Dec 23, 2004 23:57
tonight was pretty good.
i just dont know anymore..today was hard already..but i just feel like there is a huge part of me missing. part is my aunt margie, and part is my grandpa, and the rest..i cant put my finger on. but i know theres more. i just wish i had something..or someone..just to fill the emptyness. that would make my life so much better right about now. why cant i be excited for christmas? why wasnt i excited for my birthday? i dont get it. well i didnt get it..but now i do. theres something missing in my life. i just need something..
im weak..its true. cause im afraid to know the answer. do you want me to? ..cause my heart keeps falling faster..