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I sit here, in the luminance of my GE 40 watt energy-saving light bulb and I find myself utterly ... lost. The physical status of my life is an altogether positive one, I must say, but in terms of the gravel that lies ahead (both tomorrow, next week, and two years from now) that seems both utterly irrepressible and daunting to say the least. I find it humorous that as my career in high school comes to an end (for all intents and purposes, high school is over for me) that I have so many regrets and at the same time, so few. In reality, there are about 15 months left until I walk across the "Stage" (Football field) and 15 months until I give my speech, but everything after half way through first semester senior year is pretty much down time. The months leading up to that point, however, are slowly building to a zenith, the most amazing zenith of my life. In terms of what I have experienced so far (which is, to say the least, not much) these next few months will prove more about me than another collection of months ever could. I find myself as a middle of the roader two steps ahead of the midpoint. I wish to be at the head of that road. To accomplish this, I must destroy those who are ahead of me. Destroyed, they shall be. The sat Reasoning Test is quickly coming to my footstep. 1960 was a good year. 1810 was... not so good. 2110... who knows if we'll even make it there. We will. We definitely will. So, as the world sits on the side of this highway and peers towards Us, I stare back and smile. I feel like I have an ace up my sleeve. In fact, I know I do. You will have to forgive my pretentiousness, but after a lifetime of self doubt, the time has come for confidence to show and for those who are ahead to get behind. One week from tonight, I will be in New York. I always detested New York and the entire New York culture, even post-9/11. Just like I find that the tiniest aspects of my character are changing, I notice that my hatred for New York might be false. I love sky scrapers. Our country needs more. We'll break Taipei, Shanghai, and anyone else who wants to surpass our might. Their teeming masses can go underground. Our masses go upward. We all go upward.