Title: Let me be the one that shines with you
Pairing: Ian/Anthony
Rating: R/NC-17
Warnings: Sexual themes
Summary: This fanfiction is inspired by a yaoi manga that I really like and that I think it's just perfect for them. I'd like you to guess the title :)
A/N: I'm not really happy with this chapter :( Hope you'll like it anyway
Disclaimer: I don't own Smosh
IAN'S POV.
It's been a week since I became Anthony's lover. I was still wary of his feelings though. The good thing about having Anthony as a lover's that we can do whatever we want without problems because he's my best friend and no one is suspicious if I go out openly with him or If I spend a lot of time with him. People already know that we live together and that we work together,so it's quite advantageous. I can just relax and have fun with him and,as bad as it could sounds,whenever we get horny,we can have sex (not really sex,but something that it's really,really close to that). The only thing that it's quite difficult to accept,is that I am the bottom.
'Aah,wait..' I panted 'Ant,I said wait..' I was knelt on the floor right in front of my bed. My hands were gripping at the sheets tightly and my head was pressed into the mattress. My boxers were somewhere around my thigh,exposing my butt to Anthony,who didn't have the intention to stop and who was furiously thrusting is fingers in and out of me. Faster and faster. Too fast.
'Freaking hell,Anthony..' I was breathing hard and it was difficult in that position and situation to make a coherent sentence. 'If you don't slow down,I'll come too fast.'
'Then just come' He hotly whispered in my ear. He thrusted his fingers faster then before if it was humanly possible.
'Ah fuck!' I felt myself getting weak on the knees as soon as I came. I closed my eyes and tried to regain my breath. My hands loosened the grip on the sheets and my body finally relaxed. When I opened my eyes,Anthony's head was pressed on the bed near mine and he was looking at me. I blinked.
'What?' I said.
'Lately,even when I use my fingers,you don't whimper anymore. It was cute,though. Maybe you've just gotten used to it.' I blushed and my eyes widened.
'Stop saying embarrassing things,you asshole!' He snorted a laugh.
'Next time do you want me to prevent so that you don't come this fast?'
'I'll kill you!'
'So that's a no then..' I shook my head and slapped his head,making him laugh even harder. So,at the end,the only problem with my relationship with Anthony is..our freaking mismatched sexual roles. It does feel really good. Really,really good. But every time we do those kind of things,I feel like in (some way) I'm losing my freaking manhood.
***
'Hey Anthony.'
'What?' He turned to me,while eating his taco.
'What are you doing? I mean,I know what you're doing,but are you done?'
'I have to edit the bloopers and then I think I'm done. I'm not sure if keeping those scenes or what. I think they're too explicit.' I approached him to look at the scenes he was talking about.
'I don't know man. You're probably right. There's too much.' I agreed.
'Ok,then. I'm gonna need other 15 minutes.' He paused and swallowed the last bite of the taco.'What are you up to?' He asked. I almost panic,since I didn't expect that question. I ran my hand through my hair and sighed.
'I was thinking that maybe i should join David and Joven to see..you know,ou-our usual meetings.' I stuttered,averting my gaze from him.
'You're going to watch porn?' He simply asked,waiting for an answer.
'Yeah,well…is it okay?'
'I don't even know why you're asking since you've always watch porn. We even watched it together.' He threw the dirty handkerchiefs of the taco in the can.
'Yeah I know. I was just thinking that you'd get angry since now I am you partner and all.'
'Hey Ian,I am a man too so I know how you feel. There's no need to worry like this.' I sighed in relief,making sure to hide my jumpiness.
'So..Why don't you come along? It'll be fun.' This time it was Anthony who reacted in a weird way.
'Erm,no I think I'll stay home.'
'Why is that? I think you were ok with this..' He furiously blushed at my question. I wondered why. He wasn't that pure of a guy.
'Erm,I..I'm not interested in 'normal' porn.'
'Ooh!' I immediately exclaimed. Wait. So,it means that…
'I like watching men. You know,gay porn.' That was a big surprised. Even though I'd have expected that. Suddenly,I was really mad. I wave my hands in the air.
'Ok,ok I got it. So you're telling me that you watch gay porn behind my back? So any men will do for you after all!'
'What the hell are you talking about?! Are you seriously jealous of porn?! What's wrong with you?!' I shook my head and tried to ignore his words.
'I'm so not done with you. I'm leaving now,but as soon as I come back,we'll resume our interesting conversation.' I shoot him an angry glare and got out the room. Down the hall I heard him scream from his bedroom.
'It's freaking PORN you weirdo!' Stupid Anthony. I tried not to smile and headed to the door. Once outside the house I saw Joven and David waiting for me.
'It's about time!' Said Joven.
'Oh,shut up. Let's go.' I entered his car and closed the door,making it slam.
'Someone's on his period!' David chuckled.
'I freaking heard you.' They got in the car and started the engine.
'Where's Anthony? He's not coming?' joven immediately asked. I gulped and tried to maintain a normal look. I thought of an excuse to tell them,but I wasn't that lucky.
'Erm, he decided to stay home and work a bit. We're quite late with the editing.' I really hoped that was enough.
'Oh,alright. That's too bad though. Well,let's go then.' I nodded and looked towards our house one last time.
***
Of course, the day got worser than ever. I couldn't even concentrate on what I was watching. The only thing I kept thinking about while watching that porn was Anthony and his fantasies. Maybe right now Anthony was watching gay porn while thinking about me. I kept thinking about the fact that Anthony didn't like beautiful,pink boobs anymore,but instead he likes dicks and that he didn't think about a soft butt anymore,but instead he thinks about riding a .. oh my God! I mentally slapped myself and shook my head. 'Oh fuck off!' I forgot to keep quite and now David and Joven were looking at me really confused.
'What's wrong?' David asked,raising an eyebrow. I frozed.
'N-nothing,it's just that I don't really like this one. It doesn't make me feel anything and I think it's quite boring.' I look at him in the eyes,trying to see any trace(s) of disappointment. After a while,he decided to talk.
'Yeah,I agree with you. It's not as good as the others we already saw. I'm sorry I should have looking for something else.' He took hold of the remote control and paused the movie.
'No,it's okay. It's not like you knew. We should finish anyway.' Joven glanced at David,making him understand that he wasn't going to finish that shit and David agreed.
'Okay,then. Since I don't want to ruin our fun,what do you say if we play something? Also Mari should join us later and she will bring a new interesting Wii game.'
'Yeah,okay. Then I'll call Anthony to see if he's done working so that he can join us.' Despite the fact that I was still 'mad' at him,I didn't want to exclude him or to be rude towards him.
'That's great. I'll get the things we need.' With that,Joven disappeared in the living room. I took advantage of the moment to call Anthony.
'Hey David,I'll be right back.' He simply nodded and I headed towards the yard. I closed the door behind me and started dialing his number. He answered after 4 freaking rings.
'Hello?'
'It's me.' I said
'Oh hey Ian..Are you having fun? Why you called?' I could hear the music he was listeingn to. It was really loud. He immediately turned it off though.
'At the end we decided to play some new video games,so I thought you'd be interested. Wanna come? It's me,David,Joven and Mari.' He cleared his voice and sighed.
'I thought you were mad at me.' Dammit!.
'Yeah,well…' I didn't know what to say. At the end it was just a stupid matter and I didn't even know why I got that mad.
'Well?' He insisted. I shook my head even if he couldn't see me and sighed aloud. I pressed my head onto the wall,closing my eyes. Nothing came out my mouth.
'Listen,Ian,as regards our conversation, I think that if you would just let me do you,I wouldn't have to watch porn at all. I know it's not easy for you,but at the end it was your choice to be with me and you perfectly knew how I felt about you.' I bit back my retort,biting my lips hard. 'Everytime I have the opportunity to touch you,you're always too shy to even let me look at you properly and it's kinda frustrating.'
'So you're telling me that it's my fault?' I snapped,slamming my free hand against the wall. Then I remember that I wasn't alone. Fuck. 'Listen,I don't even care. I don't want to argue right now. See you in 10 minutes. Bye.' I hang up without even waiting for him to answer. I put my phone back in the pocket of my jeans and headed to the room where I was met with Mary who arrived while I was talking with Anthony,apparently. Hope they haven't heard.
'Hey Ian!' Said Mari,waving her hands to greet me.
'Hey!' I tried to greet her with a smile.
'Where were you?!'
'Erm,I was talking to Anthony on the phone,telling him to join us. He's gonna be here in 10 minutes,I think.'
'So he'll come?! That's good news!' Said Joven. I simply nodded,sitting on the couch and waiting for Anthony to arrive. I kept thinking about our previous conversation. I was feeling even more stupid than before. Why the hell did I get mad like this? He was right,It's me that decided to stay by his side and be his partner and now I have to deal with all this. It's not his fault If I'm this detached. I brought my hands to my face and sighed and stayed like for almost 15 minutes,then I heard Anthony's voice and I jumped a little. Our eyes met and he smiled at me and I couldn't help but respond.
'Hi guys!'
'Hey man,you did it! You finally came!' David shouted from the kitchen,followed by Joven who was holding a plate of pop corn. 'I thought you were full of work to do. That's what Ian said. '
'Oh he said that?' He looked at me and I immediately avoided his gaze,looking at my shoes.
'Yep. He said you didn't come to watch porn because you had a lot of editing to do.' As soon as I glanced at him,I saw him chuckling and shocking his head. David an Joven didn't seem to notice.
'So! Who wants to play?!' Joven shouted.
'Me,me,me,me!! I play first.' Mari took hold of one of the controller and sat on the floor,waiting for Joven to join her.
'I'm gonna win,you know that,right?' He teased her.
'Oh,we'll see.' We laughed and the atmosphere was bearable again.
'i'll go the the bathroom then.' Anthony announced,like we cared.
'Thanks for sharing.' David said,laughing while eating some pop corn from the plate. I saw Anthony heading towards the bathroom and trying tnot to be noticed,I followed him. Once we both reached the bathroom's door,I grabbed him by his arm,making him jump a little.
'Jesus,Ian! You scared the shit out of me.' He said,trying not to shout.
'Sorry,I didn't mean to.' I whispered and looked down at our feet. I felt his hands on both of my shoulders and I immediately looked up at him. One of his hands left my shoulder and gently touched my face,caressing it with affection.
'I'm sorry for today,Ian. I shouldn't have said all those rude things.' I slightly shook my head,grabbing his hand and squeezed it tightly.
'It's not your fault. I'm a mean jerk. I am the one who decided to be with you and I don't have the right to treat you like this,but you know..I thought it was easer to deal with..this situation.' I looked at him,hoping he'd understand. He leaned in and close the gap between us.
'Ian,It's okay. I'd never force you to do anything and-'
'You're not forcing me!' He gently placed his finger against my lip.
'Hush,let me finish.' He whispered.'I perfectly know that it's all new to you and today when I said those things,I was just nervous and maybe irritated because you were going to have fun without me. I'm just so happy now that I can look at you like I really want to. I would never hurt you,you mean too much to me.' All the tension was gone in an instant. Those words made my heart melt like a freaking ice cream. I hugged him so tightly that he was probably having trouble(s) breathing. I felt his arm wrapping around my waist,pulling me closer to him,letting me feel the wonderful heat of his body. His nose was pressed against my neck,lips ghosting over my skin. I shivered and closed my eyes.
'Ant..' I breathed.
'Mmm?'
'I-I followed you here because I wanted to do something,you know..' I felt my cheeks becoming red. One of his hands was slowly rubbing my back,going lower and lower until it was squeezing my butt. I let out a low moan.
'You know that we should go back? They might wondering why it's taking me so long and why you're not on the couch anymore.' He kept massaging my ass with one hand,while the other one was slowing making it's way to the front of my jeans.
'I don't care,Anthony.' I growled. 'They probably didn't' even notice.' I kissed the corner of his mouth and his soft lips and then I took hold of his arm,making me feel a sense of lost as soon as it wasn't on me anymore and headed to Joven's bedroom. He followed without complaining and closed the door behind us. He gently pushed me on the bed,crawling on top of me and started undressing me. I let out a moan and gripped his soft hair.
'Anthony..' He leaned closer to my face and hotly purred in my ear.
'What do you want me to do to you,Ian?' My eyes rolled back and I couldn't take it anymore. I needed him.
'Suck me. Suck me,Anthony.' Without a second thought,he unzipped my jeans and pulled them down with my boxers. He looked at me straight in the eyes and started licking my shaft. From the base to the tip,taking a moment to teasingly running his tongue over it,making me shudder from the pleasure.
'You're damn good at this…' I panted. 'Fuck!' I cried as soon as he took me deeper,maintaining eye contact. My heart was beating fast,my hand was gripping tighter on his hair,guiding the bobbing motion he was doing. With his free hand he began to play with my balls. It felt so freaking good that I couldn't help thrusting up into his mouth. He moaned against my member,multiplying the pleasure.
'Do you like it?' He hotly whispered against my dick.
'Fuck yes!' I moaned,thrusting up one more time,touching his lips with the tip of my penis. He seductively grinned and resume sucking me,faster and harder than before,pressing on until my length disappeared in his mouth,touching/hitting the very back of his throat.
'Fuck Anthony! I'm gonna come..' I gasped. He secured his lips on my dick,not wanting to let go. With one last thrust,I came hard in his mouth,breathing hard and almost shouting his name.
'Anthony! y-yes! Oh my God!' My mouth was slightly open,letting out another silent moan. He reached my face and gently placed a lingering kiss on my lips,smiling at my expression. I was so freaking dazed. I never thought that receiving a blow job from a man could feel this damn good. I slowly open my eyes and I was met with Anthony's smiling face. I smiled back and sat straight on the bed.
'Too bad it's all over.' I grinned,teasing him a bit. He chuckled.
'Yes,that's too bad.' He smiled and helped me get dressed.
'Do you think they will noticed that we were gone like for 30 minutes?' I snorted out a laugh.
'I don't really care.' We smiled at each other and kissed one more time and in that exact moment,Mari entered the room.
'Fuck!'
~Stand by me
Nobody knows the way it's gonna be~