freaking out a little bit
i dont know whether this is a random wave or a permanent thing, but lately ive been thinking of breaking up with golo. when i talk to him it just drags and i don't really care about making an effort. it comes and goes though. i wonder if we need a break, or if its just whole happy-new-relationship thing wearing off. i dunno. ill have to think about it. we just kinda go over the same things when we talk sometimes and i get bored... i figure telling him about all this will shake things up and revamp our relationship but i need to figure out what exactly isnt going right for me. i think we might be so used to skyping that regular talking is out of practice for us too. he's incredibly sweet and thoughtful, and he's treated me well, so i don't want to make another stupid mistake about this. and this relationship really requires thinking ahead, since visiting each other takes months of planning. ahh wish i knew what was going on.