Fucking tired
Fuck you all!! No not all of you in the world, no not everyone who reads this. But fuck everyone who puts me on the back burner! Fuck everyone who only cares when it's convinient! Fuck all of you FUCK YOU!
I'm so fucking tired of being nothing to everyone! Here is the reality, everyone my phone rings I get excited. Thinking maybe it's one of my grand friends calling me... wanting to do something. Is it??? Rarely and when it is it's not because they think, "Hey Kat is cool and fun. And she cares so much about me and would do anything for me so I'll call her." No it's more like they think... I need something I'll call Kat, I'm depressed I'll call Kat. NONE OF MY REAL FRIENDS WILL TALK TO ME SO i GUESS SINCE I'M REALLY BORED I'LL CALL KAT!!
I don't need this shit! I've been walked on my whole fucking life. Now I know that I think I'm an awful person but that's personal reasons. I treat all of my friends like their fucking princesses and princes. If they're even sick and don't go to school I call just to make sure they're okay. If they're upset I say well listen if you need anything I'm here. AND IT'S true, I love helping my friends if they need anything, and I don't even mind that no one is there for me when I'm depressed. It's okay, I get depressed a lot so I'm used to no one caring or taking me seriously. But I get pissed when I call everyong I fucking SPEND anytime with and NO ONE FUCKING CALLS ME BACK!!!!! Not because the'yre too busy, not because they're going through a bad situation, but merely because THEY DON'T FUCKING NEED ME SO THEY DON'T CALL!!!
So maybe I should just stop calling people and invinging them to do stuff because it's FAR FAR too much for me to ask of someone to do the same back to me. So fuck all of you who I ever thought gave a damn. Because I know when I leave for college or leave for death none of you will give a fuck. Megan will, Orion will, my family will. So fuck everyone else. And let me just say befroe the wrong ppl read this and think this is directed toward them. If we never spend anytime together, if I never call you and we're just old friends or acquaintences then this isn't directed toward you. You don't use me, you don't lie to me. Fuck everyone else
I'm so fucking tired of being nothing to everyone! Here is the reality, everyone my phone rings I get excited. Thinking maybe it's one of my grand friends calling me... wanting to do something. Is it??? Rarely and when it is it's not because they think, "Hey Kat is cool and fun. And she cares so much about me and would do anything for me so I'll call her." No it's more like they think... I need something I'll call Kat, I'm depressed I'll call Kat. NONE OF MY REAL FRIENDS WILL TALK TO ME SO i GUESS SINCE I'M REALLY BORED I'LL CALL KAT!!
I don't need this shit! I've been walked on my whole fucking life. Now I know that I think I'm an awful person but that's personal reasons. I treat all of my friends like their fucking princesses and princes. If they're even sick and don't go to school I call just to make sure they're okay. If they're upset I say well listen if you need anything I'm here. AND IT'S true, I love helping my friends if they need anything, and I don't even mind that no one is there for me when I'm depressed. It's okay, I get depressed a lot so I'm used to no one caring or taking me seriously. But I get pissed when I call everyong I fucking SPEND anytime with and NO ONE FUCKING CALLS ME BACK!!!!! Not because the'yre too busy, not because they're going through a bad situation, but merely because THEY DON'T FUCKING NEED ME SO THEY DON'T CALL!!!
So maybe I should just stop calling people and invinging them to do stuff because it's FAR FAR too much for me to ask of someone to do the same back to me. So fuck all of you who I ever thought gave a damn. Because I know when I leave for college or leave for death none of you will give a fuck. Megan will, Orion will, my family will. So fuck everyone else. And let me just say befroe the wrong ppl read this and think this is directed toward them. If we never spend anytime together, if I never call you and we're just old friends or acquaintences then this isn't directed toward you. You don't use me, you don't lie to me. Fuck everyone else