We sat around the table in silence. All of us knew that what Greg had suggested was the best possible option, but none of us knew what to say about it
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I'm an idiot. I think it's as simple as that. The worst part is that I'm not as upset as I should be at the way it all ended because it was Ruth instead of me. What kind of person does that make me?
Yes. But I think everyone knew the risk so you weren't the only idiot. You were one of the idiots to survive to tell the tale. I do not think there was any way to get out of this without some major sacrifice of a life. It's how it was designed I think. For that matter the grand supreme master of all things created is in fact an idiot. God has no clue what he is doing you know? No sweet fucking clue.
God is an idiot? The Bible makes him out to be a selfish tyrant who demands that the world to follow him blindly without question. I'm not a believer anyhow. Lifelong atheist here.
It's easier to stop beating myself up over what happened when I have the most beautiful private stretch of beach just outside my front door and access to enough liquor to make me forget my own name. We all have our own ways of coping with tragedy.
Ah beaches and booze good combination. Wish I had the time for both. But alas too much responsibility and bills to afford the time. Also not too sure my health would last if I drank like I used to. Unfortunately I'm not 20 anymore. Enjoy a drink or two and a swim in that ocean for me will you?
I'm supposed to be back at the Motherhouse by now, but I've been ignoring their messages. I don't need any more responsibility in my life. My health is shot anyhow and I'm already over 50, so it's just downhill from here, isn't it? I never did learn so swim, so I think it would be best to avoid the ocean.
I'm perfectly content to watch the ocean from a distance and I do enjoy the sound of the waves at night. Louis and I do not see eye to eye on much of anything, so I won't be asking for swimming lessons.
I turned 52 in March. They say that age is only a number, don't they? I feel 90 some days.
I start on the whisky just after breakfast. It's keeping me sane.
His visits to the guest house have been quite frequent, but it has always been by invitation. I haven't noticed any ill effects on my health, but he doesn't take enough to do any serious harm.
You're right, of course. There is absolutely nothing sane about any of this and I have no idea what in the hell I'm doing, but I don't want to stop. The whisky prevents me from thinking too much about it.
There is a certain level of trust between Lestat and I. I would like to think that after all we've been though, we are friends. If he wanted to kill me, I would be dead by now. He's doing this because I ask him to, not to cause me any harm. It's quite the opposite really. It's an incredible feeling. It's similar to the euphoria caused by methamphetamine, but even more pure.
I am not concerned about the dark gift. I don't want it and he's not offering.
Yeah whisky is great for making the thinking stop. It's great for Jackson Square at 3am and flashing the street cam too. Actually I'm lucky there were no state troopers patrolling. Ha!
I've never tried Meth or had a vampire sip me so I'm just going to have to take your word on that. Never want to try Meth either..The vampire thing I might consider. Yes if Lestat wanted you dead you'd be dead that's true enough. Ha! Don't tell him you don't want it - David did that and now he's a vampire.
I've never been to Jackson Square at 3am, but if I ever am I'll be sure to watch out for flashers. I am told that you and Seraph will be visiting New Orleans again this year.
Don't try either. Both are extremely difficult habits to break.
I have nothing but admiration and respect for David Talbot, but I will never end up like him.
Not sure if it's heroic or foolish to have thrown yourself on the demon bomb for a vampire.
At any rate it was a solution.
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Yes. But I think everyone knew the risk so you weren't the only idiot. You were one of the idiots to survive to tell the tale. I do not think there was any way to get out of this without some major sacrifice of a life. It's how it was designed I think. For that matter the grand supreme master of all things created is in fact an idiot. God has no clue what he is doing you know? No sweet fucking clue.
I wouldn't beat yourself up too much over it.
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It's easier to stop beating myself up over what happened when I have the most beautiful private stretch of beach just outside my front door and access to enough liquor to make me forget my own name. We all have our own ways of coping with tragedy.
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God is a tyrant too. An idiot tyrant.
Ah beaches and booze good combination. Wish I had the time for both. But alas too much responsibility and bills to afford the time. Also not too sure my health would last if I drank like I used to. Unfortunately I'm not 20 anymore. Enjoy a drink or two and a swim in that ocean for me will you?
Athena
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I'm supposed to be back at the Motherhouse by now, but I've been ignoring their messages. I don't need any more responsibility in my life. My health is shot anyhow and I'm already over 50, so it's just downhill from here, isn't it? I never did learn so swim, so I think it would be best to avoid the ocean.
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Well yes we create our own gods and then these creations of ours sometimes run amok.
Ah you will have to have Lestat teach you how to swim - Or maybe Louis-Lestat isn't always patient when it comes to teaching.
Over 50? You mean I'm not the oldest human anymore here? Damn. Here I was dreading turning 46 in December.
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I turned 52 in March. They say that age is only a number, don't they? I feel 90 some days.
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Cut back on the whisky and take some vitimin A every day.
I mean if Lestat is drinking from you often you need to keep hydrated and the vitimin A up..oh and Iron too.
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His visits to the guest house have been quite frequent, but it has always been by invitation. I haven't noticed any ill effects on my health, but he doesn't take enough to do any serious harm.
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Well if it's keeping you sane although I fail to see how letting a vampire drink from you is a sane thing. But really who am I to judge?
That's odd for Lestat to only take a sip. He's a drink them dry kind of guy usually.
Of course there is the possibility he is prepping you for the "dark gift". So maybe not so odd after all.
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There is a certain level of trust between Lestat and I. I would like to think that after all we've been though, we are friends. If he wanted to kill me, I would be dead by now. He's doing this because I ask him to, not to cause me any harm. It's quite the opposite really. It's an incredible feeling. It's similar to the euphoria caused by methamphetamine, but even more pure.
I am not concerned about the dark gift. I don't want it and he's not offering.
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Yeah whisky is great for making the thinking stop. It's great for Jackson Square at 3am and flashing the street cam too. Actually I'm lucky there were no state troopers patrolling. Ha!
I've never tried Meth or had a vampire sip me so I'm just going to have to take your word on that. Never want to try Meth either..The vampire thing I might consider. Yes if Lestat wanted you dead you'd be dead that's true enough. Ha! Don't tell him you don't want it - David did that and now he's a vampire.
Athena
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Don't try either. Both are extremely difficult habits to break.
I have nothing but admiration and respect for David Talbot, but I will never end up like him.
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