks Sam, leaving him injured. While in town, the brothers visit their mother's grave to pass along something from their father (Jeffrey Dean Morgan's). Source: The CW
Now given that description, one would think that Sam's injury would play a significant role in the episode. I was honestly hoping it would. I was eager to see some Protective Dean and Hurt Sam. I thought maybe Dean would be pretty upset if Sam got hurt, and it would bring Sam and Dean together after all the tension between them in the last few episodes. However, I would hardly consider a zombie pushing Sam down, being savagely attacked. They didn't even show him get his cast on. That's the CW for you. They have the wrong actress listed in the role too. Apparently she is in another upcoming episode.
During the previously sequence there was no song. I am so used to there being a song that I really missed it. Although I did like how they showed Dean saying, “I swear the next person asks me if I’m okay, I’m going to start throwing punches." Then they cut to him hitting Sam. I thought that was a nice touch lol.
I thought it was kind of strange as well, that the corpse didn’t have a mark on it. Wouldn't she have some kind of injuries to her face? With the way she looked after the accident, I thought she would. Another thing was too, the joking around stuff seemed out of place in this episode. It just seemed sort of off, I don't know. Maybe because Sam was really saying anything back at Dean either. I guess I like when they kid each other back and forth.
The episode did have its moments. I liked the part in the car, when Sam told Dean that he could go to the roadhouse. Then Dean said, “Right. Stuck with those people, making awkward small talk until you show up. No thanks.” I thought that was so sweet, bcause it was like Dean was saying he only truly feels comfortable talking to Sam. Sam and Dean are all each other have.
Sam’s, "I love you mom" broke me. That moment alone made the episode worth it. I was crying, and my heart just broke for him. He didn't even know his mother, but he still loves her so much.
I also liked in the motel room when Sam said this to Dean, “You want to take another swing. Go ahead if it will make you feel better.” Sam is willing to let Dean get out his feelings even if it means he gets hurt. Now that's what I call love.
I had read spoilers for the episode (of course). I remember when Dean said this in the script, "What’s dead should stay dead.” I thought he meant John too, but at the same time I wondered if he meant himself as well. It's so terrible that Dean has that tremendous guilt, feeling as if he has no right to be alive.
I really loved this whole part:
Sam: Dean I don’t scare easy, but man, you’re scaring the crap out of me. You’re lucky this turned out to be a real case, because if it wasn’t you would have just found something else to kill. You’re on edge. You’re erratic, except for when you’re hunting because then you’re downright scary. You’re tail spinning man and you refuse to talk about it and you won’t let me help you.
Dean: I can handle this myself.
Sam: No you can’t and you’re the only one who thinks you should have to. You don’t have to handle this on you’re own. No one can. Please Dean, it’s killing you. We’ve all ready lost dad. We’ve lost mom. I’ve lost Jessica. Now I’m gonna lose you too?
Dean: I hear you okay. I’m being an ass, and I’m sorry but right now we got a freaking zombie running around and we have to figure out how to kill it.
Sam: (laughs)
Dean: Right?
Sam: Our lives are weird man.
Dean: You’re telling me.
I just loved how concerned Sam is for Dean and how worried he is that he might lose Dean. I loved that little smile Sam did too when he said that their lives are weird. He showed his dimples. I just love his dimples. I have to say though, I am not really liking his new haircut. Sam has the whole puppy dog look down and his hair just completed the package. I like his hair in his eyes. This look right here Now that's the Sam I know and love. Ignore those people telling you need a haircut Jared, grow your hair long again because I LOVE your hair. I don't care if it has little wings on the side. It makes you that much more endearing to me. Sigh
I have to give props to Jared on his acting tonight. Jensen of course was amazing too, but Jared was probably in pain. Something about Jared’s face in the motel room scene where they are discussing ways to kill Angela, looked pained.
When Dean said this, I died laughing: Neil it’s you’re grief counselors we’ve come to hug. HA! Kripke is just teasing us with that hug, I know it.
The ending ABSOLUTELY killed me. This part was also the saving grace for the episode:
Sam: Dean what is it?
Dean: I’m sorry.
Sam: For what?
Dean: The way I’ve been acting.(Pause) And for dad. He was your dad too, and it’s my fault that he’s gone.
Sam: What are you talking about?
Dean: I know you’ve been thinking about it, so have I. It doesn’t take a genius to figure it out. I mean, back at the hospital I made a full recovery. It was a miracle. Then five minutes later, dad’s dead and the colt is gone.
Sam: Dean…
Dean: You can’t tell me that there’s not a connection. I don’t know how the demon was involved. I don’t know how the whole thing went down exactly, but dad’s dead because of me and that much I do know.
Sam: We don’t know that, not for sure.
Dean. Sam, you and dad. You’re the most important people in my life. And now, I never should have came back Sam. It wasn’t natural and now look what’s come of it. I was dead, and I should have stayed dead. You wanted to know how I was feeling, well that’s it. So tell me, what could you possibly say to make that right?
OMG! Poor Dean! Poor Sam! The way Dean bared his soul like that was just so heartbreaking. Sam had tears in his eyes, and I could tell he was feeling guilty. It was like he was thinking that he tried so hard to get Dean to express his feelings over their father and now that he did, he found out Dean was feeling far more than he ever imagined. I think Sam not saying anything was his way of acknowledging that he understands that he can't say anything to make it better. I couldn't help yelling at the TV again, Now hug damn it! LOL. I noticed an awesome contrast at that part too. At the other part in the episode, Dean's apology to Sam didn't seem that sincere. It was like he was saying it for the sake of it. However, when he said it at that part, you could just see that he completely meant it. I am hoping that the way Dean said that John was Sam's father too that it was an indication that Sam is not demonspawn.
I am looking forward to next week's though. I have so much love for Psychic!Sammy. :)
The worst thing that happened this week involved my Writing class. The Writing teacher wanted a reworked thesis for our major paper we have due this Monday. Well anyway the dipshit decides to go around the room and have everyone recite their thesis. So I tell him mine, and he still insists that "there is just not enough of a paper there." So then he puts me on the spot, asking me why I think this will make a good paper, and I tell him. All the while, my face is probably turning red from the sheer embarrassment of it all. Then the little bastard classmate behind me is snickering. SNICKERING! I wanted to turn around and beat the living crap out of him. So finally the teacher tells me I should maybe consider thinking of a new topic all together. I'm like WTFever. I felt like crying. I HATE him so bad. HATE HATE HATE!!! To top it all off, this weekend is going to totally suck too. Tomorrow I have to get said paper done because Sunday I am babysitting for my sister all day. There is no way I can work on a paper while watching my three year old niece. So this weekend is pretty much a non event. Then this week I doubt will be much of an improvement, since it is Midterm week. I have to go see some stupid Shakespeare play on Wednesday too, and write a paper that is due the next day on it. I can't stand my Shakespeare teacher either. She also has another paper due the day after Halloween. I can't believe this shit. I am obviously going to have to try to finish that next weekend because I am taking my niece Trick Or Treating. Only problem is though, how will I get it done? My sister wants me to babysit next Saturday because she is going to a Halloween party. Since I promised her, I can't tell her that I am not going to do it. I know whoever is reading this must be saying, Damn all this girl does is complain and I really can't blame you lol. I can't help it though. I am counting down the days until Veteran's Day when I have another three day weekend, and I can't wait until this semester is over.
Now here's the part where I talk Supernatural because it just wouldn't be a journal entry with no mention of Supernatural, right?
I have to say, this episode wasn't one of my favorites. I think I might have built it up a little too much in my mind. Sometimes when you do that, you set yourself up for disappointment. Now here is the description of the episode that was given:
SAM IS INJURED: Dean and Sam investigate the murder of a college student (guest star Summer Glau) who has come back from the dead seeking revenge on those who mistreated her while she was alive. Upon confrontation, the ghost savagely attacks Sam, leaving him injured. While in town, the brothers visit their mother's grave to pass along something from their father (Jeffrey Dean Morgan's). Source: The CW
Now given that description, one would think that Sam's injury would play a significant role in the episode. I was honestly hoping it would. I was eager to see some Protective Dean and Hurt Sam. I thought maybe Dean would be pretty upset if Sam got hurt, and it would bring Sam and Dean together after all the tension between them in the last few episodes. However, I would hardly consider a zombie pushing Sam down, being savagely attacked. They didn't even show him get his cast on. That's the CW for you. They have the wrong actress listed in the role too. Apparently she is in another upcoming episode.
During the previously sequence there was no song. I am so used to there being a song that I really missed it. Although I did like how they showed Dean saying, “I swear the next person asks me if I’m okay, I’m going to start throwing punches." Then they cut to him hitting Sam. I thought that was a nice touch lol.
I thought it was kind of strange as well, that the corpse didn’t have a mark on it. Wouldn't she have some kind of injuries to her face? With the way she looked after the accident, I thought she would. Another thing was too, the joking around stuff seemed out of place in this episode. It just seemed sort of off, I don't know. Maybe because Sam was really saying anything back at Dean either. I guess I like when they kid each other back and forth.
The episode did have its moments. I liked the part in the car, when Sam told Dean that he could go to the roadhouse. Then Dean said, “Right. Stuck with those people, making awkward small talk until you show up. No thanks.” I thought that was so sweet, bcause it was like Dean was saying he only truly feels comfortable talking to Sam. Sam and Dean are all each other have.
Sam’s, "I love you mom" broke me. That moment alone made the episode worth it. I was crying, and my heart just broke for him. He didn't even know his mother, but he still loves her so much.
I also liked in the motel room when Sam said this to Dean, “You want to take another swing. Go ahead if it will make you feel better.” Sam is willing to let Dean get out his feelings even if it means he gets hurt. Now that's what I call love.
I had read spoilers for the episode (of course). I remember when Dean said this in the script, "What’s dead should stay dead.” I thought he meant John too, but at the same time I wondered if he meant himself as well. It's so terrible that Dean has that tremendous guilt, feeling as if he has no right to be alive.
I really loved this whole part:
Sam: Dean I don’t scare easy, but man, you’re scaring the crap out of me. You’re lucky this turned out to be a real case, because if it wasn’t you would have just found something else to kill. You’re on edge. You’re erratic, except for when you’re hunting because then you’re downright scary. You’re tail spinning man and you refuse to talk about it and you won’t let me help you.
Dean: I can handle this myself.
Sam: No you can’t and you’re the only one who thinks you should have to. You don’t have to handle this on you’re own. No one can. Please Dean, it’s killing you. We’ve all ready lost dad. We’ve lost mom. I’ve lost Jessica. Now I’m gonna lose you too?
Dean: I hear you okay. I’m being an ass, and I’m sorry but right now we got a freaking zombie running around and we have to figure out how to kill it.
Sam: (laughs)
Dean: Right?
Sam: Our lives are weird man.
Dean: You’re telling me.
I just loved how concerned Sam is for Dean and how worried he is that he might lose Dean. I loved that little smile Sam did too when he said that their lives are weird. He showed his dimples. I just love his dimples. I have to say though, I am not really liking his new haircut. Sam has the whole puppy dog look down and his hair just completed the package. I like his hair in his eyes. This look right here Now that's the Sam I know and love. Ignore those people telling you need a haircut Jared, grow your hair long again because I LOVE your hair. I don't care if it has little wings on the side. It makes you that much more endearing to me. Sigh
I have to give props to Jared on his acting tonight. Jensen of course was amazing too, but Jared was probably in pain. Something about Jared’s face in the motel room scene where they are discussing ways to kill Angela, looked pained.
When Dean said this, I died laughing: Neil it’s you’re grief counselors we’ve come to hug. HA! Kripke is just teasing us with that hug, I know it.
The ending ABSOLUTELY killed me. This part was also the saving grace for the episode:
Sam: Dean what is it?
Dean: I’m sorry.
Sam: For what?
Dean: The way I’ve been acting.(Pause) And for dad. He was your dad too, and it’s my fault that he’s gone.
Sam: What are you talking about?
Dean: I know you’ve been thinking about it, so have I. It doesn’t take a genius to figure it out. I mean, back at the hospital I made a full recovery. It was a miracle. Then five minutes later, dad’s dead and the colt is gone.
Sam: Dean…
Dean: You can’t tell me that there’s not a connection. I don’t know how the demon was involved. I don’t know how the whole thing went down exactly, but dad’s dead because of me and that much I do know.
Sam: We don’t know that, not for sure.
Dean. Sam, you and dad. You’re the most important people in my life. And now, I never should have came back Sam. It wasn’t natural and now look what’s come of it. I was dead, and I should have stayed dead. You wanted to know how I was feeling, well that’s it. So tell me, what could you possibly say to make that right?
OMG! Poor Dean! Poor Sam! The way Dean bared his soul like that was just so heartbreaking. Sam had tears in his eyes, and I could tell he was feeling guilty. It was like he was thinking that he tried so hard to get Dean to express his feelings over their father and now that he did, he found out Dean was feeling far more than he ever imagined. I think Sam not saying anything was his way of acknowledging that he understands that he can't say anything to make it better. I couldn't help yelling at the TV again, Now hug damn it! LOL. I noticed an awesome contrast at that part too. At the other part in the episode, Dean's apology to Sam didn't seem that sincere. It was like he was saying it for the sake of it. However, when he said it at that part, you could just see that he completely meant it. I am hoping that the way Dean said that John was Sam's father too that it was an indication that Sam is not demonspawn.
I am looking forward to next week's though. I have so much love for Psychic!Sammy. :)