May 03, 2004 02:10
this thing is still here? yeah, its been a while. i just haven't had anything to update about. i guess this is going to be one of those "i haven't updated in a while, so i'm doing it now for no reason" updates.
sometimes i feel like i used to be more motivated, more driven, and smarter. then i hit my head and got something like 13 stitches. if i could go back in my life to any point, i would go back to the summer of 2002. then i wouldn't have cross threaded that one spark plug, done some stuff with christina, been disapointed about prom, would have done more weight lifting, would have made different choices about where to go for college (maybe), and done things differently once i got here. i feel like i can't get some things right. i keep making the same mistakes, and i'm not getting anywhere. maybe i'm not dedicated enough. maybe i just need to "sell out" and believe in something 200% and just go for it, no matter what the consequences are. maybe... haha
whatever. its my life. i need to take control of it.
for those of you that don't know, i have a new sn for aim (newer than ian5959). if you don't know, its probably because we don't talk very much, or i just don't care. take it whatever way you want to.