REJECTION.

[iashissick]

You know what TOTALLY BLOWS about rejection? That no matter how hard you try, you aren't good enough. That somewhere inside of you, something is just out of place. You don't do enough to bring yourself out there and I always put my feelings out there on the line. I always put myself out there. It's totally stupid of me to do that. Knowing how the world is, knowing how harsh people can be, I've given myself up to those who hurt me the most. I've had several stabs in several places where nobody can even begin to understand. You don't know me. I can promise you that. There are some scars that nobody has been able to fix. Most don't even try to fix them. I admit, I've fallen in love several times. I've been a player in my time, I've been the person to hurt the ones who would have loved me the strongest. I gave up chances with the best people because I was afraid of my own feelings. But nobody has stayed long enough to fix the broken piece inside of me left behind by those who totally discredited my feelings. For once, I'm standing up for myself. No more pathetic people trying to step all over me. No more girls and guys trying to make me the interested one. I know I'm not as pretty as other girls, I know I'm not the most impressive personality wise. But what I have that most other girls don't is a sense of real. I am one of the few girls that will be real with you until the end. I won't deny my feelings for you. But to be honest, I'm not gonna fight anymore. I'm so tired. Emotionally, mentally, physically. This life has wiped out my energy and my optimism is all but gone. You don't understand me. You might never understand me. But just stay out of my way.

-Ashley M.