Suicide Hotline
It ain't no point to me waking up,
Everybody's time I'm taking up.
I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near,
I can't stay here, and it's colder there.
I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt
I slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt.
For me everybody holds a hate,
I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake.
It's no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive,
Bustin' at myself, and I'm tryin' to survive.
I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down,
And I ain't got many home boys comin' round.
You don't understand, so don't say you do,
I swear I'll put a motherfuckin' slug in you.
I'm the only one, the lonely one,
At home alone, loading a gun, thinking why not?
I got court comin' up, I stole a truck,
I got a bitch pregnant, and I'm broke as fuck.
I wanna get high, but I got piss test,
I'm always first name on top of the shit list.
Get this, the Witch has made my chest,
It's permanent nightly visiting nest.
It ain't no clothes that I look good in,
I'm the motherfuckin' big red train that couldn't.
I got no family, I stole they shit,
Restraining orders, and I still won't quit.
I hit rock bottom, and then I fell in a hole,
And then I fell through the floor of that hole some more.
I been missin' for a year, nobody's lookin',
I got beat down and my shit tookin'.
I look ahead, and all I see is more of the same,
Or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain.
I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel,
The dreams are getting more serious, think I'm in trouble.
I don't hold memory for more than an hour,
I'm tired as fuck and I'm drained of power.
I ain't halfway there and I'm all out of time,
I'm like a crushed light bulb, all out of shine.
I been around the world but no place is home,
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome.
I'm butt naked, I been jackin' off, gettin' drunk,
It's my last hours alive, who gives a fuck?
It don't matter, I'm doing the shit in the garage,
Tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage.
The bitch I loved, I hope she finds me.
Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me.
Everybody's time I'm taking up.
I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near,
I can't stay here, and it's colder there.
I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt
I slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt.
For me everybody holds a hate,
I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake.
It's no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive,
Bustin' at myself, and I'm tryin' to survive.
I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down,
And I ain't got many home boys comin' round.
You don't understand, so don't say you do,
I swear I'll put a motherfuckin' slug in you.
I'm the only one, the lonely one,
At home alone, loading a gun, thinking why not?
I got court comin' up, I stole a truck,
I got a bitch pregnant, and I'm broke as fuck.
I wanna get high, but I got piss test,
I'm always first name on top of the shit list.
Get this, the Witch has made my chest,
It's permanent nightly visiting nest.
It ain't no clothes that I look good in,
I'm the motherfuckin' big red train that couldn't.
I got no family, I stole they shit,
Restraining orders, and I still won't quit.
I hit rock bottom, and then I fell in a hole,
And then I fell through the floor of that hole some more.
I been missin' for a year, nobody's lookin',
I got beat down and my shit tookin'.
I look ahead, and all I see is more of the same,
Or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain.
I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel,
The dreams are getting more serious, think I'm in trouble.
I don't hold memory for more than an hour,
I'm tired as fuck and I'm drained of power.
I ain't halfway there and I'm all out of time,
I'm like a crushed light bulb, all out of shine.
I been around the world but no place is home,
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome.
I'm butt naked, I been jackin' off, gettin' drunk,
It's my last hours alive, who gives a fuck?
It don't matter, I'm doing the shit in the garage,
Tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage.
The bitch I loved, I hope she finds me.
Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me.