RelationShits [Part 1]
Title: RelationShits [Part 1]
Author: iarmella
Pairing: YabuYama, YamaChii (for friendship only)
Rating: PG-13
Warning/s: Angst.
Summary: Love is crazy and it lies.Relationships turns our lives into shits.
Author's Note: Requested by heysayjae
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Love is crazy. It can make you do anything when you're caught in it so badly. One time your happy, the next thing you know, you're already crying. No one can tell when it will come and just leave, no one.
I've never given so much thought about real love. I've dated a couple of girls and even boys before, I even take interest on such rare things about love. But never in my entire life, would have I though of witnessing how crazy love can be. The real craziness that few people knows about.
I met Yamada when he transferred to my hometown during our fourth grade in primary school. He's not particularly someone who's tall and cool, he's rather beautiful and cute, like a girl. His smallness and unique beauty is what captured almost everyone's eyes. He had that thin but long dark brown hair, red lips and very pale complexion, that he was called a living doll.
We quickly got close to each other and that was the start of our friendship. That's when I started witnessing his life.
He was bullied at first, by some boys of course but majority liked him. All his bullies scattered away when he got straight A+s, beating me from being the top student of the whole school.
He was really a good friend, he doesn't mind helping me study or practice on the sports I'm not good at since Physical Education is what pulls my grades down. He was like helping me snatch the top one title again. We made a good competition for it of course, and with it, developed the strong bond we have up until now. He's the patient type, whenever I try to teach him my acrobats, he would sometimes fail but I never forget to look at how determined his expression is to learn that stuff. And although he's not so good at it until now, he has the skill already.
He never got mad or anything, whenever someone picks a fight on me, he would talk to that person properly and maybe it's his charm that works whenever all his words are heard upon. I was safe with him.
His family knows me, and I know them well enough too. Yama-chan, is the only son of the family, but I still think that he deserves to be a girl for his appearance, but whatever. His family is, well…very, very powerful. They own the best machines producing company of Japan, his lives with such low profile, but heck with his wealth.
Having that power isn't as simple as that of course, it comes with the condition of having a lot of expectations from him. The treatment his parents gave to him and to his sisters were different, or unfair to be exact. His sisters were allowed to make friends with everyone and their satisfactory grades were enough while him…he was expected to have the most outstanding of all the outstanding grades, and he wasn't allowed out of the house unless he finishes all of his school and extra works. I never had the chance to go out with him for movies, I would always be the one to visit their mansion for the weekend. Security towards him is exaggeratedly strict too, I'm thankful that I don't need to be checked on every time I visit him. He was sick of his life himself…he told me that.
And there was Yabu. Yabu Kota.
We met Yabu-kun on our first year of high school. He was a fresh graduate of our high school division so he was in charge of orienting the new students for being the best student of his batch.
Yama-chan wasn't paying attention to him at all. I remember flailing over Yabu-kun myself, since he's undeniably cool, while Yama-chan kept silent by my side, he was busy familiarizing himself with the new academic building. The days of being high school students started for us, and I already forgot about the handsome Yabu-kun back then.
He still stood as the best student of the batch and nothing much changed. But that was only until that one summer afternoon. It was our summer break but I still needed to settle some school records that's why he kept me company.
"Hi" that was how friendly Yabu-kun was
He greeted us like his close friends and talked to us about high school experiences as we waited for the processing of our papers. I have to admit that Yabu surely knows how to get attention and give attention too.
"You're quite cute, is it okay if I'll get your number?"
How I wish I stopped them that time. How I wish I just gave mine, and interrupted them. I've already noticed that there was something different about the way Yabu was looking at Yama-chan, but I thought it was just my imagination since I'm not an expert to that at all, nor do we know Yabu that much either. And besides, we were talking so casually that it's impossible for us to predict the future.
I've already dated so many already, yet Yama-chan has a flat zero experience to it. He said that he has no time or anything. Yet, just when I thought Yama-chan would only be exposed to relationships once his parents decides for his marriage, his interest on having a relationship suddenly flared off.
I knew he was hiding something from me already, but I never thought he would confess it to me so quickly. I knew it was weird to see him holding his phone almost every minute, and texting someone whom I wasn't sure of who, back then. His bounciness leveled up a little as his smiles radiated brighter than the normal ones.
"Please don't be mad Chii" is how he started it
I looked at him curiously. It wasn't normal for him to break the silence when it's our study time.
"Hm?" I smiled. He stood up from his seat and knelt in front of me with the cutest smile ever.
"I'm dating Yabu-kun!"he blurted out quickly
I nearly ran out of breath for laughing. He just watched me curiously, probably he's oblivious of the fact that his face is as red as a tomato. It has only been a week since we talked to Yabu-kun, yet I thought it was fine, I wanted my best friend to be gain experiences already, like what I was trying to do. But I never knew that that one and only time that I consented Yama-chan, would be the time I've pushed him into carelessness.
And yes, nothing else is ought to happen aside from Yabu-kun being his first official boyfriend. I was enthralled of course, more enthralled than he is. At least his life had a different shade of color aside from just the shades of responsibilities, prestige and studies.
He was blushing so hard when he told me that Yabu kissed him on the lips. His face was pale and he told me he couldn't sleep, it was funny to watch him learn every single thing. We didn't fall apart, but his time was divided of course. Since we've been spending each other's day and school break together for more than twelve years already, I didn't mind about his new priorities already. After all, we're together for thirteen hours a day because if school or whatever, so it wasn't a big deal if we go home separately already.
"You what?" I wouldn't deny that my face was as red as his' too
He asked me to visit him that Sunday, and I found it weird that he wasn't able to get out of bed when although he wasn't sick. I looked at him with wide eyes, as I scooted closer to him, half of his body was underneath his think blanket while his back was rested on the headboard. He looked tired and worn out, yet his smile was very radiant. He fidgeted a little, but I didn't fail to notice his wince.
"Don't tell anyone!" he hissed at me as I looked at him more intensely when the whole room fell into silence
"I can't believe you're a step ahead of me!" I just joked but he still blushed
He slept with Yabu-kun. They were barely five months together, and it was for Yabu's twentieth birthday, yet I can't say a word to it. Yama-chan is more than three years younger, so he was just about to turn seventeen when they did it…that was when I started having a bad feeling about the relationship.
I thought I was just being paranoid that Yama-chan is already a step ahead, or maybe because I couldn't believe he did that, but one thing I'm sure of…it was wrong for me to not interfere earlier. I just kept silent all throughout as their relationship continued.
Since Yama-chan didn't say a word with the people I dated, I knew I had no right to stop him. It's quite vulgar for me to say, but it seemed like Yabu has used his dominance properly. The time division went worse, I still didn't complain about the time we spent together. But I, more than anyone else, can tell how much their relationship ate up Yama-chan's priorities. Gradually he changed, whenever we’re studying he would always be texting, his grades were still high and hard to achieve yet I became a bit ahead.
People would say I'm degrading myself too much for saying I got ahead of Yama-chan because he slacked off but that's the truth. His butler calls me every night looking for their young master who isn't home yet, and I would always say that he's with me when I don't know where he actually is. I would just call him and he would always be with Yabu-kun, and he will only go home once I say I'd be in trouble because of him.
I didn't want him to worry about me getting into trouble because of him, yet I still needed to do that. Somehow I wanted him to stay as far as possible from Yabu already. I never saw him freshly and prepared for mornings anymore, he always looked tired and I don’t want to hear him saying because he did it over and over again with Yabu, I don’t know how much patience I have for that matter already.
I started realizing how negative love can be. But I thought it was just a part, after all, it was Yama-chan's first time so it's normal for him to not be able to balance or juggle love life with his private life. I really want to believe that, yet it was too late. It wasn't because Yama-chan isn't a good organizer…rather, he isn't a good controller. He was not able to control the situation that it took over his life…taking control of his feelings too. If only I helped him from the start.
I can't call it stupidity. It was craziness.
He's the most important person in the generation. His family is powerful. His family is wealthy. He's the most treasured child. And I'm the one who's stupid to forget about that.
His parents soon found out about his relationship with Yabu-kun. I'm no longer a stranger to them, yet I was sent home when his parents came home. I didn't see Yama-chan for the whole week and I wasn't allowed to see nor contact him either.
When Yabu-kun asked me to meet up with him, I hesitated a little. I didn't want him asking Yama-chan from me since I don't know his whereabouts either. I didn't want to see him at all too. Yet I'm not as rude as that.
"Yama-chan!" I gasped out
My best friend was there, sitting inside Yabu-kun's car.
"What happened to you?"
I nearly cried when I sat beside him. His face was red and he looked like he cried non-stop.
He didn't say a word, instead he wrapped his arms around me and buried his face on my left shoulder. My throat went dry, as I wrapped my hands around him too. When I whispered that everything is going to okay, he started to sob. He always sobbed in front of me before, he has always been suffocated about the things his parents are asking him, yet that sob was different.
"What are you going to do?" I asked him once he calmed down
"I don't want to go home anymore"
"Don't do that Yama-chan, please" I reached out for him
Yet I really was useless. I was not able to do anything.
My parents expect a lot from me too, and I already feel suffocated. They don't ask me to stand out the most, and I have all the leisure time, yet I really feel suffocated. I couldn't imagine being in his position. The pain that I experience because of my family, was nothing compared to his'. His love is too tremendous, that I wasn't able to do anything when Yabu-kun's car drove away. I wanted to stop him, yet I can understand him very well.
That was the biggest mistake ever. It's the mistake that ruined my best friend's life. The greatest mistake.
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A/N: Oh yes...Yes I know! I skipped a lot of requests before this...but yeah, I've been reserving this kind of plot since who knows when...so when this was requested I immediately wrote it XP I'm really sorry for skipping the other requests! But that doesn't mean I'm not going to do them at all XD Just that this was finished first~♥
I hope you guys liked it~♥
The title is quite cute~ deshou? *gets slapped*
Want to request? Request here! Click the link so I can hear you out ^^ i've always wanted to tell you... I got this from ryokimayuu ...I'm quite scared of this~ but yeah, just be honest, please. I'll try to be as brave as possible. ^^ Please try it if you have something to tell me ^^ I'd appreciate it!
Author: iarmella
Pairing: YabuYama, YamaChii (for friendship only)
Rating: PG-13
Warning/s: Angst.
Summary: Love is crazy and it lies.Relationships turns our lives into shits.
Author's Note: Requested by heysayjae
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Love is crazy. It can make you do anything when you're caught in it so badly. One time your happy, the next thing you know, you're already crying. No one can tell when it will come and just leave, no one.
I've never given so much thought about real love. I've dated a couple of girls and even boys before, I even take interest on such rare things about love. But never in my entire life, would have I though of witnessing how crazy love can be. The real craziness that few people knows about.
I met Yamada when he transferred to my hometown during our fourth grade in primary school. He's not particularly someone who's tall and cool, he's rather beautiful and cute, like a girl. His smallness and unique beauty is what captured almost everyone's eyes. He had that thin but long dark brown hair, red lips and very pale complexion, that he was called a living doll.
We quickly got close to each other and that was the start of our friendship. That's when I started witnessing his life.
He was bullied at first, by some boys of course but majority liked him. All his bullies scattered away when he got straight A+s, beating me from being the top student of the whole school.
He was really a good friend, he doesn't mind helping me study or practice on the sports I'm not good at since Physical Education is what pulls my grades down. He was like helping me snatch the top one title again. We made a good competition for it of course, and with it, developed the strong bond we have up until now. He's the patient type, whenever I try to teach him my acrobats, he would sometimes fail but I never forget to look at how determined his expression is to learn that stuff. And although he's not so good at it until now, he has the skill already.
He never got mad or anything, whenever someone picks a fight on me, he would talk to that person properly and maybe it's his charm that works whenever all his words are heard upon. I was safe with him.
His family knows me, and I know them well enough too. Yama-chan, is the only son of the family, but I still think that he deserves to be a girl for his appearance, but whatever. His family is, well…very, very powerful. They own the best machines producing company of Japan, his lives with such low profile, but heck with his wealth.
Having that power isn't as simple as that of course, it comes with the condition of having a lot of expectations from him. The treatment his parents gave to him and to his sisters were different, or unfair to be exact. His sisters were allowed to make friends with everyone and their satisfactory grades were enough while him…he was expected to have the most outstanding of all the outstanding grades, and he wasn't allowed out of the house unless he finishes all of his school and extra works. I never had the chance to go out with him for movies, I would always be the one to visit their mansion for the weekend. Security towards him is exaggeratedly strict too, I'm thankful that I don't need to be checked on every time I visit him. He was sick of his life himself…he told me that.
And there was Yabu. Yabu Kota.
We met Yabu-kun on our first year of high school. He was a fresh graduate of our high school division so he was in charge of orienting the new students for being the best student of his batch.
Yama-chan wasn't paying attention to him at all. I remember flailing over Yabu-kun myself, since he's undeniably cool, while Yama-chan kept silent by my side, he was busy familiarizing himself with the new academic building. The days of being high school students started for us, and I already forgot about the handsome Yabu-kun back then.
He still stood as the best student of the batch and nothing much changed. But that was only until that one summer afternoon. It was our summer break but I still needed to settle some school records that's why he kept me company.
"Hi" that was how friendly Yabu-kun was
He greeted us like his close friends and talked to us about high school experiences as we waited for the processing of our papers. I have to admit that Yabu surely knows how to get attention and give attention too.
"You're quite cute, is it okay if I'll get your number?"
How I wish I stopped them that time. How I wish I just gave mine, and interrupted them. I've already noticed that there was something different about the way Yabu was looking at Yama-chan, but I thought it was just my imagination since I'm not an expert to that at all, nor do we know Yabu that much either. And besides, we were talking so casually that it's impossible for us to predict the future.
I've already dated so many already, yet Yama-chan has a flat zero experience to it. He said that he has no time or anything. Yet, just when I thought Yama-chan would only be exposed to relationships once his parents decides for his marriage, his interest on having a relationship suddenly flared off.
I knew he was hiding something from me already, but I never thought he would confess it to me so quickly. I knew it was weird to see him holding his phone almost every minute, and texting someone whom I wasn't sure of who, back then. His bounciness leveled up a little as his smiles radiated brighter than the normal ones.
"Please don't be mad Chii" is how he started it
I looked at him curiously. It wasn't normal for him to break the silence when it's our study time.
"Hm?" I smiled. He stood up from his seat and knelt in front of me with the cutest smile ever.
"I'm dating Yabu-kun!"he blurted out quickly
I nearly ran out of breath for laughing. He just watched me curiously, probably he's oblivious of the fact that his face is as red as a tomato. It has only been a week since we talked to Yabu-kun, yet I thought it was fine, I wanted my best friend to be gain experiences already, like what I was trying to do. But I never knew that that one and only time that I consented Yama-chan, would be the time I've pushed him into carelessness.
And yes, nothing else is ought to happen aside from Yabu-kun being his first official boyfriend. I was enthralled of course, more enthralled than he is. At least his life had a different shade of color aside from just the shades of responsibilities, prestige and studies.
He was blushing so hard when he told me that Yabu kissed him on the lips. His face was pale and he told me he couldn't sleep, it was funny to watch him learn every single thing. We didn't fall apart, but his time was divided of course. Since we've been spending each other's day and school break together for more than twelve years already, I didn't mind about his new priorities already. After all, we're together for thirteen hours a day because if school or whatever, so it wasn't a big deal if we go home separately already.
"You what?" I wouldn't deny that my face was as red as his' too
He asked me to visit him that Sunday, and I found it weird that he wasn't able to get out of bed when although he wasn't sick. I looked at him with wide eyes, as I scooted closer to him, half of his body was underneath his think blanket while his back was rested on the headboard. He looked tired and worn out, yet his smile was very radiant. He fidgeted a little, but I didn't fail to notice his wince.
"Don't tell anyone!" he hissed at me as I looked at him more intensely when the whole room fell into silence
"I can't believe you're a step ahead of me!" I just joked but he still blushed
He slept with Yabu-kun. They were barely five months together, and it was for Yabu's twentieth birthday, yet I can't say a word to it. Yama-chan is more than three years younger, so he was just about to turn seventeen when they did it…that was when I started having a bad feeling about the relationship.
I thought I was just being paranoid that Yama-chan is already a step ahead, or maybe because I couldn't believe he did that, but one thing I'm sure of…it was wrong for me to not interfere earlier. I just kept silent all throughout as their relationship continued.
Since Yama-chan didn't say a word with the people I dated, I knew I had no right to stop him. It's quite vulgar for me to say, but it seemed like Yabu has used his dominance properly. The time division went worse, I still didn't complain about the time we spent together. But I, more than anyone else, can tell how much their relationship ate up Yama-chan's priorities. Gradually he changed, whenever we’re studying he would always be texting, his grades were still high and hard to achieve yet I became a bit ahead.
People would say I'm degrading myself too much for saying I got ahead of Yama-chan because he slacked off but that's the truth. His butler calls me every night looking for their young master who isn't home yet, and I would always say that he's with me when I don't know where he actually is. I would just call him and he would always be with Yabu-kun, and he will only go home once I say I'd be in trouble because of him.
I didn't want him to worry about me getting into trouble because of him, yet I still needed to do that. Somehow I wanted him to stay as far as possible from Yabu already. I never saw him freshly and prepared for mornings anymore, he always looked tired and I don’t want to hear him saying because he did it over and over again with Yabu, I don’t know how much patience I have for that matter already.
I started realizing how negative love can be. But I thought it was just a part, after all, it was Yama-chan's first time so it's normal for him to not be able to balance or juggle love life with his private life. I really want to believe that, yet it was too late. It wasn't because Yama-chan isn't a good organizer…rather, he isn't a good controller. He was not able to control the situation that it took over his life…taking control of his feelings too. If only I helped him from the start.
I can't call it stupidity. It was craziness.
He's the most important person in the generation. His family is powerful. His family is wealthy. He's the most treasured child. And I'm the one who's stupid to forget about that.
His parents soon found out about his relationship with Yabu-kun. I'm no longer a stranger to them, yet I was sent home when his parents came home. I didn't see Yama-chan for the whole week and I wasn't allowed to see nor contact him either.
When Yabu-kun asked me to meet up with him, I hesitated a little. I didn't want him asking Yama-chan from me since I don't know his whereabouts either. I didn't want to see him at all too. Yet I'm not as rude as that.
"Yama-chan!" I gasped out
My best friend was there, sitting inside Yabu-kun's car.
"What happened to you?"
I nearly cried when I sat beside him. His face was red and he looked like he cried non-stop.
He didn't say a word, instead he wrapped his arms around me and buried his face on my left shoulder. My throat went dry, as I wrapped my hands around him too. When I whispered that everything is going to okay, he started to sob. He always sobbed in front of me before, he has always been suffocated about the things his parents are asking him, yet that sob was different.
"What are you going to do?" I asked him once he calmed down
"I don't want to go home anymore"
"Don't do that Yama-chan, please" I reached out for him
Yet I really was useless. I was not able to do anything.
My parents expect a lot from me too, and I already feel suffocated. They don't ask me to stand out the most, and I have all the leisure time, yet I really feel suffocated. I couldn't imagine being in his position. The pain that I experience because of my family, was nothing compared to his'. His love is too tremendous, that I wasn't able to do anything when Yabu-kun's car drove away. I wanted to stop him, yet I can understand him very well.
That was the biggest mistake ever. It's the mistake that ruined my best friend's life. The greatest mistake.
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A/N: Oh yes...Yes I know! I skipped a lot of requests before this...but yeah, I've been reserving this kind of plot since who knows when...so when this was requested I immediately wrote it XP I'm really sorry for skipping the other requests! But that doesn't mean I'm not going to do them at all XD Just that this was finished first~♥
I hope you guys liked it~♥
The title is quite cute~ deshou? *gets slapped*
Want to request? Request here! Click the link so I can hear you out ^^ i've always wanted to tell you... I got this from ryokimayuu ...I'm quite scared of this~ but yeah, just be honest, please. I'll try to be as brave as possible. ^^ Please try it if you have something to tell me ^^ I'd appreciate it!