Yeah
I have recently decided that I have completely lost my mind. Or at least I am on my way. I have so many "emotion" and "trust" issues. I hate myself for it, and I don't mean I hate myself in the sense that i want to kill myself for all you buttheads out there. I just mean it sucks majorly to think about my relationships with people the way I do.
Argh! I wish for once that when someone asks me what I am thinking about I could actually give them a straight answer. I am so evasive to telling people how I feel. I just think that telling someone how I feel could inevitable drive them away from me.
This is my predicament, I have just recently told someone something rather large for someone like me to tell. I also told him not to bring it up face to face, however, I'm not sure I don't want to talk about it. I kind of want him to bring it up so that I don't have to... but hey...I am just scared, and stupid. I'm a headcase, and I know it. Oh well. I guess I will never know... And thats fine because I'd rather suffer alone than to show it to other people.
Anyhow, I am gonna go, my head hurts and I have a fever.
<3 Miss Mary
Argh! I wish for once that when someone asks me what I am thinking about I could actually give them a straight answer. I am so evasive to telling people how I feel. I just think that telling someone how I feel could inevitable drive them away from me.
This is my predicament, I have just recently told someone something rather large for someone like me to tell. I also told him not to bring it up face to face, however, I'm not sure I don't want to talk about it. I kind of want him to bring it up so that I don't have to... but hey...I am just scared, and stupid. I'm a headcase, and I know it. Oh well. I guess I will never know... And thats fine because I'd rather suffer alone than to show it to other people.
Anyhow, I am gonna go, my head hurts and I have a fever.
<3 Miss Mary