Graduation and Heartache
Graduation was so much fun! Thought I would cry the whole time, but instead laughed! I was supposed to be the 4th person up, but instead Elaine gave me the name that was on the empty seat next to her and I switched and was like the 6th or 7th person up. Those grumpy women besides me was like you can’t move, what makes you think you can move, ( Read more... )
We are gonna get together sometime before I head up to DC and China. Maybe You'd even like to come with us? More than likely, it will be me and Sara. We are gonna go up on the 13th at like 6am and that way I can re-check my tickets and get my seat arrangements and then we can spend the rest of the day in downtown DC. I have to be at the airport at 4:30am the next day, though. LOL. But that would give ya'll some time to look around and stuff. Have to talk to Sara about that though. Will keep ya updated. haha. It'd give us a grand opportunity to chat about life and all that jazz.
And you said "why can't I have something to bring me happiness..." Perhaps it is b/c that you won't allow yourself that happiness and its a self-perpetuating, self-fulfilling cycle. Change your mindset, change the outcome. I can believe you lost Dave. He really liked you...a lot...but he didn't deserve to be treated like a gay puppy dog. You knew this, and this WAS a defense mechanism for you. I understand, and I think that he even understood it to a point. I think he was very patient with you. But the fact was that he DID like you, and if you really, really like him, then you would change the way you treat him as a sideliner and make him the main dish, since he IS very dishy anyways.
And speaking of lil' brother, I didn't find him very warm and receptive and friendly at the graduation. Of course, I guess I could say the same about T&B. But I guess we can discuss those when we all get together again. LOL.
Love ya, Miss Becks and I'm praying for ya, that you will find your place under the stars. :-) You can holla at me anytime here if you need to chat...my number is 431-4610.
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I'd love to go to DC with you and Sara. I could use another Road Trip, that last one really helped me. Wish Andy Drew would give me another chance, but he's just so stubborn. Lil' Brother didn't even bother to find me at Graduation, but I didn't really care cause all I was thinking about was Andy Drew.
Love Ya Jen!
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