across the forbidden crimson stream

[ibecomedust]

new trimester, new environment to push through
its just like i always do.

one year ago last week neoka broke my heart. the shards still litter my floor.
bruised and weak, ripped apart. i cant love anybody anymore.

im back in this cold black hole. imaginary to all of you,
but far too real for me to deal with.
all i want is for her to never feel the way i do.
if i could change the world thats the first thing i would do.

i feel the same way i did a year ago today.
i never needed my wrists anyway.