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So Victoria paid for my ticket and drove us up to Gainesville to party and see slightly stoopid in concert. I got blackout drunk and passed out throwing up in the back corner of the venue. Pretty gnar.
Wasn't right the next day. Totally burnt out. Got home, assembled my new guitar parts and chilled out. Today is supposed to be my birthday party, but fuck that. I'm not in any mood to drink any sort of poison tonight. But my main point of this entry:
Just when you think you have a feel for someone, they reconfirm your original biases. I do it to others, others do it to me.
I know when I smoke I can get "braindead" syndrome. I'm really not retarded, just introverted. Marijuana does tend to make me more antisocial than I typically am, but that's because I don't have a care in the world when I'm feeling that great.
That, and my thoughts are preoccupied. After this many months, is it unhealthy for me to still be reeling? I'm yet to get back to feeling normal-- just within myself. I wasn't ever sure how much time I would need, but I don't know if I'll ever be right again. I want to believe I will be.. that my situation will change, that my mindset will change, and that my perception of myself will heal.
Wasn't right the next day. Totally burnt out. Got home, assembled my new guitar parts and chilled out. Today is supposed to be my birthday party, but fuck that. I'm not in any mood to drink any sort of poison tonight. But my main point of this entry:
Just when you think you have a feel for someone, they reconfirm your original biases. I do it to others, others do it to me.
I know when I smoke I can get "braindead" syndrome. I'm really not retarded, just introverted. Marijuana does tend to make me more antisocial than I typically am, but that's because I don't have a care in the world when I'm feeling that great.
That, and my thoughts are preoccupied. After this many months, is it unhealthy for me to still be reeling? I'm yet to get back to feeling normal-- just within myself. I wasn't ever sure how much time I would need, but I don't know if I'll ever be right again. I want to believe I will be.. that my situation will change, that my mindset will change, and that my perception of myself will heal.