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I must be retarded for getting in so deep so fast. I really don't want to get played. I'm scared and I feel like I'm all alone and I don't know how to fix all this damage. It's going to be so hard for me to get a job now. If I still had my job I could take care of my boyfriend and we'd both be happy. I don't know how to say no to people and I've spent all my money and now I still have to pay back Mom and Cash Today. I don't know what to do. I've gotten lost in myself. I have to admit, Anthony did kinda sweep me off my feet, and he kept saying things like I'm not gonna let go of you and such. I thought I was doing everything right. Why can't I ever be enough for the guys that I date. I try too hard. Maybe that's the problem. I just got caught up in it all. I got jealous and insecure. I saw someone's post and it reminded me about the situation I'm in. I must be acting a fool.. I wish I could age myself a little so I could be good enough. I started out acting maturely, and somewhere I must have screwed it all up.
Laurie
Laurie