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I have been lost in love land.
Now that im coming back to reality i realize how insane this may be.
but damn it sure feels good.
im such an asshole though.
im with an amazing woman, who does everything she can for me, not to mention who happens to be pretty damn decent in bed, yet i still think of others.
hopefully this just disappears, it seems to every time im with her, its just when shes gone that i question things.
so i know its fear and not the relationship.
so instead of the normal reaction to run once 'the chase' is over, im oging to stick it out and see what happens.
but god i still miss her.....
on another note, i got a link from my ex tonia today w/pics of my boys(her nephews we took care of in LA) i miss them so bad, i just keep staring at their pictures, i looked at them at the library for the first time and began to cry, i will never see them again, soon, if not already, i will be a faded memory that will be forgotten.
this always happens to me
Now that im coming back to reality i realize how insane this may be.
but damn it sure feels good.
im such an asshole though.
im with an amazing woman, who does everything she can for me, not to mention who happens to be pretty damn decent in bed, yet i still think of others.
hopefully this just disappears, it seems to every time im with her, its just when shes gone that i question things.
so i know its fear and not the relationship.
so instead of the normal reaction to run once 'the chase' is over, im oging to stick it out and see what happens.
but god i still miss her.....
on another note, i got a link from my ex tonia today w/pics of my boys(her nephews we took care of in LA) i miss them so bad, i just keep staring at their pictures, i looked at them at the library for the first time and began to cry, i will never see them again, soon, if not already, i will be a faded memory that will be forgotten.
this always happens to me