Come Back [Takaki's POV]
Title: Come Back [Takaki's POV]
Author: iarmella
Pairing: TaDaiki, TakaYama
Rating: PG
Warning: Nothing.
Author’s Note: Erh. Sorry this took like forever.
Previous Chapters~♥
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POV
Takaki's POV
Being misunderstood by others is really common and I'm not an exception for that.
I always knew that I'm not really the patient type. I can't suffer for myself and definitely not for others. I don't have the initiative to make many friends for I believe that there's always a time where you will have to part with them and the chance of not being able to keep in touch until you forget each other's numbers, faces, and even existence is quite big.
My world only revolves around me and my small family, which I try to keep to myself because whether they like it or not, I'm not really generous enough to share to others what I have…everyone has their own personality so I have my own that maybe only few can appreciate.
..
I was around nine when my mom introduced me my younger brother, an adopted one. And as years go by, I don't know myself how it turned out from being brothers to lovers.
Yes, I love him more than a brother but that was planned to be kept from myself only. I won't want him to part away from me just because I'm doing something unethical to him due to affection. But it was him who told me it's okay even if the world would think us as different people, that it would be okay that I didn't love him….
..
What's mine is mine. And what's others is something I won't really take interest to.
The moment I saw people gathering around Ryosuke, talking to him, and when he started to go home a little late, the weirdest feeling of selfishness crept up on me, I thought at first, I could handle it.
"I'm home" Ryosuke's voice was heard before I heard the main door being closed "Yuya?" he called out
I don't know how I looked like that time but definitely it was scary that I could see Ryo freezing on his spot. And I have to admit, I can never change my nature of hitting someone.
He held on his face with a shocked expression as he faced me again, and I don't know why but I just could feel like that wasn't enough….making me worried and intimidated is a major offense and a slap isn't enough…
A sudden satisfaction struck me as I stopped what I was doing. I looked down to see him on the floor with a terrified expression
"From now on…" I squatted in front of him, a blue bruise visible on his arm "You will never make friends" I finish
And he nodded.
"Yes" I saw tears forming in his eyes and I could only kiss him in the eyes. And push him down the floor.
This is how much I love him. I love him and I'm afraid to lose him. I'm afraid to lose him so I'll have to take care of him even if it meant to be violent.
..
Occasionally, I get into small arguments with Inoo, my cousin, because of the way I handle things, but I could never agree to him because it's just too impossible for me to have the same point of view with him. We're of different existence, different points of view.
The sailing was smooth until someone appeared to our lives, and never in my dreams that time that his existence is what will destroy everything….
I didn't expect for Daiki to fall in love with me, but I purposely allured him. Befriend your enemies.
His body looked amazing, his tongue was nice to feel and it was wonderful to take advantage of his vulnerability. And I didn't think that having sex with him is where everything will start to get connected.
Ryo didn't cry when he lost his mother, I never saw him cry even if his favorite toys when we were little gets broken nor when he injures his self. But it made a great impact to me when I saw his tears when Yabu revealed my secret activity to him. His tears were too hurtful to see that it's already intimidating.
I was afraid of loosing him that I nearly killed him…I drug him to make sure he's not going anywhere and it always worked. But right after his tears showed up, I went to the extent where I'll drug him twice as needed and chained him in my room…
And it was Yuuri, my treasured cousin, and Ryutaro's fault that he escaped from me.
I thought of getting him back but…his real father showed up. It was a shock to know that Daiki is actually Ryo's brother but it was the greatest hindrance since they took him away from me.
…
I changed, is what I got from everyone. And that's what even I thought. Physically, yes.
But the moment I touched Ryosuke again, I realized the selfish and possessive part of me never left. It has always been there, reluctant to leave.
I will never change.
Is what I last told Ryosuke. I wanted him to hate Daiki but it was a failure as I saw him protecting his brother so much. So I chose the other way around.
Daiki is a strong kid, but it just doesn't work on me. I always find him vulnerable so he's the one I planned to use against Ryo. I showed the younger one how much damage I could inflict to his older brother….
I could always use Daiki.
But…
I saw my precious' last breath….and no matter how much I wanted to tell him that I love him, that I can change, he ended up promising to love Daiki.
Daiki is the main reason this all happened.
..
Ryo wouldn't have chosen to die if Daiki didn’t have feelings for me
And probably for the first time, I was keeping my promise.
For the first months, I can't get a way to get Daiki. But in the end, gradually, right just when I thought that Daiki will never ever want to see me again, he told me that we can start over again.
Ryosuke returned my love and showed his' by always coming back to me, no matter what I did he always came back.
Daiki, showed his' for waiting for so long, for enduring everything I did and for coming back to me too, for the first time, I realized….Daiki had gone through so many things because of me, and guilt suddenly crept as he told me start over again. That he can change for me.
That was how much he loved me, and I was able to see it clearly, and it's the love that needs to be returned. After all, Ryosuke sacrificed his self to give him a chance, he died clearing the way for us to start over.
I was afraid to lose Ryosuke that I hurt him.
I'm afraid to lose Daiki that I can do anything for us to just work out…
Now, no matter how much I want to deny it, I just can't because I know myself that there's nowhere I can go back to, than to Daiki. I love him….and I know he loves me.
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A/N: How's it? Sucks? Good? Hm. It's been more than a month since this fic ended and it means it took me that long to actually post this. I almost forgot about it, but was able to see it again when I reread the whole story :D I hope things are clearer now. Haha, I won't be expecting much comments...probably, people have forgotten about this promise XD
Btw, thanks for reading.:P
Author: iarmella
Pairing: TaDaiki, TakaYama
Rating: PG
Warning: Nothing.
Author’s Note: Erh. Sorry this took like forever.
Previous Chapters~♥
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POV
Takaki's POV
Being misunderstood by others is really common and I'm not an exception for that.
I always knew that I'm not really the patient type. I can't suffer for myself and definitely not for others. I don't have the initiative to make many friends for I believe that there's always a time where you will have to part with them and the chance of not being able to keep in touch until you forget each other's numbers, faces, and even existence is quite big.
My world only revolves around me and my small family, which I try to keep to myself because whether they like it or not, I'm not really generous enough to share to others what I have…everyone has their own personality so I have my own that maybe only few can appreciate.
..
I was around nine when my mom introduced me my younger brother, an adopted one. And as years go by, I don't know myself how it turned out from being brothers to lovers.
Yes, I love him more than a brother but that was planned to be kept from myself only. I won't want him to part away from me just because I'm doing something unethical to him due to affection. But it was him who told me it's okay even if the world would think us as different people, that it would be okay that I didn't love him….
..
What's mine is mine. And what's others is something I won't really take interest to.
The moment I saw people gathering around Ryosuke, talking to him, and when he started to go home a little late, the weirdest feeling of selfishness crept up on me, I thought at first, I could handle it.
"I'm home" Ryosuke's voice was heard before I heard the main door being closed "Yuya?" he called out
I don't know how I looked like that time but definitely it was scary that I could see Ryo freezing on his spot. And I have to admit, I can never change my nature of hitting someone.
He held on his face with a shocked expression as he faced me again, and I don't know why but I just could feel like that wasn't enough….making me worried and intimidated is a major offense and a slap isn't enough…
A sudden satisfaction struck me as I stopped what I was doing. I looked down to see him on the floor with a terrified expression
"From now on…" I squatted in front of him, a blue bruise visible on his arm "You will never make friends" I finish
And he nodded.
"Yes" I saw tears forming in his eyes and I could only kiss him in the eyes. And push him down the floor.
This is how much I love him. I love him and I'm afraid to lose him. I'm afraid to lose him so I'll have to take care of him even if it meant to be violent.
..
Occasionally, I get into small arguments with Inoo, my cousin, because of the way I handle things, but I could never agree to him because it's just too impossible for me to have the same point of view with him. We're of different existence, different points of view.
The sailing was smooth until someone appeared to our lives, and never in my dreams that time that his existence is what will destroy everything….
I didn't expect for Daiki to fall in love with me, but I purposely allured him. Befriend your enemies.
His body looked amazing, his tongue was nice to feel and it was wonderful to take advantage of his vulnerability. And I didn't think that having sex with him is where everything will start to get connected.
Ryo didn't cry when he lost his mother, I never saw him cry even if his favorite toys when we were little gets broken nor when he injures his self. But it made a great impact to me when I saw his tears when Yabu revealed my secret activity to him. His tears were too hurtful to see that it's already intimidating.
I was afraid of loosing him that I nearly killed him…I drug him to make sure he's not going anywhere and it always worked. But right after his tears showed up, I went to the extent where I'll drug him twice as needed and chained him in my room…
And it was Yuuri, my treasured cousin, and Ryutaro's fault that he escaped from me.
I thought of getting him back but…his real father showed up. It was a shock to know that Daiki is actually Ryo's brother but it was the greatest hindrance since they took him away from me.
…
I changed, is what I got from everyone. And that's what even I thought. Physically, yes.
But the moment I touched Ryosuke again, I realized the selfish and possessive part of me never left. It has always been there, reluctant to leave.
I will never change.
Is what I last told Ryosuke. I wanted him to hate Daiki but it was a failure as I saw him protecting his brother so much. So I chose the other way around.
Daiki is a strong kid, but it just doesn't work on me. I always find him vulnerable so he's the one I planned to use against Ryo. I showed the younger one how much damage I could inflict to his older brother….
I could always use Daiki.
But…
I saw my precious' last breath….and no matter how much I wanted to tell him that I love him, that I can change, he ended up promising to love Daiki.
Daiki is the main reason this all happened.
..
Ryo wouldn't have chosen to die if Daiki didn’t have feelings for me
And probably for the first time, I was keeping my promise.
For the first months, I can't get a way to get Daiki. But in the end, gradually, right just when I thought that Daiki will never ever want to see me again, he told me that we can start over again.
Ryosuke returned my love and showed his' by always coming back to me, no matter what I did he always came back.
Daiki, showed his' for waiting for so long, for enduring everything I did and for coming back to me too, for the first time, I realized….Daiki had gone through so many things because of me, and guilt suddenly crept as he told me start over again. That he can change for me.
That was how much he loved me, and I was able to see it clearly, and it's the love that needs to be returned. After all, Ryosuke sacrificed his self to give him a chance, he died clearing the way for us to start over.
I was afraid to lose Ryosuke that I hurt him.
I'm afraid to lose Daiki that I can do anything for us to just work out…
Now, no matter how much I want to deny it, I just can't because I know myself that there's nowhere I can go back to, than to Daiki. I love him….and I know he loves me.
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A/N: How's it? Sucks? Good? Hm. It's been more than a month since this fic ended and it means it took me that long to actually post this. I almost forgot about it, but was able to see it again when I reread the whole story :D I hope things are clearer now. Haha, I won't be expecting much comments...probably, people have forgotten about this promise XD
Btw, thanks for reading.:P