fuck me, right?

Jun 26, 2009 16:59

i have never felt so betrayed in my life.
fabian breaking my heart, that was NOTHING. this, this is the worst thing in the world. this is proof that money is the ugliest thing in the world.

well here's todays lesson:
veronica, you just aren't very important. you don't mean ANYTHING anymore, you used to, but not anymore.

going to Colorado was supposed to be about us. about how our FRIENDSHIP is unique and how we can be friends forever, well i guess i was just being immature, huh. i guess everyone is right about friendships, they don't last, no matter how badly you want them to.

we are deteriorating because of money, cant you see that heather. is just going to colorado really more important than our friendship, heather? well i guess you've already answered that. you know, i might have left you because i was going through something, but i came back! i came back to my senses, i came back to reality. i thought we were more important than anything that stupid book could give me. tell me how you see your life in colorado, now that i'm no longer a part of it, because you've must have given it some thought. what i don't understand is, if you think we are barely making it here, money divided by 4, how are you going to do it alone? or with michael or whoever. you do understand that the US is going through a recession right? do you honestly think you can make it alone in a new place, knowing nobody and with higher living costs?

who are you? i don't even recognize you anymore. i feel like i don't know you. what are you becoming? do you really think being selfish is going to make you happy? if you think so, then do it. you can rob me of my happiness but i wont rob you of yours.

all i can say is i'll miss you, i already do, because what made you, you has disappeared. and now you are starting to feel like a stranger. i hope our friendship can survive this, i really do. i just don't know how to fix this.

patience is a virtue, they say that for a reason. you can't just jump into something unless you are extremely lucky. are you?
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