There's this thing called CLOSURE
Yes you've read that right. For people who knew I went through hell since last year...and people, well to be precise, 4 people (you know who you are) whom I had the chance to give overviews of what really happened...I now declare there's CLOSURE! LOL, that was empowering! Imagine me with big smile, a happy voice, and dancing to the beat of Happy by Pharell.
It was only after I had people I can talk to, that finally, my ex decided to talk to me seriously. Well, either the influence of alcohol, calling me at 3AM (I slept 1AM that day btw), crying for another ex...I finally took the courage of asking how was I as a girlfriend, or at least just what the hell went wrong? I knew what went wrong, it was a one-person relationship on rebound. That's going to be about it, but I still couldn't forget the part where I was called insensitive, immature, demanding, selfish, and just name it, except of flirt (which I most certainly did not do). So there I went, taking the final chance of asking. "How was I as a girlfriend?".
Of course, I really had to ask that because that was my first, and so far, my only. And there would be some quiet times that I would think something was wrong with me. And that was entirely my fault. And then, there...it was just a simple "You're perfect. You're perfect because you're so willing to change everything, take on anything for your partner". And that was a boost to my confidence once again, finally. And yeah most of you would suspect that I'm on the way of being stupid because you think that my ex is flirting with me, well guess what, that ain't going to happen. Believe me. For as long as I'm not flirting, nothing's gonna get me...and that just isn't my thing now.
So there, explanations cut short, I have no intentions of reiterating everything that was said. And since I was already there, I already asked, demanded even, for an apology for that one certain line that caused me to smack my ex in the face (I literally did). And that, was also given.
And just basically, I was smiling throughout. It was like there was this heavy ball in my mind, stomach, wherever the hell it dropped in my body when we broke up, got lifted up. They say there's no such thing as closure, and that no closure is just going to be about it, but for me, closure comes in different ways, we don't know when, how...but it just does, and it's the most fulfilling thing ever. And I'm glad I haven't written all my heartbreaks just yet before this post, because if I do, I will sound insane. I wish everyone out there, who are broken, never had closure, would just finally had, what I was given after that hell :)
This is the part where I'll say. Damn man! I finally moved on :)
It was only after I had people I can talk to, that finally, my ex decided to talk to me seriously. Well, either the influence of alcohol, calling me at 3AM (I slept 1AM that day btw), crying for another ex...I finally took the courage of asking how was I as a girlfriend, or at least just what the hell went wrong? I knew what went wrong, it was a one-person relationship on rebound. That's going to be about it, but I still couldn't forget the part where I was called insensitive, immature, demanding, selfish, and just name it, except of flirt (which I most certainly did not do). So there I went, taking the final chance of asking. "How was I as a girlfriend?".
Of course, I really had to ask that because that was my first, and so far, my only. And there would be some quiet times that I would think something was wrong with me. And that was entirely my fault. And then, there...it was just a simple "You're perfect. You're perfect because you're so willing to change everything, take on anything for your partner". And that was a boost to my confidence once again, finally. And yeah most of you would suspect that I'm on the way of being stupid because you think that my ex is flirting with me, well guess what, that ain't going to happen. Believe me. For as long as I'm not flirting, nothing's gonna get me...and that just isn't my thing now.
So there, explanations cut short, I have no intentions of reiterating everything that was said. And since I was already there, I already asked, demanded even, for an apology for that one certain line that caused me to smack my ex in the face (I literally did). And that, was also given.
And just basically, I was smiling throughout. It was like there was this heavy ball in my mind, stomach, wherever the hell it dropped in my body when we broke up, got lifted up. They say there's no such thing as closure, and that no closure is just going to be about it, but for me, closure comes in different ways, we don't know when, how...but it just does, and it's the most fulfilling thing ever. And I'm glad I haven't written all my heartbreaks just yet before this post, because if I do, I will sound insane. I wish everyone out there, who are broken, never had closure, would just finally had, what I was given after that hell :)
This is the part where I'll say. Damn man! I finally moved on :)