grrr
I'm very happy at this point in time but I know I am just cheating myself because even though sarah and I still act like a couple, I know it will all just be thrown out the window once we go to school. I can see the first few weeks of school being very depressing or very happy. This is probably the best summer I have ever had and I owe it to sarah and staying chemically free, and once I go back to school I know one or both of those things are going to end (as much as I don't want them to).
Girls are so damn confusing, she says she misses me like 10 minutes after we are done hanging out and to be honest I feel the same way (thats not the confusing part), the confusing part is that she also tells me how badly she wants to start school meaning the end of our relationship according to the talk we had a couple weeks ago. I don't want to say I am wasting my time with her because every second I am with her is amazing, but at the same time I don't want to have my heart broken especially right when I am going back to school. I have a history of falling short with my grades when things with girls aren't going right or take a turn for the worse, and to be honest I would take all the F's in the world if it meant we could stay together. I don't find myself to be a very selfish person, but I want to be selfish about this; and at the very same time I want her to experience college to the fullest. I say all this because I know this girl is too good to stay single; shes gorgeous, shes down to earth, easy to talk to, and every other pleasing adjective you can think of. Its going to kill me to see her with another guy, and probably a better guy than me. Maybe I am just destined to not get what I want in love, I dunno if I am just wierd or what, but it takes me so long to get over girls and especially being closer to this girl than any girl before.
Girls are so damn confusing, she says she misses me like 10 minutes after we are done hanging out and to be honest I feel the same way (thats not the confusing part), the confusing part is that she also tells me how badly she wants to start school meaning the end of our relationship according to the talk we had a couple weeks ago. I don't want to say I am wasting my time with her because every second I am with her is amazing, but at the same time I don't want to have my heart broken especially right when I am going back to school. I have a history of falling short with my grades when things with girls aren't going right or take a turn for the worse, and to be honest I would take all the F's in the world if it meant we could stay together. I don't find myself to be a very selfish person, but I want to be selfish about this; and at the very same time I want her to experience college to the fullest. I say all this because I know this girl is too good to stay single; shes gorgeous, shes down to earth, easy to talk to, and every other pleasing adjective you can think of. Its going to kill me to see her with another guy, and probably a better guy than me. Maybe I am just destined to not get what I want in love, I dunno if I am just wierd or what, but it takes me so long to get over girls and especially being closer to this girl than any girl before.